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World renowned Jazz musician and professor Dr. Ryan Nielsen was recently disinvited from speaking at BYU-Idaho jazz fest as punishment for telling his story on Mormon Stories podcast.

Original Episode:

1287-1293: Surviving Spiritual Abuse and Suicidality as BYU-Idaho Faculty & Non-Believing Spouse – Ryan & Holly Nielsen

Additional Resources mentioned in the episodes:

  • Ryan’s AMAZING faith crisis/transition Reading/Podcast list can be found here, and has also been included below, after the video and audio links.  This is probably the most impressive and thoughtful resources list I’ve ever seen for Mormon/religious faith transitions.
  • Holly’s Art:  — This link goes straight to the art Holly has done related to her faith transition, and her reclamation of motherhood.
  • Ryan’s Music: — This link goes straight to the music portion of Ryan’s website. Several pieces there are related to my faith transition, including “Prayer for Peace” and “Requiem.”

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  1. 404 Not Found March 8, 2024 at 6:07 pm - Reply

    There’s no link to the reading list, and Links found through Google return 404 Not Found.

  2. Robert M Hodge March 11, 2024 at 9:31 am - Reply

    The MORG pulling the covers over its head.

  3. Robert M Hodge March 11, 2024 at 6:57 pm - Reply

    Well, first they disinvited my great great grandfather (Thomas E. Ricks) by changing the name of the college to brother Brigham then they disinvite a great musician from speaking and performing. What a shame. But not surprising.

  4. Brent March 15, 2024 at 12:34 pm - Reply

    Love Ryan’s music and kind heart.

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