In February 2012, Jeremy Runnels experienced a crisis of faith, which subsequently led to a faith transition in the summer of 2012. In the spring of 2013, Jeremy was approached and asked by a Church Education System (CES) Director to share his concerns and questions about the LDS Church’s origins, history, and current practices. In response, Jeremy wrote what later became publicly known as Letter to a CES Director.
Letter to a CES Director very quickly went viral on the internet. The CES Director responded that he read the “very well written” letter and that he would provide Jeremy with a response. No response ever came.
In the fall of 2013, FairMormon, an unofficial LDS apologetic group, publicly released an analysis of Letter to a CES Director. In response, Jeremy published Debunking FAIR’s Debunking.
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Introducing Jeremy Runnells and the CES Letter
Part 1 of 3 · Ep. 480
John Dehlin [00:00:19] Hello and welcome to another edition of Mormon Stories podcast. I'm your host, John Dehlin, and as always, I'm super excited to have a special guest with me today. Today we're recording this in Salt Lake City, kind of downtown. We have seven people who are here watching. You can't see them, but I'm happy to have a bit of an audience here. And we're here to interview Jeremy Runnells. Jeremy, we're going to get into his story, but some of you may have heard of the letter to a CES director. Cesletter.com I think is the website. The short story, just to hook you into the interview, is that Jeremy was struggling with his testimony, lived a very traditional, devout LDS life until the point where he started having questions. And eventually his grandfather found out about this and offered for Jeremy to write a letter to a CES director friend of his grandfather. He wrote the letter. The letter was received but was never responded to. But it was such a good letter, I guess he got good feedback from it that he has kind of expounded upon it and published it to a webpage. And it definitely has been a phenomenon sweeping intellectual Mormonism and it's impacted a lot of people. So we're going to talk about it today. This is part of a multi part series. So after we're done with this interview, I've invited Brad Kramer, who I've interviewed a few sessions ago, who's a faithful sort of scholar. He's going to sort of defend the believing positions. And I've invited Jane Nelson Seawright, who is a professor at Northwestern University, and he's a non believer and they're good friends and they're going to have kind of a very gentlemanly discussion about letter to CES director, pros and cons and perspectives about it. So this is a a long series, but I'm loving every minute of it. So without any further ado, Jeremy Runnells, welcome to Mormon Stories.
Jeremy Runnells [00:02:27] Thank you for having me.
Growing Up Deaf and Life with a Cochlear Implant
John Dehlin [00:02:30] So, before we begin, Jeremy, you are deaf. Why don't you talk just about that for just a second?
Jeremy Runnells [00:02:36] Sure. I'm actually deaf in both ears and I hear through what is called a cochlear implant. And it might be better to explain through a video. So just watch this video and it will just go over how cochlear implants work.
Guest [00:02:55] In a cochlear implant system, sound enters a microphone and travels to an external minicomputer called a sound processor. The sound is processed and converted into digital information. This digital information is sent over a Transmitter antenna to the surgically implanted part of the system. The implant will turn the sound information into electrical signals that travel down to an electrode array inserted into the tiny inner ear, or cochlear. Bypassing the damaged inner ear, the cochlear implant provides an entirely new mechanism for hearing.
John Dehlin [00:03:45] Real quick, were you born deaf?
Jeremy Runnells [00:03:47] I was born hearing. When I was about three or four years old, I was diagnosed with hearing loss. At first it was mild hearing loss, and then over the course of 20 years, it just progressively got worse. In the course of 20 years, I wore hearing aids. And when I was about 24 years old, after I came home from my mission, I got my first cochlear implant and my left ear. And about seven years later, I got my second cochlear implant, and it just totally changed my life.
John Dehlin [00:04:19] Excellent. Well, let's just jump in then. Tell us just briefly, about your early experiences with the church. Were they positive? Tell us about the level of testimony you obtained before it started unraveling and just a high level. Any positive experiences you've had with the church to sort of tell us to what extent you were committed and believing before things started unraveling.
Jeremy's Faithful Mormon Upbringing and Early Life
Jeremy Runnells [00:04:43] Sure. I was born into a faithful home. My parents were. They were married in the Salt Lake City temple. I was born in Whittier, California. And throughout my life I lived in different cities in Southern California. My parents were strong believing Mormons. I come from a pioneer heritage. I have family all the way back to Nauvoo. They traveled the plains to Utah. I always believed in the church. I just grew up Mormon. I did the whole 9 yards. I was baptized when I was 8 years old.
John Dehlin [00:05:24] Where were you growing up? In the church.
Jeremy Runnells [00:05:27] This is in Southern California, in your area? Yeah, Orange county, parts of Los Angeles. So, yeah, I just went to church my entire life. I was baptized when I was 8 years old by my dad. My parents were divorced when I was three or four years old. So that had a really profound impact on my life, on the life of my brothers, my family. That's an interesting situation right there. My parents, you know, as they were going through the divorce, it kind of got hairy in the courts. And so somehow they got. I'm not sure if my dad proposed the idea or the bishop came to them, but it was proposed that instead of the judge in the court deciding which kid goes with who, we would have the bishop do it. Yeah. And so it wasn't like this bishop was a judge or a social worker or anything. He was a financial planner. So I sound qualified but at the time, it shows you how strong my parents played. I mean, maybe this man has inspiration. He would know what God would want for a family. So from what I understand, the bishop decided me and my oldest brother would go with my dad and my other brother would go with my mom. And so that was pretty devastating to my mom. From what I understand, it created a pretty crazy situation over there. I mean, word spread around in the ward and the stakes and the stakes in that area, from my understanding, it was mostly negative because they just couldn't believe how a bishop would decide this. A lot of people felt that it should have been the courts. I'm not sure all the details. That's my understanding, but. But I just wanted to bring that up just to illustrate how strong my family believed in Mormonism. And so it started that I lived with my dad my entire childhood. I had a great childhood. Both my parents loved me. And it was great. After my parents divorced, my dad remarried. And that was an interesting situation because.
John Dehlin [00:08:10] Because
Jeremy Runnells [00:08:12] my dad had four kids and the new woman that he married had four kids. So it was a Brady Bunch situation. So that marriage lasted about six years. After that, we moved over to La Mirada, California. And I would say that that's where my testimony really took off. I went to church my entire life. I was baptized when I was 8, but I didn't really know what I was going to church for. I didn't really understand the restoration and Joseph Smith and what the church really stood for. So when I was about 12 years old, I was ordained a deacon. And this was around the time when interesting things happened. My. For the first time in my life, there was a death in my family. So I was a 13, 14 year old. That really impacted me. This was my grandpa. So I never really experienced death or the concept of death. I mean, I've seen Rambo or whatever, you know, TV shows and movies. But this was, for the first time in my life, somebody that I actually knew. One day he was there, and the next day he was gone. So that had a profound impact on me. This happened in September 17, 1994. And then another powerful event in my life happened about a week later. My dad arranged with a stake president, with our stake president to meet with the area authority at the time, Elder Lance B. Wickman. And we met with him for me to get a hearing blessing. And so what we wanted to do is basically went to him to see if he could restore my hearing, because as a teenager, it was a tough situation, not being able to hear very well. In my circle of friends in school. So it was a tough situation. I really believe that all the stories that I read and heard in church about Christ healing the deaf and the lame and the blind, and I really believed in the concept that the church was restored in these latter days and the priesthood was real. And if it worked then, why can't it work now? And so we met with the stake president. Me, my dad, and the stake president went over to where Elder Lance B. Wickman was. At the time when we met Lance B. Wickman, something weird happened. When I went up to him, I shook his hand, and I experienced this really powerful wave of emotion. It was just looking back, I kind of compare it to kind of getting hit in the face in that sense of shock, confusion. But basically, when I shook his hand, I just had this surreal feeling. And from then on in my life, I identified that as the Spirit. Basically. I met with this, you know, this special servant of the Lord, member of the 70, and, you know, he just. I just felt. I just felt the Spirit. He was very gracious, very kind. The entire meeting was very spiritual. He gave me a blessing that basically stated that my ears would be unstopped and my hearing would be restored. So it's pretty bold. My dad was in tears. I was in tears. And it was just a very special, special day. And I consider that one of the most spiritual special days of my life. So I had faith that my hearing was going to be restored. I mean, I was expecting next week to put my hearing aids down. I was expecting my hearing issues to be resolved. That was just the kind of faith that I had as a kid. I really believed that what happened that day with Elder Lansbury with me, and that my hearing would be restored. Well, you know, that week went by, and then another week went by, and, you know, weeks turned into months and years, and my hearing just kept getting worse and worse. This kind of created a cognitive dissonance in the sense of he told me that my hearing would be restored and my ears would be unstopped and my hearing getting worse over time. I was just wondering what was going on. Did I have enough faith? I don't know. But anyway, I did the whole thing. Deacon, teacher, priest. I was heavily involved in Boy Scouts. I had great experience in Boy Scouts. I'm an Eagle Scout, and I enjoyed the troop that I was in. The scout masters were fantastic, just great men. The war that I was in was just fantastic. I had awesome bishops. One of the bishops was Hawaiian. So he just, you know, every week, brothers and Sisters Aloha. So there was that sense of community and, and sense of ward family. So I had a great experience overall. I went to efy, especially for youth in Provo, Utah and I had some spiritual experiences there. So it was just a cumulative effect of that day when I got my hearing blessing and just the experiences that I've had in my ward family and EFY and I've read the Book of Mormon. I read all I could about Joseph Smith. I was very fascinated with Joseph Smith because he was also similar to me in the sense that he was about 13, 14 when he started having these questions about life. In my case, when my grandpa died, I just wanted to understand what was going on. Is there really a God? It just church stuff that I'm going to. Is it really for real? So I kind of identified with Joseph Smith in that sense of having questions and wanting to know about life. So just fast forwarding over to, you know, when I was in high school I had a lot of good friends and a lot of them were non members. One of them was my girlfriend. I had a girlfriend in high school, she was a non member. Her family were Presbyterian. So that kind of played into that. You know, like Joseph Smith, his family's Presbyterian. I didn't understand Presbyterianism but kept hearing about it in the history of Joseph Smith. So I just kind of was fascinated with that. But this family was just a wonderful family. They were just, they had it together, mom and dad, the kids, well educated. They just loved each other. They also drank beer and wine and it just caused me some kind of. I was looking at this family, this non member family, drinking alcohol. You know, they were better in a lot of ways than a lot of Mormon families that I've met. So I kind of wondered about that, but I just kind of let it go. I was called on a mission to New York City to teach the deaf in American Sign Language. And this was 2000 to 2002 and it was just a powerful experience. I loved my mission. It was a mission like any other. I've had my ups and downs. I had my awesome companions and I had my crazy companions.
John Dehlin [00:16:38] Did you know sign language before your mission?
Jeremy Runnells [00:16:40] I did a little bit, but. But I didn't really understand how to do it. It really took off in the mtc.
John Dehlin [00:16:48] Show us real quick how you would bear your testimony in sign and talk as you say it.
Jeremy Runnells [00:16:54] I want to share my testimony that I know the church is true, I know the Book of Mormon is true. I know that Joseph Smith is a true prophet, that the church is restored. The last days. So that was kind of the testimony that I shared with deaf people in my mission. Yeah, so my understanding of American Sign Language really took off from my mission. So I had a great mission president. He was a nice man. And on my mission I've had some really amazing experiences in terms of just the people that I've met and the places that I've been. Most of my mission has been in the South Bronx and the whole island of Manhattan. So I've done things on my mission that I can't believe I've done. Like we would sometimes take the stairs in the project at 8 o' clock at night. You know, we were invincible. We had the name tags. Jesus Christ, he's going to protect us. We're on the Lord's errand. But just looking back, just some of the things we've done, going in the alleyways and the stairs, we were in places that we really shouldn't have been. We've had a situation where NYPD pulled over and said hey guys, you shouldn't be going there. You know what I mean? But we're invincible. We're on the LAWS errand. The nypd, they don't know what they're talking about. So it was just kind of funny. Just the confidence that I had as a missionary that I was really on the Lord's errand. We taught a lot of families. I've had success as a missionary. One powerful event on My mission was 9 11. So 911 happened on my mission. Just seeing the before and after of that event, it just blows my mind even to this day. Just the kindness that people had on the subways after that it was just very interesting, the change as a whole in that city. Some of the families that I've taught, they had family members that were killed on 9 11. Just seeing the impact that 911 had on them, it was very, very up close and personal. I mean I'm sure everybody else, they've seen 911 on their television. I've seen it.
Mission, Marriage, and Early Adult Faith
John Dehlin [00:19:33] You know, like you remember, you could see the smoke billowing from where you
Jeremy Runnells [00:19:39] were seeing the first tower collapse. And I wasn't like right next to it at the time. I was in the South Bronx, but I could go on my roof and see it. And kind of an interesting story is three weeks before 9 11, my district, we went over to the World Trade Center. It's on a P day and we just wanted to check things out. One of the things that we wanted to do was go up to the observation deck. And so this was near the end of the month when our savings account was diminished because usually missionaries account their savings replenishes every first of the month. So anyway, we went in to ask how much it would cost to go up to the observation deck and we were told $13. To us, it was a lot of money at the time. And we were like, we'll come back later. And three weeks later the whole thing was down. So it's just unbelievable that those buildings were massive and it's just unbelievable that they're just three weeks later, they were just completely gone. They were just in its own footprint. So, yeah, that was my experience on my mission in terms of something that just powerful, just seeing the change in people, the change in the family that we taught. So I had a great mission. I asked to stay longer in my mission. I could have gone home in June of 2002, but I asked the mission president if I could stay another transfer. So I ended up going back home in August. So I was really a dedicated missionary. I really believed in what I was doing, teaching people about Joseph Smith and restored gospel. So I came home and went to school. I went to byu and I had overall good experience at byu, majoring in marketing. It was pretty much uneventful. It was just a normal BYU college education. I really enjoyed my roommates. I met my wife in my junior year and we met in the Wilkinson center at byu. So we so kind of funny. It was like a really Mormon courtship. The Wilkinson center at byu and we dated for probably four, five, six months before I took her down to the Grand Canyon and just gave her the ring and asked her to marry me. And she said yes. We got married in the San Diego Temple. That was also the temple kind of going back. The San Diego temple was where I got my endowments. A lot of people, I've heard a lot of stories about people having a terrifying experience going to the temple for the first time or a very uncomfortable experience. To me, it was a little bit weird, but it wasn't completely shocking. I think part of the reason for that is I just trusted family were there and if they're cool with it, then I should be cool with it. But that was pretty much my temple experience. I was unable to go to the temple on my mission. The New York temple was not yet there. So the closest temple was the Boston temple. So for two years, no temple experience. My dad moved over. My dad moved over to Las Vegas during my mission. So when I came back home from my mission, it wasn't really Home. It was Las Vegas. So it was kind of an adjustment there, giving homecoming talk in a ward that I've never been in. So it was kind of a struggle at that time, being in this place that I was unfamiliar with, this ward that I was unfamiliar with.
John Dehlin [00:24:01] After being in kind of the same place for so long and having so many church memories with your California community.
Jeremy Runnells [00:24:08] Yeah, absolutely. So in some ways, it was that kind of struggle with the wards that I've been after my mission, trying to recapture that, that really sense of family that I had in California. And so kind of shows how much
Seeds of Doubt and the Beginning of a Faith Crisis
John Dehlin [00:24:29] of maybe what we perceive as testimony is really socially connected. Right.
Jeremy Runnells [00:24:34] A big part of that. I mean, obviously, if I hate the word and it causes me misery, then that would be quite a big, you know, a big hurdle in order to keep going to church. So the social aspect of the church, the community aspect is a major part of it. But for me, I didn't consider myself a social Mormon. I considered myself. I really didn't have a testament. I really believed in the first visiting in 1820. And the book of Mormon is a little history of Christ's visit to the Americas and so on. I believe that Joseph Smith is a prophet. So that testimony is what grounded me, especially in some of the things that happened after my mission. Some of the words that I didn't like, the singles wards and all that. So to me, even though sometimes I didn't like the word or I didn't really connect with some people, I still went every week because I was spiritually dedicated to the church.
John Dehlin [00:25:39] So what led you?
Jeremy Runnells [00:25:40] Starting to doubt so fast forwarding about 10 years to when I'm 30 years old. I, you know, I didn't. I still have my testimony. I was still going to church, though, serving in college. What happened is online, on Facebook, I was hearing some, you know, noises.
John Dehlin [00:26:03] What year?
Jeremy Runnells [00:26:05] This was 2012.
John Dehlin [00:26:07] Two years ago?
Jeremy Runnells [00:26:09] Yes.
John Dehlin [00:26:10] Up until two years ago, you were a total traditional believer.
Jeremy Runnells [00:26:13] Yes.
John Dehlin [00:26:14] Without serious doubts or concerns?
Jeremy Runnells [00:26:17] No. I mean, I can't think of any. I took everything literally. I can't think of anything that, you know, like, some people, they say they put things on the shelf and then eventually the shelf cracks. I didn't really have a shelf. I mean, it was all true. Yeah, it was all true. You know what I mean?
John Dehlin [00:26:40] Okay, so Facebook.
Jeremy Runnells [00:26:42] So Facebook. I was starting to hear stuff about people. There was a blog here and there about the church, kind of talking about, like, feminist housewives. I was just seeing all this stuff that I considered unapproved popping up on Facebook. And one night I was reading the news online and came across an article about Marlon King Jensen giving a Q and A at Utah State University. And in that Q and A meeting, he specifically stated where he was asked by someone in the audience what his thoughts were regarding the drove of members that are leaving the church over Google, over history. And his response was, basically, we're experiencing an apostasy that we haven't seen since Kirling over history. So that shocked me. It shocked me in the sense of, you know what? I'm sorry, I need to go back a little bit. Just before my mission, this was when the Internet was really coming out and I was on AOL and stuff. I wanted to be prepared for my mission. So I went online and looked up stuff and I wanted to just kind of anticipate the different questions that would be asked by investigators at the time. The church was true. Confirmation bias was fourth gear. I mean, the church is true. What can I learn to prove that or back that up? So I looked up stuff. I came across some of the Tanner stuff, but a lot of it was bizarre stuff like Brigham Young says that there are men that look like Quakers that live in the sun, or something like that. Men live on the moon. Or just really weird stuff that sounded so fake. I just didn't believe it. And I looked at everything in the context of Mormons against the other Christians, evangelicals. So it was like, well, evangelicals say that we believe in a different Jesus. Well, no, we don't, because Book of Mormon this and that. So it was in that context. It wasn't in the context of none
John Dehlin [00:29:10] of it being true.
Jeremy Runnells [00:29:10] Yeah, it wouldn't be like secular, talking about the church's history using the church's own sources. It was more of those crazy Baptists that were. You know what I mean? So that was kind of my exposure. But I didn't come across any of the polyandry stuff or the Book of Abraham stuff or any of that stuff. It was just really weird stuff, like some of the quotes that Brigham Young made. And so fast forwarding. But even that I didn't put anything on my shelf because I just quickly discredited. Fair was awesome. Fair, you know, fair was doing the Lord's work. So, you know, it's kind of funny now looking back. But anyways, fast forwarding over. So fast forwarding back to that article, it shocked me that people were leaving over church history. I didn't understand why they were leaving over church history. What is it specifically about church history that they're leaving Over. So one of the things that popped up was Joseph Smith's polygamy. So I pulled up Google and I typed in Joseph Smith's polygamy. And I learned, looking through Wikipedia, I learned that he had several. He had like 34 wives. And I was like, okay, that's kind of interesting. I thought Brigham Young started polygamy. But then when I got into the polyandry, you know, Joseph Smith was married to other living men's wives. That really shook me. That really shocked me.
John Dehlin [00:30:49] Do you remember where you were reading that? What website or book?
Jeremy Runnells [00:30:52] Yeah, so the first time it was through Wikipedia. Then I went back into Google and started looking some more and I came across the polygamy page on Mormonthink. Mormonthink, yeah. And a lot of people seem to have that same route. And Mormonthink has a lot of pages on the search engine. But Mormonthink, it was unimproved. I didn't know if the information was reliable. But after looking at the polyandry stuff, I went over to the Book of Abraham and started seeing what Joseph Smith, what his translation was versus what Egyptologists state, what it really means. And that really shook me as well. So basically the polyandry and the Book of Abraham were the two first things that really shocked me. So I started looking on Amazon for different books that I could look at. One of them is Rough Stone Rolling. I ordered that. I also ordered Mormon Origins with Grant Palmer, got those books, started devouring them and looking for them.
John Dehlin [00:32:02] That's an insider's view of.
Jeremy Runnells [00:32:03] Insider's view of Mormon Origins. Yeah, yeah. Those two books blew my mind in the sense of, for example, Richard Bushman is obviously a faithful scholar in the church. And this is a book that was being sold in Desiree Book. And I remember this book at the BYU bookstore. So I knew that this was a credible book and it is a credible book. When I came across some of the stuff in there, he goes over to polyandry and it just really. I just didn't. I just. I started having these feelings of betrayal and just like I wasn't the village idiot, you know, I read books. I read a lot of the approved books. I just couldn't believe that I never heard about the polyandry stuff, for example, or that Joseph Smith was married to 14 year old girls. You know what I mean? It just really shocked me in that sense. And knowing what I know now, that's the path that a lot of members take. It's not just being exposed to the information, but the feeling of betrayal. In the sense, well, why hasn't the church told me this? Why haven't I learned this before? Why am I discovering this now at 30, 31 years old and I've never heard of something as crazy as Joseph Smith marrying other living men's wives. What else don't I know about? And so that question really took me on this crazy path of research. I became absolutely obsessed with Joseph Smith, church history and the origins of the church over the next year or two.
John Dehlin [00:34:07] What were your main sources of study or learning?
Jeremy Runnells [00:34:11] It was rough, stone rolling. I've looked at fair, I've looked at Mormon think. I relied a lot on FAIR because they were on the front trenches of this. I mean, Richard Bushman, it was more of a scholarly. It wasn't really in the trenches in terms of apologetics. So FAIR just made things worse in the sense of I read about this and I learned about something new and then that leads to something else. And it just created this thing that just kept going on. I was learning this and this and that and this. And I mentioned in my debunking, fast debunking that I really looked to FAIR as a lifeline during my faith crisis. And it ended up being weight that drowned whatever left I had of a testimony. So, yeah, so I just. That year, it was a struggle.
John Dehlin [00:35:19] So that's 2012 to 2013.
Jeremy Runnells [00:35:22] Yeah. So my faith crisis started in February 2012. And then just to give you an idea, I published the CES letter in April 2013.
John Dehlin [00:35:33] Real quick, did you listen to Mormon stories during that time?
Jeremy Runnells [00:35:37] I did, actually, yeah. Mormon stories was really something that made the landing softer. It made. It gave me hope that things would be okay, that there was light at the end of the tunnel, that this was a process. It really explained or put into perspective that what I was going through was normal in the sense that there's cycles of grief. There's a process of learning about the things I never knew about in church, but all the different podcasts that I've listened to. I actually went to the Salt Lake Mormon Stories meeting in. I think it was June or July of 2012. I think it was the Presbyterian Church. So that was a pretty powerful event. Just listening to the different stories, listening to Andrew Ainsworth, just listening to his story. It was very powerful. Listening to the different testimonies, the different experiences of people, just seeing the people in that church. They weren't these boogeyman scary anti Mormons or ex Mormons. They were just people. They looked like me. They were just people that had different stories so thank you for your work in Mormon stories. It really had a profound impact on me during my faith transition.
John Dehlin [00:37:23] But we're not to blame.
Jeremy Runnells [00:37:24] No, you probably get a lot of flack that you're taking people out of the church, but in my case, it wasn't that. It was the opposite. You actually helped me become a better person. I wasn't as angry, if that makes sense. I mean, the alternative was going to exmormonomon.org or whatever and just getting riled up. But with you, you try to show both faithful and ex Mormon perspectives. And so it just really gave me a 180 view of things.
How the CES Letter Came to Be Written
John Dehlin [00:38:03] So tell us about what led to the CES letter. I guess my first question is, did you attempt to do anything online or publish anything prior to the CES letter? I saw this letter that's attributed to you, to Elder Wickman.
Jeremy Runnells [00:38:21] No, it's actually. It was an open letter to Elder Cook.
John Dehlin [00:38:25] Elder Cook. That's what I meant. Sorry.
Jeremy Runnells [00:38:27] Yeah, so that's interesting.
John Dehlin [00:38:30] Was that your first time to publish something public or.
Jeremy Runnells [00:38:33] Yeah, I mean, it was more of. I just put it on Reddit. I didn't think too much about it. I actually put it on Facebook for an hour before my wife asked me to put it down.
John Dehlin [00:38:44] When would that have been?
Jeremy Runnells [00:38:44] About what month and year that was in October of 2012. You have to remember my faith crisis happened in February 2012. And then by that summer of 2012, I was like, I don't believe in this anymore. So this happened in October of 2012. So I no longer had a testimony at that time, but somebody put an original version of this. And I thought it was so cool that I kind of borrowed it and revised a paragraph here and there, and then I just put it on Reddit. But basically it relates to Elder Cook's General conference address in October 2012, where he was basically talking about, if you go and look at sources online, can't remember exactly what the quote is exactly, but it was basically to the effect that if you look into unimproved sources, you can risk your testimony and if that's the case, to repent. So I wanted to illustrate that you don't have to go to the Tanish website or some other anti Mormon website. A lot of this stuff is in LDS sources. So the Rock and the Hat Book of Mormon translation. Elder Nelson talks about it in his 1993 July insight. It's right there. I mean, the Journal of Discourses with Adam, God and all that. So I wanted to illustrate how even looking at the church's own sources can put a kink, put a wrench into your testimony. Because when you see this stuff, you see how it's not correlating or aligning with the correlated version that you're getting from the church.
John Dehlin [00:40:35] It's almost all church. It's either church published materials or like Joseph's diary or diaries of people that we revere today. I mean, what else? What are the other sources? I mean, it's not like people are looking at the hurlbut affidavits and that's like, where they're basing their disaffection on. It's always like journal discourses, the Book of Mormon text itself, comparing Book of Commandments to the early versions of the Doctrine and Covenants. Like, what's anti Mormon about that?
Jeremy Runnells [00:41:03] Right, yeah.
John Dehlin [00:41:05] Joseph's own accounts of the first vision.
Jeremy Runnells [00:41:08] Yeah, exactly. And that was pretty much the point that I was trying to make in this satire. I was kind of being. I was being sarcastic in that letter.
John Dehlin [00:41:20] It reads a little bit angry, to be honest with you.
Jeremy Runnells [00:41:22] Well, of course I was pissed off, you know, and anybody that tells you that when you leave the church, you should just leave it alone and don't be angry. Don't be the angry apostate. They don't understand the trauma and the process of leaving. There's no such thing as a graceful exit from a church. There's no, you know, thank you for your time and your two years. We appreciate it and we wish you the best.
John Dehlin [00:41:49] 30 years, 40 years.
Jeremy Runnells [00:41:50] Yeah, we wish. Thank you for the two years in the mission field. We love you and we wish you the best and whatever. There's no such thing. You left because you want to sin or you were lazy or you never had a testimony. I've been told I never had a testimony. I had a testimony. I loved this church. It was just my worldview. It was the way that I looked at life. It was my heritage. I loved the people. So this nonsense of I never had a testimony is ridiculous. So anyway, so I wrote that satire and looking back at it now, it was just. I don't see anything wrong with it, to be honest, other than it's sarcastic and maybe has a little angry tone. But what I was trying to illustrate in that was I disagree with Elder Cook's perception of the situation.
John Dehlin [00:42:58] So any false starts or attempts at doing something public other than that letter before the CES letter?
Jeremy Runnells [00:43:05] No. I mean, I was becoming more and more active on Reddit, but it was
John Dehlin [00:43:11] just, you know, in the ex Mormon subreddit Yeah. Okay.
Jeremy Runnells [00:43:14] It wasn't, you know, it was just a comic here and there, so. Okay, okay.
John Dehlin [00:43:18] So let's talk about how the letter came about.
Jeremy Runnells [00:43:21] So I couldn't bring myself to tell My grandpa, my 85 year old, or 83 at the time, grandpa, that I no longer believed in the church. I love that man. I just love that man. And you know, he lived Mormonism his whole life. You know, he and my grandma, just wonderful people. They lived Mormonism for a long time and they lived in Hawaii for 40 years. People have asked what would it take for me to go back to the church. If I moved to Hawaii, I would go to church. The people there, I mean, the Aloha spirit there, just unbelievable. The community is just unbelievable to me. It's a different church over there. So I couldn't tell my grandpa about my disaffection and what happened. But a few other family members knew, my dad knew and, and I guess it got to a point where the rumors were going around. So my dad told my grandpa that I no longer believed in church or I lost my testimony. So I think it was around maybe just before Christmas, he found out somewhere around there. So in 2013, he actually drove up to my place, about a 600 mile trip, round trip, and just to come up and talk to me, see what's up and how he can help. We just had a conversation and to me it was a tough conversation because I didn't want to. How do you tell somebody, okay, I don't believe because of this and that and this and this without, you know, you don't want to put that on them. I didn't want to put it on my grandpa and, you know, somebody at his age anyway. But we had a good trip and a good visit. So he went back home and a few weeks later I received a phone call from him asking if I would be willing to meet with his friend who is a CES director, just to see if I could get my concerns resolved. And whatever questions I had, I said sure. Even though I lost my testimony at the time, I still wasn't 100% sure that the church is false. I still accepted the possibility that my understanding of history and Joseph Smith and origins was incomplete or inaccurate and that perhaps there was a perception that. Or answers that the CES director could provide. And also this was at the time before the church released its essays. This was before I ever heard of the Swedish Fireside Rescue. So there was really not very much official answers from the church. So to me this was an opportunity to get as close to official answers from a church that I could, because this is somebody that works for the church. He's in the church education system. So I said, sure, Grandpa, I'll talk to him. And so my grandpa forwarded him my information, and I was surprised to see Yesterday, actually emailed me a very nice guy. He's just trying to help my grandpa, and I. I have no beef with him. I honestly don't blame him for not responding back to me. He was probably expecting five questions in an email, and I throw him close to 77, 80 pages document.
John Dehlin [00:47:18] Okay, so let's talk about that for a second. So a lot of the criticisms you've received come from kind of two angles. One is that, well, one is they weren't sincere, that you really had already made your mind up before you wrote the letter. That's one. Is that true?
Jeremy Runnells [00:47:37] Well, I mean, obviously I didn't lose my testimony or lead the church over not. You know what I mean? I was kind of like, I believe I did my research, and I trusted the research enough to where I stopped believing in the church. But I was sincere in that. Like I said, I accepted the possibility that my research could be wrong, my sources could be wrong, and that he might have a perspective or a view of the situation that I would never heard about. So in that sense, I am sincere. I'm up front in the letter that I didn't believe at the time. If you read page five of a letter, you can clearly see I'm a disaffected member. I'm just going to lay it out. So I set it up. I said, I'm just going to lay it out where I'm at with things. So in that sense, that's kind of where I laid it out. So some of the stuff in my CES letter obviously look like conclusions rather than all questions. So that's where it comes from.
John Dehlin [00:48:46] Sure.
Jeremy Runnells [00:48:47] And I was upfront with the CES dread, too. Okay.
John Dehlin [00:48:50] The other one is that you kind of. That you wrote that with the Internet in mind, that it was just kind of premeditated kind of theater. Like, I'm just gonna. I'm writing this for the Internet, but I'll go ahead and send it to the guy anyway. Just have a good story to support
Jeremy Runnells [00:49:07] what you end up publishing. At the time, the only people that I had in mind with the CES director, my family, because obviously my family was involved and, you know, a few people on Reddit that I was going to, you know, just to get their feedback to make sure that my sources are okay and, you know, just general editing on my paper. So. But in my mind, it was just the CES director in my family for the most part, because I saw this as an opportunity to not only get official answers, but also to explain my train of thought and what happened, explaining why I left the church or stopped believing in the church.
John Dehlin [00:49:51] Isn't there the strong desire to tell people and explain? You referred to it earlier. Everybody judges you. Everybody looks down on you. I had a member of a very prestigious LDS family come visit me the other day. He's, you know, the. You would. You would all know the name. And he's no longer a believer. And what he said to me was, and I hate to use the word cult. I'll just say that now. I hate to use the word cult. I know it's, you know, kind of really disrespectful, but the quote really stuck with me. He said, a cult is any organization that will not let you leave it with your dignity intact. So a cult is an organization that won't let you leave it with your dignity intact. And that goes back to what you were saying about, are you sinning? Are you looking at porn? Are you cheating on somebody? You never had a testimony to begin with. You never like, oh, he left and he's happy. It's more like, oh, he's dark and sinning and oh, he drinks coffee and oh. And so I'm just. I shouldn't be speaking, but really, you just want to be able to explain to people. You want to say, no, no, no. There are credible reasons that people leave. And I've actually done a lot of thinking, and I've put a lot of time into this and. Is that what you were thinking?
Jeremy Runnells [00:51:17] There are very few people on this planet that I respect and love more than, you know, my grandpa and my dad. And so to have them be disappointed in me, it just. It bothered me a lot. So I wanted to be understood. I wanted to make sure that they understood that I didn't leave because I want to go to the strip club. I left because I came across very disturbing information about the church I never heard before. And I don't think a lot of true believing Mormons understand that. They don't understand that desire to be understood. I hate that saying, they can lead the church, but they can't leave it alone. John Larsen talked about it in Mormon, especially in one of his podcasts. I can't remember which one, but basically it was to the effect of, you live this religion for 3035 years. You put all this time into it, all this money into it, you really believe it. It's your worldview. And then poof, it's gone. And what kind of weird psycho would just move on? Yeah, just, oh, okay, what's next? You know what I mean? What kind of weird psycho would do that? It doesn't make. You know what I mean? We're still human beings after we leave. We want to be understood. We still have family that are in. And here's the other thing that a lot of true believing Mormons don't understand is that the family members within are most often seeing the people that leave as the broken ones, the ones that need help, the ones that need to be rescued, the ones that need to be pulled back into the church, the ones whose testimonies need to be restored, the broken ones. So they don't understand that the disaffected one, they feel like they can't have a true relationship. There's always that 800 pound gorilla in the room. In an attempt to bring that relationship back to where it was before they left the church, they're trying to educate their family members on the reason why they left. So at the core of it is to be understood and to restore or repair their relationship with their family members. And they see it as the church is getting in the way of that. With this, I'll just say fundamentalist, black and white worldview, you know what I mean?
John Dehlin [00:53:45] Okay, so you write and why make it so comprehensive, so long? Well, I mean, for the CES director.
Jeremy Runnells [00:53:55] Well, because to me it wasn't just, okay, the Book of Mormon. I mean, the Book of Abraham got some problem. To me, it's. I look at each individual issue and then I take a step back and say, look, I don't just look at the trees, just a tree here and there. I look at the trees individually and then I take a step back and I look at the forest and I say, really? Is this really the forest? The one and only true forest on the face of the earth. You know what I mean? It doesn't look like it's God's work. It just looks like one clumsy hoax. So what I wanted to illustrate, for example, you know, for example, the Kinderhead place. Joseph Smith might have made a mistake or whatever. Before that, I wanted to illustrate Joseph Smith's character. So when I went over the polygamy and the polyandry style, I went over how Joseph Smith had this pattern of behavior over the course of 10 years of his life where he was hiding and denying polygamy and polyandry, not just from Emma, not just from the Saints, but from the world. He's given interviews to newspapers. The Doctrine and Covenants has officially banned polygamy. We believe in monogamy. And then the affidavit that he put out in the Times of Season, he was so concerned about the rumors circulating in Nauvoo about his polygamy and polyandry that he set up this affidavit with 31 people. And the signage of the affidavit included his plural wife and several other of his buddies that knew about his polygamy. I mean, Elijah Snow was one of his plural wives that he married three months earlier. She signed it. The parents of the bishop, Whitney and his wife were witnesses to one of the. I think it was Sarah Whitney a couple months earlier. So you look at that and you say, well, his pattern of behavior, his modus operandi for 10 years of his life was the heista to be deceptive, to be dishonest. So when you take that snapshot of his character and you start looking into the Book of Abraham and the priesthood restoration and the backdating of it into the Scriptures.
John Dehlin [00:56:36] Yeah, we'll get to that. I hear you. And this is with the Ph.D. i've been working on. I admittedly have not had time to study a lot of these things as closely as I would like. So obviously through the podcast, I've heard about the first vision stuff and I've heard about the translation stuff. It's very, very different when you start lining up the timelines. It's one thing to know that the first vision story changed. It's another thing then to realize that what Joseph believed about God, his trinitarian view about God, you know, when the Book of Mormon was published, is different than what he ends up with Nauvoo. And then when you line up the Book of Mormon with his beliefs in 1830 and it supports the trinitarian view, and then you learn that they made changes to the Book of Mormon to reflect the non trinitarian view later, and you see the changes in the Book of Commandments versus the Doctrine and Covenants, and then he develops his high Nauvoo theology. Well, those timelines across multiple issues all start lining up. And so that's why you wrote a 70 plus page.
Jeremy Runnells [00:57:40] Yeah, because if I didn't write a comprehensive overview, it would just be like, that's just one issue. The church is still true. Mistakes were made. You know what I mean? But when you start to look at it all the modus operandi, the deception. Then you look at the Book of Abraham, then you look at the kinderhood place. You just see this pattern, the Book of Mormon. You just see this pattern of, I'll just say, a deliberate fraud.
John Dehlin [00:58:17] So you write this letter, you send it to the CES director through email.
Jeremy Runnells [00:58:22] Through email, yeah.
John Dehlin [00:58:23] Okay.
Jeremy Runnells [00:58:23] I attached the PDF.
John Dehlin [00:58:24] Did you ever meet the guy in person?
Jeremy Runnells [00:58:26] No.
John Dehlin [00:58:27] Okay, and what response did you get?
Jeremy Runnells [00:58:30] Well, he didn't respond to me directly in email, but he told my grandpa that he rather very well written letter and that he would provide a response. He also said, you know, a few other things that, you know, the brethren are aware of some of these problems and they. Whatever that means.
John Dehlin [00:58:52] But so I hope they are.
Jeremy Runnells [00:58:56] I hope they are.
John Dehlin [00:58:57] Yeah, they are now.
Jeremy Runnells [00:58:58] Well, they better be by now. And so. And you know, they were aware of this and you know, he would. I guess my understanding is that he forwarded the letter to some of his colleagues that knew more about history, so I was anticipating hearing back from him.
John Dehlin [00:59:22] You sent the letter, what month of what year? About.
Jeremy Runnells [00:59:25] So that was in April of 2013. Okay, so about a year ago? Yeah, a year ago.
John Dehlin [00:59:30] She sent on April 6th. Just to be funny.
Jeremy Runnells [00:59:34] No, April 23rd or whatever it was.
John Dehlin [00:59:38] Okay, so about a year ago. And then you waited?
Jeremy Runnells [00:59:41] I waited. A month passed, two months passed, and then three months passed and I started. I'm probably not going to hear back. So at that time, as I mentioned, I had put my letter on Reddit for feedback and for people to.
John Dehlin [00:59:58] You put this letter?
Jeremy Runnells [00:59:59] This letter in early April before I sent it out. So a couple people really ate it up. I guess they liked it.
John Dehlin [01:00:08] Did you crowdsource the original version where other people were giving you information and studying with you? Was it a team effort?
Jeremy Runnells [01:00:14] No, I just wrote it up and then I just put it up and say, what do you guys think?
John Dehlin [01:00:19] So the original version is all your study and writing?
Jeremy Runnells [01:00:22] Yeah. And I didn't get a lot of criticism. I just thought, wow, this is kind of cool that you made it all comprehensive. So it kind of just kind of spread it around, got viral a little bit, and it ended up getting into the hands of Mommy. Think Tom Phillips. And he really liked it. He emailed me, he said, this is great. Let's put this out. I said, cool. So we. We put it up, and then it really blew up from there.
John Dehlin [01:00:57] Okay, so when did it get put up?
Jeremy Runnells [01:00:59] About, I don't know, around that time in late April, somewhere around there.
John Dehlin [01:01:06] Okay, well, that's not so that's not a long. You didn't wait three months to publish it online?
Jeremy Runnells [01:01:11] No, like, remember, like, I didn't like go out and like it went viral. Like, some of the people on Reddit that were checking it, they spread it around and then got into the hands of MormonThink.
John Dehlin [01:01:23] Okay, so how much time did you spend thinking about do I really want to be a named dissident across the world regarding Mormonism?
Jeremy Runnells [01:01:36] I didn't think like that.
John Dehlin [01:01:37] You did.
Jeremy Runnells [01:01:38] I didn't realize this was going to blow up. I just thought it was just a letter and it would just eventually fade. But when it started getting on marmonthink and I started getting emails and then more emails and then more emails, I'm like, okay, this is starting to, you know, what did I do? So it just got. For a while I was kind of concerned. I don't want my name to. I don't want to be this guy that's tearing down the church or anything like that. But when I started getting the email from people, you know, just hearing from people, like, I really struggled with this. And then I came across the CES letter and then things just snapped for me. It just made sense. You know, I got it because I kept looking at these individual issues. I think what appeals to a lot of people with the CES letter is I don't focus on these different issues on its own. I take a step back and then I tie them up to show how they're all connected and a big picture of things. And I think that that's something that was missing for, you know.
John Dehlin [01:02:48] Yeah. Why do we need a letter to the CES director? Why not just MormonThink? How did you think of the letters being different than MormonThink or the FAIR website?
Jeremy Runnells [01:03:04] I don't know. I mean, Mormon thinks did a great job going over the different. All the individual issues. I've used it during my faith crisis.
John Dehlin [01:03:15] Did it help you write the letter?
Jeremy Runnells [01:03:16] Well, yeah. I mean, there are some things I got from there, but it wasn't just Mormon think. It was rough stone rolling. It was the insiders year of Mormon origins, some of Leonard Arrington stuff and just different sources. It wasn't just like I copied Mormon think. It was rolling different things here and there.
John Dehlin [01:03:35] So were you worried about putting up your own website? When did your own website go up?
Jeremy Runnells [01:03:39] Well, what happened was I kept getting people asking me on Reddit, where can I download this letter? I've heard about, where can I download it? So I just put up this really simple one page website that has a PDF icon, a letter to a CES director. Why? I lost my testimony. And that was just my website for seven months or so. And then what happened? What really changed things was when FAIR started getting into the picture and started doing their analysis of the letter. This happened in the summer of 2013.
John Dehlin [01:04:14] Let's save that.
Jeremy Runnells [01:04:14] Okay.
John Dehlin [01:04:15] Is that all right?
Jeremy Runnells [01:04:16] Yeah.
John Dehlin [01:04:17] Okay. So I'm going to transition just a tiny bit, and we're going to dig into some of the main issues that are covered in the letter.
Jeremy Runnells [01:04:26] Sam.
Overview of the CES Letter and Its Structure
Part 2 of 3 · Ep. 481
John Dehlin [00:00:18] So it's 83 pages long, the letter and. But it's. You can read it in a day. I think you can. Certainly within a couple days. You used Creative Commons attribution, which I thought was Creative Commons licensing, which I thought was cool. What went into that decision?
Jeremy Runnells [00:00:39] It's not my information. And I stand on the shoulders of giants. The Tanners, they're the real hipsters.
John Dehlin [00:00:47] The Tanners?
Jeremy Runnells [00:00:48] Yeah. They knew a lot of this stuff in the 60s and they're just now being vindicated. I grew up, I heard about the Tanners, the anti Mormons and the God Makers and all that stuff. But I mean, how could you not watch that interview with Sandra Tanner? She's just this nice grandma that knows a lot of stuff about Mormon history. I don't. I mean, I'm not a Christian. I don't really relate to the whole Christian stuff, but they're just what they. I mean, the stuff that they figured out and came out with, they were involved in a lot of stuff. The Mark Hoffman stuff, the Book of Abraham. So it's really interesting. But I stand on the shoulders of giants. What I did is I took their research and their insights and their works, and I put it in a way that worked best for me, that explained my train of thought in terms of why I no longer believe in the church.
John Dehlin [00:01:50] It's almost like a condensed version of Mormonism, Shadow and Reality. In the sense. If you look at the Tanner's book, Mormonism, Shadow and Reality, it's like several inches thick and this is a lot thinner. So you could even see it as a distillation without the bold and capitalized letters and underlined letters. Gerald was famous for it.
Jeremy Runnells [00:02:12] But yeah, this relates to my deafness. Writing is really my language. It's just the place where I don't mispronounce stuff or you know what I mean? It's just my language. It's where I'm comfortable. So I developed this way of being able to communicate through writing that I guess a lot of people relate to. But I just want to get straight to the point, you know, boom, boom, boom, boom. Because anybody can write a 500 page book or whatever. I wanted something that like the CES director would read at the time. This was directed to the CES director in my family.
John Dehlin [00:02:53] So read the quote you have from J. Reuben Clark at the beginning.
Jeremy Runnells [00:02:57] So, yeah, if we have the truth, no harm can come from investigation. If we have not the truth, it ought to be harmed.
John Dehlin [00:03:06] If we have the truth, it cannot be harmed by investigation. If we have not the truth, it ought to be harmed. I just thought that bore repetition. All right, so this is going to be hard because we're going to try and cover a lot of ground in a relatively short amount of time. But let's start with the Book of Mormon. If you had to summarize maybe your top three concerns with the Book of Mormon, if that's even possible, or what are some of your main. What are some of the main concerns in the Book of Mormon?
Book of Mormon Authorship and Textual Problems
Jeremy Runnells [00:03:39] The presence of 1769 King James vision errors in the Book of Mormon. I mean, this is 1769 version. This is errors specific to that edition. I mean, what is it doing in the Book of Mormon? It's a perfectly ancient text. You know, where there's ancient prophets in the Americas that were engraving on gold plates. What are the errors doing in there?
John Dehlin [00:04:06] So we've got a version of the King James Bible that we know that Joseph had in his possession.
Jeremy Runnells [00:04:11] Pharaoh would say, well, he didn't. But, you know, if I shoot you with nine millimeter bullets and you're on the ground and there's nine millimeter bullets around, it doesn't matter whether a witness, like you don't need witnesses or a video recording of the murder. Just the fact that there's nine millimeter bullets, shell casings on the floor is its own damning evidence. So put another way, what are 19th century 9 millimeter shell casings or bullets doing in a work from the Book of Mormon time before 421 A.D. yeah.
John Dehlin [00:04:54] So there are errors in that version of the Bible. The 1769 King James Version of the Bible. How in the world do we go from the prophets writing, you know, the Nephite prophets, writing what they wrote or writing down Christ's words, Then it gets, you know, it gets spoken by Jesus, then it gets written in the plates, but then it gets saved. It gets abridged by Mormon or Moroni, whoever abridged it. Then it gets put in a hill. Then later it gets delivered to Joseph, Then he has to translate through the power and gift of God these plates. And then all of a sudden we've got direct quotes coming from this version of the Bible.
Jeremy Runnells [00:05:32] Yeah.
John Dehlin [00:05:32] Like errors that are errors.
Jeremy Runnells [00:05:34] It's not just quotes unique to that edition. Yeah. And Pharaoh, they change their answer, but basically they say, well, it's possible God gave them the heirs.
John Dehlin [00:05:44] Maybe God inspired Joseph to include the heirs to test our faith.
Jeremy Runnells [00:05:49] Well, I mean, if God is going to test our faith, I don't want to worship that kind of God. That is playing games with, you know what I mean? But yeah, that's how damning the evidence is. He put errors in it. And Pharaoh admitted that it's possible that God gave the errors. So that's a big one right there. The other big one for me is so the Sermon on the Mount, there's a Sermon on the Mount in the Book of Mormon and there's a Sermon on the Mount in the Bible and they're identical. Well, later Joseph Smith basically said, well, I got to go fix this. So he did a Joseph Smith translation on the Sermon on the Mount and it's different. So he basically corrected the Sermon on the Mount in the Bible, but unwittingly, the Book of Mormon contains that incorrect Sermon on the Mount passage that he corrected. So why is the Book of Mormon containing that incorrect Sermon on the Mount passage when it should have contained the correct Joseph Smith translation to begin with?
John Dehlin [00:06:55] So if Joseph produced the true version of the Bible through his translation, that should have just appeared in the Book of Mormon, but it doesn't. Yeah.
Jeremy Runnells [00:07:09] And then the other one is the italics. So Basically this is 17th century King James translators. They put their own words into the text to make the English more readable. And these are like for example, there's seven words exactly in consecutive order, you know what I mean, that these translators put in in 1611, 1612, sort of
John Dehlin [00:07:36] translating the Hebrew and then adding their own.
Jeremy Runnells [00:07:38] Well, translating from what I understand, Latin
John Dehlin [00:07:43] or Greek.
Jeremy Runnells [00:07:44] Yeah, Somewhere. I'm not sure exactly. But basically taking and translating and putting their own words into it and they
John Dehlin [00:07:53] italicize those words so that we know they were.
Jeremy Runnells [00:07:57] That's how we know that they were words that the translators put in.
John Dehlin [00:08:01] So why are the words of translators of the New Testament also showing up in Joseph?
Jeremy Runnells [00:08:08] Well, why are the words of 17th century, basically 1611, 1612, 1613 dudes in England. Why are there words appearing into this ancient Book of Mormon that was written in the Americas thousands of years ago and did the exact words, I mean,
John Dehlin [00:08:29] you know, going back to the translation, Joseph Smith translation, you would think he would have known if he had used the Bible to just create the Book of Mormon, you would think that he would have remembered that he did that and remembered that if he were to do a retranslation in the New Testament, that that would show a discrepancy. Right.
Jeremy Runnells [00:08:51] Every genius makes their mistakes once in a while, you know what I mean? It doesn't matter how perfect, there's always going to be a slip up somewhere, you know what I mean? I don't know it goes back to. I'll show you what 9 millimeter bolas we can talk about. Why didn't Joseph know the answer? Why did he let this happen? It doesn't matter. We have the 9 millimeter shell casings in an ancient work. Yeah, okay.
John Dehlin [00:09:21] You know, you talk about DNA in here. I think we've covered that some on Mormon stories. I think we had Simon Southerton on at one point. Anachronisms we covered with Michael Coe. I refer our listeners to that very good interview Archaeology. Anything else about the Book of Mormon that sticks out? You've got a really good map here. And we can, we can maybe splice in this image of Book of Mormon geography. Talk about that for a second.
Jeremy Runnells [00:09:47] Yeah. So the Book of Mormon geography is based on a guy by the name of Werner Hawley in his work. Book of Mormon. Sorry, what was it? Book of Mormon authorship at Clara Luke. This is kind of controversial. So it's basically what he did is he based the geography based on Judge Smith's backyard in upstate New York, New England, parts of Canada. And so there are similarities. He obviously made some mistakes and Fair pointed those mistakes out and I corrected them in the CES letter. And so if you go to debunking, Fair's debunking, which is on my website, you can see some of the different individual cities that me and Fair went over. You know, Fair says, well, this city is incorrect. And I go, well, yeah, okay, that's incorrect. So to me, this is. It's not a slam dunk. It's not proof that Joseph Smith, you know, it's not the strongest point in my paper, but I just put it there just to kind of. It's interesting. It's got some names in there that's very similar to or it's not the same as many of the cities in Joseph Smith's time.
John Dehlin [00:11:07] So some of the examples would be.
Jeremy Runnells [00:11:09] So yeah, there's some. There's a few of them like, you know, there's like Lehi and then there's Ramah, which is basically the Jaredite hill Cumorah. It's close by. You know, Pharaoh says, well, you know, it's not exactly in Palmyra where the hill Cumorah is. But a lot of what apologists and ex Mormons say, well, Joseph Smith messed up, don't realize is that the maps don't have to match up perfectly. They just have to be. They just have to match up closely. You know what I mean? It's not real if somebody's making it up like the Lord of the Rings. It doesn't matter if a city is. It doesn't make sense that the city's here. It's made up. You know what I mean? But the fact that the presence of the name is, you know, and you're saying.
John Dehlin [00:12:00] I mean, the letter says that there are a lot of names that occur in the Book of Mormon that clearly Joseph.
Jeremy Runnells [00:12:06] Well, it's possible that Joseph could have used them as reference. Again, I'm not saying that Joseph did it, and it's proof and it's slammed down, case closed. I'm just bringing it up as, you know, it's an interesting note to look at.
John Dehlin [00:12:21] And you also talk about Moroni as the capital city in some islands in the Comoros.
Jeremy Runnells [00:12:27] Comoros, yeah. So this is pretty interesting. So, yeah, in the southeast part of Africa, there's an island called Comoros. Its Arabic name is Comorah, and that's what it's known. In the early days, they had a port, Moroni. So it was famous in Captain Kidd's stories because Captain Kidd visited the island on a ship, and there's a famous story where a lot of his crew members died on the island and something happened there to where he was later convicted of and hanged basically for a crime that happened near the island. So it's a big part of the whole Captain Kidd folklore.
John Dehlin [00:13:20] Who was it? Who did what? Whose occupation was what?
Jeremy Runnells [00:13:25] He was a pirate. He was a treasure hunter, basically.
John Dehlin [00:13:27] A treasure hunter. And who else was a treasure hunter?
Jeremy Runnells [00:13:30] Joseph Smith. And it wasn't just Joseph Smith. It was his dad, it was his brother. They had a family business. And it wasn't just them. I mean, you read the news. There's like a newspaper article or a clip of a newspaper that talked about. In those days, it was pervasive. It was widespread in New England. They were really into treasure hunting. They were really into these stories about Captain Kidd. Buried treasure, you know, buried treasure in the earth. So Joseph Smith and his family, they had a family business where they would go around to their neighbors. And, you know, Joseph Smith was looking, he was rocking his hat, and, oh, yeah, gold is over there, Silver's over there. Thank you for your money. Have a great day. So we'll get into the Book of Mormon translation and how that relates to that. But in order to really understand Mormonism, you have to understand the setting, the culture. They were really into folklore. They were really into superstition. So Joseph Smith's neighbor, if he came up to you and you said, I received the vision of the Lord, your natural response would be to say, well, what did the Lord say? It wouldn't be okay, Just stay right here. I'll be right back. And then you go call the mental hospital, come pick up the guy. It was a totally different culture and way of seeing life. And you have to understand the treasure digging and Captain Kidd and all that stuff in order to really understand the witnesses and the restoration of the church, because it really plays into how the witnesses saw what the worldview was.
John Dehlin [00:15:20] And you think that there's a good likelihood that Joseph would have heard these captive kid stories and known about Moroni and Kimora?
Jeremy Runnells [00:15:28] Yeah, I mean, there were nickel and dimes novels in the day. Joseph Smith was in the area where there was a lot of traffic, a lot of coming and goings. A lot of people have written articles about the connection with Captain Kid stories and Joseph Smith. A lot of new articles are going to be coming out. So. So 2014, 2015 are going to be known as the years of Captain Kidd, because we're just now starting to really understand Captain Kidd and the connection with not just Joseph Smith, but his peers.
John Dehlin [00:16:06] So what about the. I think it's called the loose translation kind of argument that of course, Joseph's translating reformed Egyptian. I mean, he can't, like, use names and probably doesn't even know how they're pronounced if he's reading reformed Egyptian. So of course he's just going to pull names, familiar names, you know, whether it's steel or horse or Moroni, he's not going to be able to speak in reformed Egyptian. So he's going to use words around him.
Jeremy Runnells [00:16:35] Well, that's not according to the historical record. When you read David Widmer's account of how the rock in the hat translation, like, Joseph Smith would look at the rock and the word would appear on the stone, the peep stone, so it wouldn't disappear and a new wood would come up until he got it right, until he pronounced it right. So that's a really tight translation.
John Dehlin [00:17:03] So God's giving him the English words through the stone?
Jeremy Runnells [00:17:08] Yeah, he's giving him the English words in the stone, but at the same time, he's also given him weird words like kill them and. Yeah, just weird words that don't mean anything. And, you know, you got this weird situation where there's no horses in the Americas. So you have guys like, you know, Peterson saying, well, maybe they were tapirs.
John Dehlin [00:17:30] Tapirs?
Jeremy Runnells [00:17:30] Yeah, tapirs. I'm sorry. Yeah, so they were tapirs. And see, you got this. You know what I mean? Like, well, it's not really horse, it's tapir. It just creates this really weird contorted. It just doesn't make sense.
John Dehlin [00:17:46] Also there's all the currencies that have these weird names. So it's not like weird names weren't appearing on the stone. Right.
Jeremy Runnells [00:17:54] Yeah.
John Dehlin [00:17:55] So why would God give Joseph Moroni or Cumorah or whatever.
Jeremy Runnells [00:18:00] Yeah. And then, I mean, when you go back to the 1769 King James Virgin, errors in just creates all kinds of problems.
Potential Nineteenth-Century Sources for the Book of Mormon
John Dehlin [00:18:09] Okay, so there are three other potential sources that you mentioned that are kind of mind boggling. One is View of the Hebrews, which I think our listeners are going to know about. But then the other is the Late War. And then the other is the first book of Napoleon.
Jeremy Runnells [00:18:35] Yeah.
John Dehlin [00:18:35] Now we've also heard people talk about the Spalding manuscript. I don't see much talk of that in your letter. But talk about each of these sources and then help us make sense for how you're seeing the Book of Mormon come together. Because I've been on a personal quest lately to try and figure out where the book comes from.
Jeremy Runnells [00:18:57] Yeah. I credit a lot of the recent work that's going into this to the Johnson brothers. So Chris and Duane, they're doing a lot of work. What's happening now is very fascinating because as computers are getting better and better, we're able to process or mine through big data. So what's happening is Google, they're putting more and more books online and they're making it digital. So we're seeing more and more of these books online and we're able to go through these books looking for patterns and certain words. So what's happening is very fascinating in the sense, for example, the Late War. This is a fairly new development. I mean, one person wrote about the late war in 2008, but the Johnson brothers, from what I understand, they didn't realize or come across this work until after they released their research. But basically they went through a lot of books looking for specific Book of Mormon wording that was unique to the Book of Mormon and basically doing statistics to see which works were closest to the wording and pattern and so forth. So Late War was one of them that showed up made and French Napoleon was another. When you read the Late War, it's just really fascinating. I mean, do you mind if I
John Dehlin [00:20:29] read a little bit of it?
Jeremy Runnells [00:20:30] Yeah, absolutely.
John Dehlin [00:20:31] All right, so you've got this here. So this is a book that was published in 1819.
Jeremy Runnells [00:20:37] Yep.
John Dehlin [00:20:37] So that would have been a year before Joseph allegedly had his first vision 11 years before the Book of Mormon would have been produced. And this is how it starts. So this is chapter one, the late war. Now, it came to pass in the 1812th year of the Christian era, and in the 30 and 6th year after the people of the provinces of Colombia had declared themselves a free and independent nation, that in the sixth month of the same year, on the first day of the month, the chief governor, whom the people had chosen to rule over the land of Columbia, and even James, whose surname was Madison, delivered a written paper to the great Sanhedrin of the people who were assembled together. And the name of the city where the people were gathered together was called after the name of the chief captain of the land of Columbia, whose fame extendeth to the uttermost parts of the earth, albeit he had slept with his fathers. So what does that have to do with the Book of Mormon for you?
Jeremy Runnells [00:21:40] Well, it didn't just stop there. I mean, just listening to that, it sounds a lot like the Book of Mormon. But when you start to look at the parallels and the themes that the book also has, I mean, three Indian prophets, a rod of iron, war between the wicked and the righteous, maintaining the standard of liberty with righteousness. False Indian prophets, brass plates. Yeah. On the CES letter, there's a link to a webpage. I strongly recommend you click on that link. That's the Johnson, Dwayne Johnson's webpage. It's an excellent one page that just goes over the late war in relation to the Book of Mormon. And seeing the different parallels, it's just really fascinating. You look at that and it really makes you think about things.
John Dehlin [00:22:32] And the fact that it has chiasmus in the text is significant. Why is that significant?
Jeremy Runnells [00:22:37] Because, I mean, that was a big defense that the apologists used for decades. The Book of Mormon has them as well. They're ancient. They're of ancient origin.
John Dehlin [00:22:48] Only Hebrews or whoever would have used chiasmus.
Jeremy Runnells [00:22:50] Exactly.
John Dehlin [00:22:50] And so it's evidence of an ancient text.
Jeremy Runnells [00:22:53] Right. But here we have a contemporary 19th century book in 1819 that's using it. So this really blows out that defense out of the water.
John Dehlin [00:23:06] Okay, and what about the first book of Napoleon?
Jeremy Runnells [00:23:10] It's very similar too. I mean, when you read the.
John Dehlin [00:23:12] And this is an 1809 book.
Jeremy Runnells [00:23:14] Right.
John Dehlin [00:23:14] So this is even earlier.
Jeremy Runnells [00:23:16] Yeah. I mean, and behold, it came to pass in these latter days that an evil spirit came on the face of the earth and greatly troubled the sons of men. And this spirit seized upon and spread amongst the people who dwelt in the Land of Gaul. Now, in this people, the fear of the Lord had not been for many generations. And. And they have become a corrupt and perverse people, and their chief priests and the noble of the land and the learned man thereof have become wicked in the imaginings of their hearts and in the practices of their life.
John Dehlin [00:23:57] That sounds very much like the Book of Mormon to me. Or the Bible. More like the Book of Mormon.
Jeremy Runnells [00:24:04] More like the Book of Mormon, yeah. And this is something that only those that have really read the Book of Mormon understand. I mean, there's that language that you become familiar with, you know what I mean, the themes. So I've read the Book of Mormon many times, and when I first read this, it floored me. I had to check and see is this really. It just really floored me, the similarity. So.
John Dehlin [00:24:30] And your letter goes on to explain in a lot of details the parallel. But what I. So the other thing I'll say just really briefly is I think my listeners will have heard about the View of the Hebrews, which is a book that Oliver Cowdery's minister, Ethan Smith published. Around what year was View of the Hebrews published?
Jeremy Runnells [00:24:53] I think 1825.
John Dehlin [00:24:54] 1825, yeah. So five years before the Book of Mormon comes out. And it also has parallels where it's talking about. It's trying to explain the origin of the Native Americans, and it mentions that they came over from Jerusalem in a boat and came to America and that some were wicked and some were righteous. And there was a. What, the wicked group beats the righteous group?
Jeremy Runnells [00:25:16] Yeah, like they're civilized. Yeah. I mean, it's just got like, you know, Hebrew is the origin of the Indian language. They came from Jerusalem, and the scattering and the lost Indian records talks about yellow leaves. But to take a step back, this isn't just something that some ex Mormon or anti Mormon looked into. Elder B.H. roberts, he was a general authority. He was a very respected scholar in the church back in the early 20th century. And this was private research that he was doing with the end goal of presenting his research to the Quorum of the trial in the First Presidency. And it was private. It wasn't meant to be put out for the church or the world. But it ended up being published in 1985 into a book called Studies of the Book of Mormon. So it's really fascinating. I mean, this was a believing general authority that was struggling with all these parallels. And I mean, this wasn't just some author that wrote the View of the Hebrews. Ethan Smith was Oliver Cowdery's Pastor in Poultney. I'm not sure if that's pronounced correctly. Portney, Vermont. So it's very fascinating, the connections. And as you know, after Martin Harris lost 116 pages, Oliver Cowdery took over as the scribe for the Book of Mormon. And he was more than likely aware of the view of the Hebrews and its connection because his own pastor was all over it.
John Dehlin [00:27:01] Okay, so let's go back to the macro view for a second. So we've got the late war, we've got the Napoleon, we've got view of the Hebrews. What does this have to do with the Book of Mormon? Do you have a theory of how the Book of Mormon was produced?
Jeremy Runnells [00:27:16] I don't have an original theory, but I share the Johnson's point of view that everything is a remix. So it's not like Joseph Smith used one source. And that tends to be the point of view of the people. Spalding manuscript and all that. What I look at is everything's a remix. So, for example, we know that Joseph Smith used 1769 King James Version errors in the Book of Mormon. They're there. We also know.
John Dehlin [00:27:51] So we know one source for sure.
Jeremy Runnells [00:27:53] Yeah. But we also know that it's not just the Book of Mormon. When you go into the Book of Abraham and you see how Joseph Smith copied hieroglyphic characters from different papyri to fill in missing parts of facsimile two, for example, he copied totally random hieroglyphics and he turned them around. I have graphics on in the debunking fest. Debunking. But it shows how he grabbed the hieroglyphics and he turned them around and switch them around to fit fill in the damaged parts of facsimile 2. So you see that modus operandi. You see that pattern, how he's grabbing stuff from different sources? You know, in the Book of Abraham, there's a lot of similarities between. I'm sorry, the name of the book is a future state. Philosophy of a future state. So to me, he didn't just use one source. I mean, another example is the Lehi's dream. That was his father's 1811 dream. That's another thing that he borrowed for the Book of Mormon.
John Dehlin [00:29:11] And that's in your letter. Yeah, and it is pretty. There's, you know, there's a tree and there's an iron rod. Right. And a great and spacious building. I mean, it's.
Jeremy Runnells [00:29:20] Yeah. When you read Lehi's dream and compare it to Joseph Smith Sr's dream It's. It's very similar. So just for example, looking at the Book of Mormon, the errors in Lehi's Dream, and Joseph Smith's father's father, you see that it's not just one source. It's different sources, and everything is a remix. I mean, people think that Star wars is original. It's not. I mean, there's a lot of borrowing from different sources in previous shows and, you know, to create some. So you look at life and a lot of the creative work, people are borrowing from different sources. So I share the view of the Johnson brothers on this subject
John Dehlin [00:30:07] that he drew from many sources.
Jeremy Runnells [00:30:09] Yeah.
John Dehlin [00:30:11] Do you think he had any collaborators in authoring it?
Jeremy Runnells [00:30:15] I don't know. It's all speculation. It's all opinion. But my personal feeling is when you look at Oliver Cowdery, he was also involved in the Book of Abraham in 1835, 1836. So a lot of people don't realize that Oliver Cowdery wasn't just a scribe for the Book of Mormon, he was also a scribe for the Book of Abraham. And he was big on a philosophy of the Future state. And he even put it in. I can't remember if it was the Times and Season, but some Mormon newspaper that he was the editor. So he copied. Well, he took extracts from the book and put it in the newspaper. So Oliver Cowdery thought it was important enough to share with his readers. So if it was important enough to share with his readers in the newspaper, why not share with Joseph Smith? And Joseph Smith had a copy of that book that he donated in 1843. So, you know what I mean? I think there's more to the story with the whole Oliver Cowdery, Joseph Smith working together.
John Dehlin [00:31:28] And that could explain why Oliver Cowdery never denied the Book of Mormon.
Jeremy Runnells [00:31:32] Yeah, I mean, if he's a co author, then, yeah, a lot of people are like, well, why didn't he deny it? Well, reputation was everything back then. And, you know, Oliver Cowdery still had fame. He was well known. A lot of people admired him as well. A lot of people were like, wow, you're one of the witnesses, one of the Book of Mormon scribes, and you knew Joseph Smith. So Oliver Cowdery, he couldn't be going out and saying, hey, guys, this is all hoax, by the way. I was involved in it because it would totally ruin his life. His credibility was everything because he was in. He was a lawyer. So if he were to come out and say, yeah, this is all fraud, and I played my part in it and I swore as a witness in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost. This would have really ruined his credibility. So there's more to the story with the witnesses. You know, all this, you know, these claims or these witnesses never denied it. There's more to the story of why they didn't deny it. There's the culture, the reputations, you know what I mean?
The First Vision, Witnesses, and Priesthood Restoration
John Dehlin [00:32:47] And we'll talk about that in a sec. Just to close out the Book of Mormon, I don't know exactly what page it's on, but there's this summary that you make, which is that a lot. Oh, and by the way, the plates were actually never used in the translation. Like, we forget about that. Like, all the energy that would have gone into like killing Laban, bringing the brass plates, smelting metal pages, inscribing by hand, protecting them, passing down from generation to generation, you know, sealing them up in a hole, having an angel deliver the plates. Joseph hiding the plates and protecting them. And then when it came four years
Jeremy Runnells [00:33:25] education with Moroni, he has to go every year before he gets the place.
John Dehlin [00:33:30] And then when it comes time to actually translate the Book of Mormon, what
Jeremy Runnells [00:33:34] the Book of Mormon we have today, he didn't use to go place. He used a rock and a hat.
John Dehlin [00:33:39] So they weren't even used.
Jeremy Runnells [00:33:40] They were used for the 116 pages with Martin Harris.
John Dehlin [00:33:44] Allegedly.
Jeremy Runnells [00:33:45] Allegedly. But the Book of Mormon that we have today, the plates were not used.
John Dehlin [00:33:50] It was the stone and a hat.
Jeremy Runnells [00:33:52] Yeah, the same stone and a hat that he and his family used for their treasure hunting, family business. But here's the important thing. A lot of the apologies, especially fair, what they try to do is they try to make the whole stone in the hat a little bit confusing. They keep throwing words like yeoman, Thummim and the seer stone and try to make it sound supernatural. This rock was just the rock that Joseph found in his Neighbor's property in 1822, a year before Moroni showed up in his bedroom. It's just a common rock that he found in William Chase's property. So there's nothing supernatural or special about it. It didn't come from ancient America. Morone didn't put it in the hole in Hill Cumorah. It was just a rock that Joseph Smith found. But a lot of people get confused into thinking that it's special because they hear Urim and Thummim or Nephite interpreters and so forth.
John Dehlin [00:34:57] So let's talk briefly about the first vision and the witnesses only Because I think the way you weave those things together, these multiple timelines start to the whole is greater than the sum of the parts. Like, it's one thing to go, oh, the first vision, the story changes. And if I'm looking at that in isolation, then I'm like, oh, well, yeah, if I retell a story, each time I tell it, it's going to change a little bit. Okay, well, we'll give them a pass on that. And then we have the first, the three witnesses, and we have the priesthood restoration and the dates. And then we have the evolving theology of, for example, God from trinitarian talk about those things as they kind of weave together in a timeline and as to how the aggregate of those stories on top of each other is a little bit more significant than in isolation.
Jeremy Runnells [00:35:51] Yeah. So the correlated vision, as everybody knows, is that Joseph Smith had his first vision in 1820 as a result of the revival. First of all, the historical records show that there was no revival in 1820. And second of all, Joseph Smith's family stated that they didn't join Presbyterianism until Alvin Smith died. And Alvin smith died in 1823. And that matches up with that there was a revival in 1824. So the whole 1820 revival thing doesn't match with the historical record because that's three years before Alvin Smith died in four years after they joined the family joined, or Lucy Smith joined Presbyterianism. And then there's the other one where Joseph Smith tried to join the Methodist Sunday School. He put his name down after being told eight years. This was 1828. So eight years earlier, he supposedly saw God the Father and the Son. He told him that all the churches are an abomination. You know what I mean? But here he's trying to join the Methodist Sunday School, whatever it was, two years before the church was restored or established on the earth, and eight years after the first fishing. Nobody like members of a church. Never.
John Dehlin [00:37:21] Also the ages, depending on what account his age changes.
Jeremy Runnells [00:37:24] Yeah, like 14 or 15. But there's only one account that has 15. And the apologists will say, you know, the scribe put that in. I discussed that in debunking faith, Debunking. You know my thoughts on that. But to me, it's not just who appears to Joseph Smith. It has all these, you know, it has angels, like you mentioned, angels and just the Lord and two personages. It's not just that, but it has a contradiction. For example, in Joseph Smith's handwritten account, in the 1830 account, he states that he read the Bible. And he came to the conclusion that the world was lost. Like the true church of Jesus Christ, the New Testament Church was no longer on the earth. And then he went to the woods to pray for forgiveness of his sins. In the official.
John Dehlin [00:38:22] That was the 1832 account, right?
Jeremy Runnells [00:38:24] Yeah. The first handwritten. This is Joseph Smith's own handwritten account. In the official version, it states that he didn't know which church to join. He was confused. He read James 1:5, if any man lacked wisdom, let him ask of God. And he went out to the woods for the purpose of asking which church that he should join. And then he later says, it never entered into my heart that they were all wrong. So you have this contradiction where he studies and he comes to his own conclusion that they're all wrong. Then he goes in the woods and asks for forgiveness of his sins. And then you have this other one where he has no idea. He. He thinks there might be a true church. So he goes into the woods to get the answer, and he's told that they're all an abomination. And then it never occurred to him that they were all wrong. So that's a major contradiction. To me, it goes back to that modus operandi, his behavior of hiding things and not being.
John Dehlin [00:39:26] And to me, again, it's super significant that in the 1832 version, when, you know, the 1830 version of the Book of Mormon, God and Jesus are one. It's a trinitarian view, just like everything else. 1832, he's still believing in that view. So when he tells the first vision story, it's the Lord who visits him. In that account, by 1836, apparently, he's changed, and he's believing that God and Jesus are separate. Well, that not only manifests itself in the new version of the first vision, the 1836 version, having God introducing Jesus, like, that's a major difference in the cast of characters in the vision.
Jeremy Runnells [00:40:05] Yeah, it was the 1838 account.
John Dehlin [00:40:07] 1838.
Jeremy Runnells [00:40:07] Yeah.
John Dehlin [00:40:08] Sorry.
Jeremy Runnells [00:40:08] But the 1838 account didn't get printed and published until 1842. But it's the official version.
John Dehlin [00:40:15] Okay, thank you. But then they're changing the Book of Mormon. Right. In a subsequent edition. And those changes that we always sort of dismiss as insignificant, they're basically changing the text. And you show this in the letter for making it sound like God and Jesus are one. They're always trying to make it sound like God and Jesus are separate.
Jeremy Runnells [00:40:37] Yeah. And it's not just the Book of Mormon. Like, for example, the lectures of Faith. There's a part that specifically talks about God is a spirit, and then it talks about tabernacle, flesh. It separates the two. So it's really fascinating, the evolution of Joseph's theology and his perception of who God is, the Godhead, or whatever. But when you step back, you step back and say, well, wait a minute, this was happening in the 1830s, 12, 15, 22 years after the first edition in 1820, when he should have been, you know, crystal clear that these are two separate beings. And you know what I mean?
John Dehlin [00:41:26] Yeah, yeah. And then for me, the witnesses become really important because, you know, what we think is that Joseph had the vision in 1820. He knows he's got to start a church. He's just patient, doesn't tell anybody, comes out with the Book of Mormon and then starts the church. Well, but then. And gets the priesthood Right before he actually releases the Book of Mormon. He receives the priesthood.
Jeremy Runnells [00:41:53] Yeah, but it wasn't like, hey, guys, they got the priesthood. Like, that stuff didn't come until 1834.
John Dehlin [00:42:00] And that's my point. When you read David Whitmer's letter that he writes after he's left the church, what does he say?
Jeremy Runnells [00:42:07] Basically said, never heard of it.
John Dehlin [00:42:09] Never heard of what?
Jeremy Runnells [00:42:12] The Aaronic priesthood or John the Baptist coming to confer the priesthood to Joseph Smith and all the cattery.
John Dehlin [00:42:19] So, Mark. So one of the founders of the church, one of the three witnesses, is saying this stuff about Aaronic and Melchizedek priesthood. We went five years and never talked about it.
Jeremy Runnells [00:42:30] Yeah, like. Well, David Whitmere, I mean, he was one of the guys that was involved. And I mean, he was there during the. The Book of Mormon translation and when the church was restored. So it's not like he was just some guy that sat in the back pews. I mean, he was involved in the development of the church. And it's very telling that he's saying that I've never heard of any priesthood before 1834. And it matches to the record of the Book of Commandments being the 1835 Doctrine and Covenants is different than the 1833 Commandments. Book of Commandments. Like there's backdating going on. You know what I mean? So Richard Bushman talks about it in Rough Stone Rolling. I mean, he admits that. It appears that it's a fabrication based on the later accounts. You know, talks about Mr. Lyman Wright, I think his name is. He conferred the Melchizedek priesthood to Joseph Smith in 1831. Talks about that part in the rough stonewalling that's pretty mind blowing as well.
John Dehlin [00:43:45] Yeah. And does the Book of Mormon have Aaronic and Melchizedek priesthood in it?
Jeremy Runnells [00:43:50] No.
John Dehlin [00:43:51] Right. And doesn't Alma start baptizing without any sense of being ordained?
Jeremy Runnells [00:43:57] No.
John Dehlin [00:43:58] So in 1830, they weren't believing that priesthood was necessary by the laying on of hands. So of course it wasn't in the Bible. And of course Joseph didn't talk about it. And of course David Whitmer says, we never talked about it. But as Joseph's beliefs and doctrine change, then you start seeing the doctrine, the Book of Commandments amended to change with the new story.
Jeremy Runnells [00:44:21] Right, right, right.
John Dehlin [00:44:22] And future revelations. But why doesn't the Book of Mormon just contain all this truth from the beginning? Right.
Jeremy Runnells [00:44:29] Why doesn't it contain.
John Dehlin [00:44:30] Why didn't the first vision stick? And why didn't the Book of Mormon contain all the truth from the beginning versus having to change the Book of Mormon, change the first vision story, change the Book of Commandments to the Doctrine and Covenants? Everything's evolving with Joseph's beliefs.
Jeremy Runnells [00:44:44] Right, right.
John Dehlin [00:44:45] And so those things in parallel to me means something more significant than when you study, oh, he changed his story at the first vision. It's not that simple. It's how those stories lay on top of each other.
Jeremy Runnells [00:44:56] Yeah. And these are foundational stuff.
John Dehlin [00:44:59] Yeah. Right.
Jeremy Runnells [00:45:00] This is foundational stuff. This is not how the sacraments being passed. You know what I mean? This is like, which changes too, by the way.
John Dehlin [00:45:10] But okay, so yeah, that's really important. And not to mention, I've mentioned this in the podcast before, there's no temple marriage in the Book of Mormon. There's no endowment ceremony in the Book of Mormon. There's no celestial marriage in the Book of Mormon. Polygamy is forbidden in the Book of Mormon with the escape clause. But why aren't any of his Nauvoo theologies in the Book of Mormon? So it's a pretty clear picture of he's making it up as he goes along kind of thing, and then changing it as he goes, and then trying his best to cover it up by updating new versions that cover his tracks.
Jeremy Runnells [00:45:48] Right.
John Dehlin [00:45:49] Is that right?
Jeremy Runnells [00:45:50] Yeah.
John Dehlin [00:45:50] And that's kind of what comes out here.
Jeremy Runnells [00:45:52] Yeah. And it goes back to Joseph Smith's modus operandi. How was he operating? And when you look at the polygamy and the polyandry, how he hid it and denied it for 10 years, you look at the Book of Abraham, how he was grabbing stuff that was unrelated to put in the the missing parts of facsimile 2. And like, as you mentioned, with the whole revolution of the fifth vision and the whole priesthood stuff, I mean it just looks like a big. It just looks like a clumsy hoax. I mean.
John Dehlin [00:46:26] Yeah, and again, if it were just the Book of Mormon, you'd be like, oh, it's not quite a translation, is it? But then you've got the Book of Abraham and it's like, oh, that's not really a translation either. And then you've got the Kinderhook plates which you talk about in here. Talk about that really briefly.
Jeremy Runnells [00:46:45] Well, I mean, just taking you to this graphic real quick. This graphic right here says Joseph Smith claimed to have translated three ancient records. The Book of Abraham proven a fraud. The Kinderhood plate found to be a hoax. The Book of Mormon, the only one of the three for which we do not have the original. I'm sure he was only wrong on two out of three. After all, wouldn't you buy a third car from a man who had already sold you two conkers?
John Dehlin [00:47:17] Right.
Jeremy Runnells [00:47:18] So that kind of gives you why it's important.
John Dehlin [00:47:21] Yeah. Talk briefly about what's most troubling to you about polygamy or Joseph's practice of polygamy.
Joseph Smith's Polygamy and Polyandry
Jeremy Runnells [00:47:30] The polyandry and the marriage of the 14 year old girls.
John Dehlin [00:47:36] There's only one, right?
Jeremy Runnells [00:47:38] No, two. So one of them was Helen Mark Campbell and the other one was, I can't remember, I think her first name was Nancy.
John Dehlin [00:47:45] And in the letter you have a graph of all the wives.
Jeremy Runnells [00:47:50] Yeah. So one of the objects, one of the things that some people were offended by or objected to was my use of a term pedophilia. And they were like, well, Joseph Smith wasn't a pedophile just because he married 14 year old girls. And I responded to that on my website. But basically pedophilia is a sexual attraction of confidence girls before puberty or during puberty. So in the 19th century girls, they had their puberty around 14, 15 years old. So this was before or during puberty that Joseph smith married these 14 year old girls. And the only justification based on the polygamy rule Book of 132 Doctrine and Covenants. 132 is the only justification for polygamy is to multiply and replenish the earth, bear the souls of men and raise seed. So the only justifiable reason for Joseph marrying 14 year old girls was to basically have sexual relations with them. So to me it's pedophilic because he was marrying these 14 year old girls for the purpose of having Sex and having children with them. But you know, in the 19th century, they were either about to or were in the process of puberty. So that's why I use the term.
John Dehlin [00:49:28] You mentioned being troubled by the coercion that was used. It really stuck out to me as I was preparing for this podcast. Not only did he tell the girls apparently that they might lose their souls if they said no.
Jeremy Runnells [00:49:41] Well, like Helen Mark Campbell, it was pressured that she had to marry Joseph for her family's salvation and exaltation.
John Dehlin [00:49:51] Right. So he's basically saying to the parents, let me have your daughter and I promise you eternal life.
Jeremy Runnells [00:49:57] Yeah. And then they in turn are putting the pressure on this 14 year old girl that, you know, this is a Mormon home and Mormon family and she feels obligated to follow this prophet and her dad who is, you know, and then there's a backstory with the dad, you know, Heber C. Kimball, Joseph Smith tried to marry his wife. The apologists tried to portray this as well, the Kimballs and Heber seek Kimball. He wanted to dynastically seal himself and his family to Joseph Smith. But when you read the account about how Joseph Smith asked he would see Kimball for his wife, he was so troubled by it that he didn't eat or sleep for three days. So that doesn't sound like somebody that wanted like this doesn't sound like an innocent ceiling. That had no effect. It sounded like he was marrying, wanted to marry his wife in a little sense of return.
John Dehlin [00:50:58] Yeah. And of course he was denying it, lying about it, hiding it from Emma. Like all this stuff is problematic. He wasn't following the prescribed rules of D and C 132. It's very clear. You know, the wife needs to approve and they need to be virgins. Right. And he's not following any of the rules that are outlined in DC132. Not only that, and this is something your letter really brought to my attention, he's violating the 1835 version of the Doctrine and Covenants. While he's already started practicing. Talk about that.
Jeremy Runnells [00:51:32] The 1835 Doctrine and Covenants is based specifically banning polygamy. It's saying, hey guys, we believe in monogamy. This is scripture that's enforced the entire time, all the way. I think in 1875, somewhere around there, the change there. But Joseph Smith, his whole life these scriptures were enforced. And here he was in the dark, marrying other men's wives and teenage girls while denying to Emma and the saints in the world. So to me, that's a Big revealing thing about Joseph Smith's character. And again, I use that snapshot as a basis for when you go into the Book of Abraham and the Kinderhook place and so forth.
John Dehlin [00:52:22] Excellent. Any other aspects to the letter that you think we should bring out before we talk about sort of what's come about after publishing the letter? I mean, there's so much here, we could talk for days.
Reception of the CES Letter and FAIR's Response
Jeremy Runnells [00:52:39] Yeah, I think we pretty much. I think it's pretty straightforward. I think the reason why the CES letter appeals to a lot of people is that it doesn't just hone in and focus on each specific issue. It also takes a step back. You take a step back and it ties it up from a big point of view. My letter is not meant to be a one stop, all comprehensive, you're done with your research type thing. My letter is meant to introduce you to the problems and issues and then you go from there and you look at the sources and you confirm the sources for yourself and you read the sources. Different books and, you know, different, you know, just do the research. It's basically kind of like a launching ground for people that are just getting exposed to these issues. So I just want to make that clear. It's not meant to. Okay. Once you read this, then you're an expert on all the problems of Mormonism.
John Dehlin [00:53:49] So talk a bit about the positive response before we talk about fair. How many emails do you think you've received?
Jeremy Runnells [00:53:59] Thousands.
John Dehlin [00:54:00] Thousands?
Jeremy Runnells [00:54:01] Yeah.
John Dehlin [00:54:02] In a year.
Jeremy Runnells [00:54:04] Like, ever since the CES letter got released in April 2013, I just get lots of emails and it's. It's really just being on the front line of real suffering, real confusion and heartache. A lot of people are like, you know, I've had emails where, you know, a gentleman, for example, he emailed me saying, you know, when I first came out to my wife that I had doubts, it really devastated her, and it was just traumatic, and for weeks it was just really miserable. The word divorce was being thrown around, and I was just really worried about my marriage. And so kind of, as a last push, I asked her to read the CES letter and she agreed to read it. So after she read it and looked at the sources, read what FAIR has to say, and read my debunking, Fair's debunking. She just. She was done. So the word divorce stopped being thrown around. They're recovering, moving on with their lives. So to me, that's that when I look at divorce, I look at it through the eyes of the little boy a long time ago, I used to try myself to sleep at night over my parents divorce. It was I wondered, am I the cause of their divorce? Did they divorce because of me? You know, because of my hearing issue or whatever. So to me it's about saving families, about saving marriages. I get that sometimes divorce is necessary, but to me, there better be a damn good reason for getting divorced because it's traumatic to kids. And I know that personally. So it's my passion. It's probably why I put so much effort into debunking first. Debunking, because if I can help just save one marriage or one family, to me it's worth it. And I just see these emails are kind of feedback. I'm seeing the effect that it has on people's lives and I have a passion for it. That's why in Debunking Fest debunking introduction, I talk about real lives. Marriages and families are on the line. These are real people that are suffering because of the church's dishonesty. You know, I mean, Joseph Smith's rock and a hat thing is a fact. And when a husband goes to his wife and says, joseph didn't use the gold plates, he used the rock and the hat. And the wife says, no, that's anti Mormon. That's not true. He used gold plates. Well, what's the problem here? The problem is she didn't get the memo. The church didn't give her the memo. So you have this married couple that are clashing and they both think they're right. You know what I mean? It's dishonest. And so my goal is to just bring out the honesty. Let's make this honest. Because we can't afford to be having all these marriages and families getting destroyed over Joseph Smith and Joseph Smith's religion. If you're going to get divorced, get divorced over good reason. Joseph Smith and Joseph Smith's religion is not a good reason to get divorced over. If one spouse believes Joseph Smith and the other one doesn't work on it, figure things out, you know, I mean, religion shouldn't be the reason for divorce. It should be, you know, the spouse is totally unreasonable or abusive or whatever.
John Dehlin [00:58:05] What's it like for you to feel in your heart like your motivation is to save marriages and lives even? And yet the way that some would characterize you or describe you, let's just say attention seeking or negative or trying to tear down people's tender faith. So there's such a contrast between. Have people said bad things about you?
Jeremy Runnells [00:58:33] Very few. I don't see a lot of them.
John Dehlin [00:58:35] How about fair?
Jeremy Runnells [00:58:37] I mean, fair. Yeah.
John Dehlin [00:58:38] What'd they say? Like, what was their tactic? I read. So FAIR created a response to your CES letter. I'm a little bit familiar with, you know, that class of people writing something personally and in response to your work. So I. I know what that feels like a bit. I've read a bit about their response to you. How did they start it and what feeling did you get from how they were approaching it? Start with personal. How did you feel they were trying to paint you?
Jeremy Runnells [00:59:11] Just this imbalanced ex Mormon that's getting all his sources from anti Mormon sources who, like EJ mentioned is out to get attention. I'm not out to get attention. I'm not. You know what I mean? I'm not the greatest public speaker. You know what I mean? I'm just, like I said when I wrote the letter, I didn't expect it to go anywhere. I mean, this, this thing landed into my lap. It just blew up. I would have never imagined that I would be Talking to John DeLand two years after my faith crisis. You know what I mean? It just blows my mind. I'm just an ordinary guy.
John Dehlin [00:59:52] How about that? You're bitter and angry and negative.
Jeremy Runnells [00:59:56] I was pissed off in my faith crisis. And that's natural. That's part of the five stages of grief. I'm not angry anymore. I mean, I go on Father Sons camp outs. I'm still on the Elders Quorum email list. If somebody needs help to move, I'll go move. You know what I mean? I'm past that. I've moved on. I'm not bitter or angry. It goes back to saving marriages and families. These are real people. And I just think that the church needs to be honest. It just needs to. It can't be doing business as usual like it has the last 40, 50, 60 years. I mean, we're in a totally different world now. Something has to give and honesty is the way. Yeah.
John Dehlin [01:00:48] So what did you think about fair's response to you overall, the substance of it?
Jeremy Runnells [01:00:53] Well, I just want to put it out there. I appreciate that FAIR did their response, their analysis, because it gives my readers a balanced view of the issue so they don't just have to read my letter and take my word for it. So, for example, the rock and hat stuff, they can see fair's response, that Fair confirms that Joseph Smith really used the rock and the hat. So it adds that next level to the conversation. It adds that credibility. But on the other token, it was just responding to fair was actually more time consuming and more difficult than it was writing the CES letter itself.
John Dehlin [01:01:38] If you had to characterize their response overall, how would you characterize it?
Jeremy Runnells [01:01:46] Misleading.
John Dehlin [01:01:47] Misleading, why?
Jeremy Runnells [01:01:49] There's just so many strawmen that they used.
John Dehlin [01:01:51] What do you mean by strawmen?
Jeremy Runnells [01:01:53] Where they mischaracterized my argument. So I'll give you an example. You know Captain Kidd, and you know Kimoros and Moroni. My argument is that Joseph Smith got those names from Captain Kidd's stories. Their argument is, well, Judge, Joseph Smith didn't have access to these maps. There was only so and so maps and his library and all this stuff. No, that's not my argument. He didn't use maps. They were from the Joseph Smith stories.
John Dehlin [01:02:25] The Captain Kidd stories, yes.
Jeremy Runnells [01:02:28] So there's all kinds of different strawming that they use, and there's so much obfuscation where they try to make the issue more confusing than it really is. And then their conclusion part was kind of ridiculous. They were basically attacking me on comments that I made on Reddit. These were comments that I made long after my faith crisis in transition. So I just didn't appreciate how they tried to character assassinate me that way.
John Dehlin [01:03:05] How does it feel to know that when you post something on Facebook or Reddit that there's apologists out there that are paying attention to it, copying it, pasting in some little file, and trying to figure out ways to use that against you later?
Jeremy Runnells [01:03:19] It's creepy. I mean, I already have the NSA after me, so now I have to worry about all these Mormon apologies.
John Dehlin [01:03:25] Does it feel creepy?
Jeremy Runnells [01:03:27] Yeah, it feels creepy. It feels like, I don't know. I'm an open book. My life is an open book. My wife has. Has passwords to everything she wanted. Like, I have nothing to hide. And in that sense, you know, even after knowing that Pharaoh's watching me, I still went on Reddit and put stuff down. So it's not like I'm unpredictable and making all these crazy comments and stuff, but at the same time, it's just kind of just creepy and weird. You know what I mean? I just don't like it.
John Dehlin [01:04:04] Have you ever feared for your safety?
Jeremy Runnells [01:04:08] No, not at all. I mean, a lot of people have this perception that I'm ha. You know, they might think because I came out with this, I'm putting the church in an unfavorable light, that, you know, I have a lot of enemies or I don't have any. I don't have any enemies that I know of. I mean, 98% of the emails I get are positive. I mean, the few that I get that are negative, they're interesting people. So I've had emails from like fundamentalists and polygamists and stuff. And then I had a few from really strong believers that say I'm not giving the nuance that it deserves or when I ask what they mean by that, they don't really give me examples. But overall, I don't fear for anything. I don't see any enemies. I just live life as usual. My life hasn't really changed other than, you know, I'm more well known than I was two years ago.
Personal and Family Impact of Going Public
John Dehlin [01:05:22] Does this put stress on your personal life in any way? Just.
Jeremy Runnells [01:05:26] Well, it does in the sense that it's emotional getting these emails. I mean, I'm sure you can relate to that. John. You get emails all the time. But just seeing these people, like what they're going through, the struggle they're doing and they're asking for advice and you know, your heart goes out to them. So it's emotionally draining in that sense. It's a little bit, you know, it was stressful with fair, dealing with their, you know, just dealing with them. The last six months, I mean, almost every night until like three in the morning I was working on this, my weekends, goodbye, you know, but it's calmed down a lot since then.
John Dehlin [01:06:08] Why did you feel so necessary to do such an exhaustive response to fair? Like, I didn't even read, I may get in trouble for saying this. I didn't even read Gregory Smith's 100 page article about me. I didn't even read it, like not because I was scared or I just didn't think it was worth the time.
Jeremy Runnells [01:06:25] Yeah, well, my faith crisis in transition was prolonged because of fair, because just going through all this stuff and to me it can be very confusing. There's so much research and all that. So to me, I saw this as an opportunity to provide that source for people to go to, to see. Okay, FAIR says this, I say this. Here's the donut, here's how much we eat.
John Dehlin [01:06:56] Yeah, you've got these donut graphics in your response to fair, not only overall but also broken out by section where you specify to what percent did they agree with you, to what percent did they just not respond? And then to what percent did they disagree with you? And it's overwhelmingly, what a lot of
Jeremy Runnells [01:07:18] it is, overwhelmingly neutral. So that's a lot of people, when they see fair answers or response, they think, well, they're on top of it, but they're not. They're not responding to most of the issues and the ones that they are. It's about half agree disagree. The book of Abraham was a very interesting thing. It was almost like Pharaoh was defending Egyptology more than they were Joseph Smith. So to give you an example, the facsimile one with Abraham on the altar. So in the original CES letter I stated that there's a mummy on the altar and you know, based on the stuff that they found in Egypt. Well, it was really Osiris because his leg was up so he wasn't dead. So that was a mistake on my part so far. Look, it's not a mummy, it's Osiris. What's wrong with you, Jeremy? And then I'm like, well, it doesn't matter because it's not Abraham. You know what I mean? So just weird stuff like that.
John Dehlin [01:08:37] Yeah, yeah. So are you. Have they responded to your response?
Jeremy Runnells [01:08:45] No, to their response. They changed their answers. They remove some of the stuff that they had before.
John Dehlin [01:08:52] So your debunking of their debunking caused them to retry website.
Jeremy Runnells [01:08:57] Yeah, but that's fine to me. I'm still going to leave my stuff on. And the answer they're giving speaks on its own. I just trust people that they can critical think and look at it themselves.
John Dehlin [01:09:10] Yeah. And what I hear you saying is that if a major technique of fair is to create complexity and confusion so that people just go, oh, it's too confusing, I better just believe because they're smart people anyway, you felt the need to then respond to that fear, uncertainty and doubt by addressing it very meticulously so that you wouldn't let them get away with that tactic.
Jeremy Runnells [01:09:36] Yeah. I mean really, has the Gospel of Jesus Christ become so complicated that you have to read all these scholarly books just under the right condition, under the right apologist or. You know what I mean? To me, the gospel used to be the pure and simple. It was just pure and simple. Now it just seems to have changed into this weird. Well, you know, you got to read enough scholarly books to understand what really happened. And it begs the question of what kind of mess Is this really God's plan? Is this really God's church? To where it's so confusing and complex that we have to figure out what happened in the 1830s and 1840s in order to get it. The other thing is the appeal to authority fallacy, which is basically. Well, there's smarter guys that have known these issues and they're still in. Well, I mean there's Mormon intellectuals that are still. I mean, Muslim intellectuals know the problem, and there's still Muslims, there's Catholic intellectuals that are still Catholics. It doesn't mean anything. Every religion has their intellectual. And the other key thing that a lot of true believing or Chapel Mormons, as I call them don't realize is that these guys don't have the same testimony that the Chapel Mormons do. You hear stuff like, I like Mormonism. I like what it does for my life. Or Joseph Smith introduced a God that really appealed to me. It's almost like a country club to these guys. You know what I mean? You don't hear stuff like you're referring
John Dehlin [01:11:18] to, like Richard Bushman's testimony where he says I'm Mormon because of the type of person it makes me.
Jeremy Runnells [01:11:23] Yeah, I like the way of life, you know, I like. You know what I mean? You don't hear stuff like, I know with every fiber of my being that Joseph Smith saw God the Father and Jesus Christ, that the Book of Mormon is a literal history of the Americas or. You know what I mean? You don't hear that kind of stuff. It's a different testimony. It's not the same.
John Dehlin [01:11:54] Sa.
Rapid-Fire Questions on the Letter's Reach and the Church's Essays
Part 3 of 3 · Ep. 482
John Dehlin [00:00:18] All right, now I'm going to go into the rapid firing round where I'm going to ask a bunch of just questions, brief answers if you can. Okay. We'll expand where we need to. How much money have you made off of letter to the CES director?
Jeremy Runnells [00:00:31] About a thousand.
John Dehlin [00:00:32] Thousand dollars?
Jeremy Runnells [00:00:33] Yeah. Not very much.
John Dehlin [00:00:34] Just people donating.
Jeremy Runnells [00:00:35] Just people donating?
John Dehlin [00:00:36] Do you want donations?
Jeremy Runnells [00:00:38] The donations are mainly there to maintain the website. I'm not going to make a million bucks off of this. It was never about money to me. It was about families.
John Dehlin [00:00:49] So if people want to support you. Do you want support?
Jeremy Runnells [00:00:52] Well, I'm not going to turn them down.
John Dehlin [00:00:54] Okay.
Jeremy Runnells [00:00:55] But yeah, there's a donation button on my website.
John Dehlin [00:00:57] Okay. Why didn't you just make a book and paper. Book print. Publish it as a book.
Jeremy Runnells [00:01:05] I look at my document as a living document. I like to add stuff to it. So for example, I added the late war and the first Napoleon stuff fairly recently because those are newer developments. I couldn't have added them in April 2013. So to me, in 21st century, it's just when you put a book, when you publish a book, it becomes static and almost old within a few years. I just like the living aspect of it.
John Dehlin [00:01:35] Somebody mentioned a movie. Are you looking at making it?
Jeremy Runnells [00:01:38] I mean somebody threw out the idea of making a movie on Reddit. And at first I was like, eh, whatever, wasn't really interested. But somebody did a trailer, which is the trailer on my website now. And after I saw that trailer I was like, wow, that's cool. So we started a little group of really talented professionals. Andrew James is one of them. And brother Jake, hilarious YouTube videos. He was another one and a few others. But after a while, just exhausting from dealing with fear and just the desire to kind of move on with my life, I just kind of just kind of abandoned it. I don't know. It's really a considerable amount of work and I don't have the desire to do it.
John Dehlin [00:02:28] So no movie for now?
Jeremy Runnells [00:02:29] No.
John Dehlin [00:02:33] So do you have any idea how many people have downloaded the letter, how many downloads by now? Any idea?
Jeremy Runnells [00:02:39] I can't give an exact amount because the Lottie was hosted on Warm andThink and a few other websites for a long time, months. And then the other aspect of people, you know, family members or friends attaching the PDF to email and sharing it. And sharing it.
John Dehlin [00:02:56] Yeah.
Jeremy Runnells [00:02:57] But I'm fairly certain that it's well over 100,000 downloads. Okay.
John Dehlin [00:03:03] Or shares, are you saying? Or is that just downloads, not shares?
Jeremy Runnells [00:03:07] Downloads and shares okay, 100,000. Like over 100,000.
John Dehlin [00:03:12] That's starting to reach critical mass, I'd say.
Jeremy Runnells [00:03:14] Well, it's accelerating. My visits every month is accelerating on my website right now. I'm getting on average anywhere from 15 to 20,000 visits on my website and just increasing every month. And I'm noticing a lot more. You know, it's not just looking at the visits on my website, but also the email that I'm getting, the type of emails I'm getting a lot more people that were true believing Mormons yesterday, a week ago, two weeks ago, that are now starting to, you know, discover all these different facts.
John Dehlin [00:03:51] Well, the church is releasing all these new essays. What do you think about the essays and are they going to help
Jeremy Runnells [00:04:01] overall? I think they're a good step. It's a step in the right direction in terms of more transparency and openness. I'll take it. But I wish that it was more. A lot of chapel Mormons have no idea about the essays. So I wish they would put in the insight, maybe talk about it in general conference, just be more like advertising more instead of kind of hiding it in the gospel topics part of the website.
John Dehlin [00:04:37] The crazy part of that is a lot of the people I'm speaking with who have experienced a faith crisis in 2013 and 2014 are mentioning the essays as contributing factors to their ultimate loss of faith. Are you hearing that, too?
Jeremy Runnells [00:04:51] Yeah, I'm hearing a lot more people talking about the Race and the Priesthood essay. Yeah, that's a major one.
John Dehlin [00:04:57] Yeah.
Jeremy Runnells [00:04:59] So there's a part in the Race in the Priesthood essay where they talk about, we disavow the theories of, you know, so basically 10 prophets, from Brigham Young all the way to Hill B. Lee, it was their theory that the blacks can't have the priesthood. And it's not just the priesthood. Black families can't go to get sealed in the temple. That's a big thing to me. That's a bigger issue than the priesthood thing. So it was just the theories. They were just products at the time, you know, but it wasn't back then. It was revelation. It was doctrine.
John Dehlin [00:05:35] And you mentioned in your CES letter. Is it the 56, 58, first presidency statement that says what?
Jeremy Runnells [00:05:42] 49.
John Dehlin [00:05:43] Sorry, yeah, I don't know the years. But what does it say?
Jeremy Runnells [00:05:45] Yeah, the 49. They talked about it and it was basically doctrine. And the brethren were asked in the late 60s when the Civil rights movement was really heating up, you know, why not give the blocks to priesthood? From what I've read in Michael Quinn's books. They had a discussion and Hill B. Lee was one of the apostles that was pushing it, not Hill B. Lee. Hubie Brown was one of the apostles pushing it for it, like to remove the ban. But Hill B. Lee pushed against it. So the ban continued until Campbell showed up. Right.
John Dehlin [00:06:26] Many want, many want to know about how your family has reacted to the letter. You sort of said you want to have a little bit of privacy around your family. So I don't want people get frustrated that I didn't ask the question. But I also just want to let people know that you're receiving some, you're. You're requesting some privacy there. So what are you comfortable saying about how family has reacted to this?
Jeremy Runnells [00:06:51] They know. They know. I read the letter. I'm not sure if they read it. 1. Well, one family member I know has read at least, you know, actually two family members I know have read it. They know about it. I'm not sure they know how big it, you know, how big it. It has gotten. But. When I stopped believing in the church, my dad, I had a conversation with my dad and he basically said, you know, whether you're in the church or you're out of the church, you're still my son and you're still in this family. So, you know, that's kind of my family. It's the same with my grandpa. He knows I wrote the letter. Obviously he hasn't read it and quite frankly, I hope he never reads it. You know, just 85 years old. But they don't throw away family over ideology, you know, your blood. And so I really appreciate that with my family.
John Dehlin [00:08:00] So someone mentioned that and we're not going to. You would rather not, just for the record, you'd rather not talk about your wife and kids, that kind of stuff?
Jeremy Runnells [00:08:08] Yeah, I prefer not to.
John Dehlin [00:08:09] Okay. So I just, and I respect that you've mentioned a little bit wanting to step away from kind of post Mormon stuff and yet here you are with me. And do you ever feel like you go back and forth on that a little bit?
Jeremy Runnells [00:08:25] Well, when I stated, basically I did a farewell in the subreddit next morning, it was more the day to day, just looking at a forum here and there. I just wanted to move away from that, focus on more important things. Not that it was unimportant. It's kind of like the hospital analogy. I'm sure you can relate with Mormon stories. A lot of people come in and they're using this recovery process and then it gets to the point where they're Ready to move on, similar to me. So what I meant by that is to move away from the forums and that type of thing. But I'm still going to maintain the website, I'm still going to answer emails, and obviously I'm not going to say no to John deland.
Time Invested, Church Discipline, and Apostles' Awareness
John Dehlin [00:09:16] What do you say? Somebody wrote. How do you explain all the intellectuals who still believe? We touched on this a little bit. So don't go the route of saying all religions have intellectuals that still believe. Any other thing you want to say about how you would explain a Richard Bushman or Terrell Gibbons.
Jeremy Runnells [00:09:35] Yeah, just.
John Dehlin [00:09:37] Or Fiona Gibbons or Claudia.
Jeremy Runnells [00:09:39] Yeah, they just. From my point of view, they look at religion differently than a chapel Mormon. They don't see it as black and white. They see a lot of grays. They're very. They're much more flexible in things. And, you know, I have major respect for Richard Buschman. He's an amazing scholar. His book has been pivotable, very pivotal and important to me. So he, I mean, he's pushing for honesty. So for example, he has a problem with the church showing the art of the Book of Mormon translation, putting the fingers over the gold plates, you know, the pictures on the bulletin boards. He has a problem with that. He thinks we need to stop doing that. He thinks we need to not necessarily show more pictures of the rocking the hat thing, but to teach the children how it really happened. So I respect him. I see him as pushing for honesty. His book Rough Stone Rolling has really, to me, changed Mormonism the last decade.
John Dehlin [00:10:55] But how do you personally explain that they're still believers. Maybe if you tried a little harder, prayed a little harder, had the right perspective, you could be still in and enjoying all these things yourself. Like, certainly you don't know more than them.
Jeremy Runnells [00:11:10] Well, the way I see it is that it's not just the problems. There has to be other factors. You have to feel like the church is a net benefit in your life. And it's just different personalities. Some people can afford to leave the church, some people can't. To some people, it's a heavy price that they're not willing to pay. You know, so some people, they might not worry too much about the doctrines and the history as they do about what the church does for them today. The home teaching, the elders quorum, the feeling of community in there, or the Relief Society, the feeling of community in there. So it's complicated, it's messy. There's no easy answer.
John Dehlin [00:12:04] Do you have any critique of sort of that middle way, New Order Mormon kind of approach.
Jeremy Runnells [00:12:11] I don't, I don't judge them. Like I said, it's complicated. I don't know their family situation, I don't know their business situation. And I think my hat goes out. I tip my hat to them in the sense that if they're able to know the issues and still go to church, I mean, that's pretty difficult. Sitting through, you know, for example, Sunday school, how Joseph Smith translated Book of Mormon. You're just sitting there like, no, that's not what happened. It's really, to me, a Chinese torture. You know what I mean? So I don't judge them. They have the reasons for doing it, and if it works for them, it works for them.
John Dehlin [00:12:54] How many hours do you think you went into writing letter to the CS director and the response?
Jeremy Runnells [00:13:01] So, you know, I researched for two years and did research that first year. In terms of the actual writing the CES letter, I would say that it was probably about a month. And then fairs debunking. Fairs debunking was about six months of late nights and weekends. And part of the problem is they kept changing their answers and they kept changing and it got to a point where I was like, you know what, I'm just going to chain it here. So, yeah, debunking, fair debunking was really a tough one in terms of just the amount of work that was involved. And it wasn't just, it's not like responding to an answer, it's explaining why it's a straw man, why this argument's a straw man, and giving a quick background and then entering the the issue.
John Dehlin [00:13:55] Would your goal be that somehow a copy of the letter get in the hands of every Mormon across the world? I saw in Reddit that someone, I think, at LDS business college found a way to send your letter to hundreds or maybe thousands of students there, and that you actually weren't thrilled about that. So talk a little bit about how you would or wouldn't want your letter to be used.
Jeremy Runnells [00:14:22] Well, so basically it started about a month and a half ago where somebody actually wrote on a bulletin board page or whatever. Visit cesletter.com so basically I went on Reddit and told everybody, look, there's a good way and there's a bad way to share this information. I have respect for other people's property, so I don't think it's a good idea to go and church property on the bulletin boards writing this stuff. I don't think it's a good idea. Now, the spamming to the LDS Business College, it was 1,000 students, from what I understand. And I was surprised to find out that the Salt Lake Tribune actually, they wrote an article about it. I was like, wow, it's news. Okay. So I don't. I do online marketing for a living, so I kind of frown on spam, just from a career perspective as a professional. So I don't think spamming people is the right way to go. I don't approve of that way. There's a good way and there's a bad way of sharing the information. I think we just need to be more respectful in how we're doing, how we do it. And this goes with grabbing the email addresses and names on the Church's ward directories. People are giving their contact information and their home addresses because they trust that that information is going to be protected in the LDS ward directory system. So I think it's a huge violation of just trust and respect to be going in there and grabbing all these email addresses and spamming the letter and stuff. But with that said, the letter is public domain and it's out on the Internet. And I'm not naive to think that I can control how it's shared or distributed. So if, you know, it's beyond my control. But my position is it is my hope that we'll respect the people's property and privacy.
John Dehlin [00:16:35] So have you been disciplined by the Church at all? You've been contacted by the Church in any way?
Jeremy Runnells [00:16:39] I haven't. I'm still a member on record.
John Dehlin [00:16:42] How do you explain that? Like, you know, 1993, so 20 years ago, they're excommunicating people like you.
Jeremy Runnells [00:16:50] It's a different time. It's a different place. I think the church is realizing that. I don't know. I can speculate, but my bishop knows I'm not hiding anything. I emailed it to him. He's a very nice guy. I like him a lot. You know, I told him I'm not out to deconvert the ward or anything. I've never told anybody in the ward. I mean, my home teacher asked once and he knows, but he approached me on the subject. But I don't know. The only thing I can think of is I have a big microphone online and, you know, my letters are Mormon. Think. And, you know, the whole David Tree situation back in 2012, where, I mean, the church was going after him because he was an editor on mormonthink.com and so I think that blew up in the church's face because of the number of newspapers and media outlets that were covering It So I think the church realized that they got to be more careful in terms of who they chase. But I think we're entering a different time now. I think the church is accepting that due to social media and the Internet, they're just going to have more criticism. And it's not 1993 anymore. It's unrealistic to be going after everybody that has a negative opinion here and there about certain doctrines and whatever. I think the Internet changing everything and I think that's evident with the essays, that's evident with the Joseph Smith papers, that's evident with the October 2013 talk. You know, and I think times are changing. I think as the Internet evolved, so does so there's a situation. So for example, in 2002, before Facebook and MySpace and all that, in order to find this information you had to pull up a search engine and look it up. Now with social media, it's basically coming in the faces of true believing Mormons, whether they like it or not or whether they're asking for it or not, you know, a thing here and there.
John Dehlin [00:19:10] So.
Jeremy Runnells [00:19:11] So I think it's creeping down, this information is creeping down to the ward and stake level. I've heard that when I've heard that my CES letter was a topic for Sacrament talk in Hebrew City, Utah, a gentleman, older gentleman, I'm not sure who he was, a high councilman, I'm a mission president, I don't know. But he kind of mentioned my. He didn't mention it directly but he mentioned it, the 77 page letter. And then he kind of goes over some of the issues and how a member can reconcile like can come to terms with it. So that kind of fascinated. I've also heard that, you know, Marlon King Jensen was given a letter by members in New York. I'm not sure if that's correct information. So the Internet's really changing things. It's going to be really fascinating what happens in the next five, 10, 20 years, how the church is going to change. It has to change. It's going to change because it's like the blocks in the priesthood and polygamy in 1890. If the church doesn't change, society is going to change it. I mean the rising generation, they're more sophisticated. My 7 year old, I mean he's obsessed with Minecraft and he wants to figure out stuff. So when he has a question, he posts up Google and he looks up and he finds a website with different tricks or tips on how to do this and that in Minecraft and he keeps that Window open with his window on Minecraft. Or if he has a question, he grabs my phone and clicks on Google. And this is the generation that the church is facing, they're facing right now. And I think the church realizes that with their essays. And I think the essays are causing more problems than they were expecting, because I'm sure you can relate to this. But I'm hearing more and more people that are coming. Their shelf broke after reading this essay. What did I say?
John Dehlin [00:21:23] Yeah. So the million dollar question of speculation is, do the apostles. Do you think they know the issues that are in your letter?
Jeremy Runnells [00:21:32] Some do. I'm not sure about all of them. And the reason why I say some do is Bertrade Thacker. He knows a lot of them. I mean, this is evident with his speech in the 1981 CES symposium. You know, all truths are not very useful. And he's basically telling the CES instructors to teach faithful history. So he knows that there's. And he was kind of involved in the Mark Hoffman thing. Not as much as Oakes in Holland,
John Dehlin [00:22:02] but
Jeremy Runnells [00:22:04] I think he knows a lot of it. And September 6th, right, September 6th. And then, for example, McConkey, I think he knew a lot of it. Especially when you look at the stuff that went on with Eugene England Maxwell. In his book Not My Will But Thine, he talks about the Rock and the Hat. So he knew how the Book of Mormon was really translated. But here he was looking at the church museum or the magazines or the curriculum. He was seeing that the church was showing a different story than the Rock in the Hat. So he knew that some was out. Same with Nelson. He talked about the Rock in the Hat in 1993, and he knew all these years how the Church was presenting the Book of Mormon translation, not how it really happened. So that's kind of what my sense of things is. Do I think they're evil men? No, I don't. I think they're men that are trying to do the best they can. I think they're between a rock and a hard place.
John Dehlin [00:23:14] Or a stone in a hard place.
Jeremy Runnells [00:23:17] Yeah. And so I don't know. I'm just happy I'm not an impossible. It is my hope that they'll continue to be transparent and that they'll continue that direction and that they'll push harder and quickly, be quick, do it quickly. Because we're reaching. I mean, we're reaching a point where things are really going to blow up. I mean, the dam is breaking, so to speak.
John Dehlin [00:23:54] How do you see it playing out? I know it's speculation, but
Jeremy Runnells [00:24:00] I'm seeing something very interesting. I call them the Schnepperites.
John Dehlin [00:24:05] Snufferites.
Jeremy Runnells [00:24:06] Yeah, so Denver Snuffer.
John Dehlin [00:24:09] And I call them Neo Fundamentalists, which they hate.
Jeremy Runnells [00:24:14] Yeah, they're an interesting bunch. If I understand correctly, they basically accept or believe the foundational claims of the church. Joseph Smith.
John Dehlin [00:24:25] Joseph got it right before Nauvoo and the Book of Mormon got it right.
Jeremy Runnells [00:24:29] Yeah. But then the church right now is a corporation. It's apostate. It's really interesting the point of view of things. I see them becoming more of a movement in the coming years with the really strong fanatical. You know what I mean? Very strong McConkey, Joseph Golding Smith type Mormons. I see the RLDS church as a model for how things are going.
John Dehlin [00:25:02] For what? For weakening itself or for doing the right thing?
Jeremy Runnells [00:25:06] Well, I see them both. They did the right thing. I mean I mentioned in my debunking Ferris debunking introduction about how in the 60s it was a crossroads and the RLDF church took the road where they became more honest and transparent about Joseph Smith and the problem. And the woman got the priesthood in 84 and then 31st non Smith prophet in 96. And then the church changed its name and it's more Protestant now. And then the LDS Church did the complete opposite. I see the church down.
John Dehlin [00:25:43] We're stronger now than they are.
Jeremy Runnells [00:25:45] They are.
John Dehlin [00:25:46] We are. We're stronger.
Jeremy Runnells [00:25:48] Right.
John Dehlin [00:25:49] They're weaker than they were.
Jeremy Runnells [00:25:50] Right. Yeah. Because as a result made the right decision. I think they did. Because at the end of the day honesty is the best policy. You can't keep being dishonest to people.
John Dehlin [00:26:04] But what if they're preserving a structure that allows great individuals to be raised and produced and great families to have a great experience. So it's a little bit like the Village, the movie the Village by M. Night Shyamalalamala, Ding Dong or the Truman Show. But what goes on in that little bubble is really good.
Jeremy Runnells [00:26:30] No, it's not really good. It's fake. It's not real. It's not. And this whole argument that the church does great things, it doesn't. It's still a fundamentalist black and white religion. I don't agree that little children should be put in a. In a closed door room with a middle aged man asking them sexual questions. You know what I mean? I don't think that's right. You know, misrepresenting history and the doctrines while telling people that they have to pay 10% of their income, you know what I mean? I think by being honest, the church is going to lose 10 tithing is going to lose members. But that's just the natural consequence of whitewashing and misrepresenting your history. It's just the price that can have to be paid. I don't think Mormonism is going to go away. I think it's going to be smaller, less vibrant as it was back in the 70s, 80s, 90s.
John Dehlin [00:27:41] Will it continue to grow numbers wise?
Jeremy Runnells [00:27:43] It might in Latin America, Africa, Philippines. Yeah, but as they become more developed with the Internet and information comes out, you know what I mean? But I see the developed countries like United States go in the direction of Sweden, where the church is basically collapsing in Sweden. So I don't know, I think it's going to be very interesting. But the bottom line is all the church can do really is be honest about it and let the ships fall where they may. But we know on this planet that's usually not how it works. They fight to the death, keep the status quo. Especially when you're getting like 8 billion or 7 billion in tithing revenue every year and you got all these investments like BYU and City Creek and so forth, all the temples. But I see more offshoots. I see the Sniperites having their own offshoot, you know, I mean, what about
John Dehlin [00:28:46] some type of progressive, like reform Mormon movement?
Jeremy Runnells [00:28:50] Yeah, I see that also being an offshoot. So like I said, I don't have a crystal ball. I just think it's going to be very fascinating to watch the next five, 10, 20 years.
Jeremy's Current Spirituality and Advice for Latter-day Saints
John Dehlin [00:29:03] Many people want to know where you are now with spirituality. Do you believe in God? Do you believe in Jesus? Do you still have a testimony of something? And most importantly, are you happy now or are you dark and loathsome now?
Jeremy Runnells [00:29:15] I'm happy. I'm happy. In terms of my.
John Dehlin [00:29:21] Are you happier?
Jeremy Runnells [00:29:22] I'm happier.
John Dehlin [00:29:23] How, how can that be?
Jeremy Runnells [00:29:25] I don't have that. I'm not at war with myself. In Mormonism, you don't realize that you're at war with yourself. You're always told that you're broken, that you need to be fixed, that you need to keep repenting. You don't do your home teaching one month and you should beat yourself up over that. You're always at war with yourself. The natural man is an enemy of God. I still live an LDS lifestyle. I don't drink or smoke. I don't take drugs, I don't go to the strip club. I don't have a porn problem. I don't you know what I mean? I live that life because it works for me. I'm a family man. I'm not a college student. And life is hard enough, you know, without those problems, whatever. But yeah, so just going back, I. In terms of spiritual, I'm still in the court with that. I'm still trying to figure things out with that. Basically. I think right now I'm currently a deus humanist, meaning I believe that there's something more to this. Call it higher power or higher force or whatever you want to call it. I don't know, maybe there's reincarnation or maybe we're in a computer simulation program or matrix. I don't know. But I just think there's something more to all of this. I have a hard time believing in a God that intervenes into human affairs. So you've heard the term the God of lost keys, God of the gaps? Yeah. So the God of lost keys is going to find my keys, he's going to bless my greasy pizza, and he's going to help me pass my SATs, but he's going to ignore the prayer of the kid that's getting molested, or the kids in Africa that are starving and getting hacked, or the kids in North Korea that are eating bark and grass. I mean, it just seems wrong. Something's wrong with that picture. So I just have a hard time believing in God that intervenes. Because if he can intervene for my greasy pizza, you know, to nourish and bless it, then, you know, why isn't he nourishing and blessing the, you know, the kids in Africa and North Korea? I don't get it. So in that sense, I'm kind of atheist. I don't believe in any religion or gods that I currently know of. If a gun was pointing to my head, I would probably. If a gun was pointing to my head and I was forced to join a religion, I would probably join Buddhism. It just seems chilled. You don't hear of any Buddhist missionaries knocking on doors or Buddhist suicide bombers. They're just cool, and you know what I mean. They just meditate, they're cool. But I'm still trying to figure things out on that end. I think what's important is today, love, compassion, being kind to each other. Like, we have this, we have each other, we can see it. Let's focus on humanity and moving the species forward. I get my spirituality, if you will. Just during my faith crisis, during my faith transition, it was around the time when we landed the Mars Rover on Mars. We landed a freaking car on Another planet. And not only that, we used a sky crane to land the car on the other planet. And we not only landed a car in another planet, but we're driving that car around that planet. We're communicating with it. We're taking pictures with it, we're taking examples with it. It's amazing. I mean, we did that. We came out of the caves and we did that. Science is personal to me. Microchlear implants.
John Dehlin [00:33:34] Now, what if people were to say to you, that's the answer to that blessing you got from Wichman? Why not? That's God's hand.
Jeremy Runnells [00:33:43] That's doing a disservice to the people that. To the pioneers and the doctors and the medical researchers. So I know his name, Dr. William House, back in the 60s, he's the inventor of cochlear implants. So back in the 60s, he had this idea of putting electricity in the human ear through the cochlea, which is a part of the inner ear. He was told by doctors, that's crazy. You can't do that. You're insane. Don't do that. The first implant that he implanted in an individual, that individual's body rejected the cochlear implant. It was a failure. And they really got on him. They were like, you can't do this. This is crazy. Just let it go. He didn't. He persisted. He pushed harder. He knew that he could make it happen. And because he did that, I can talk to you right now. And I'm thankful for him for doing, not giving up, for pushing. I hear every day because of science. I mean, I can hear. I go from not being able to hear a jetliner, a jetliner's engine, to putting my implants on and being able to hear, you know, putting the spoon against the macaroni and cheese or the tick tock of the clock. It's just. I mean, I. My job, I wouldn't have my job without my implants to be able to talk on the phone. So I just. I mean, it's just amazing. And not just that, but like, Felix, he jumped out of a perfectly good capsule 24 miles up in space. Remember Felix, back in 2012, he jumped out of it. But what was really cool about it was the commander of that mission was a guy that was the record holder at the time. 60 years before that, he jumped out of a capsule at 19 miles. So that was his record. But here he was in 2012, 2013, whatever it was. He was helping this young man, Felix, to be his own record. So that human Spirit, that drive to become better, that drive to make progress, to alleviate the suffering of others. It inspires me. I get goosebumps thinking about it. I share Neil DeGrasse Tyson's philosophy of learn something today that I didn't know yesterday and to alleviate the suffering of others.
John Dehlin [00:36:32] So there are people out there who are scared, and they're scared for two main reasons. One is they're scared that life will get worse if they move away from an orthodox believing perspective or leave the church. And the second is their marriage is on the brink where one is struggling and when one is still believing. What would you recommend? What would you say to those two classes of people?
Jeremy Runnells [00:37:03] It's normal to be scared, but it's worth it. It's worth it. It's not going to be easy. There's going to be a roller coaster that you have to strap and put your seatbelt on and ride it for a couple months. But it's temporary and it gets better. When you're in a religion that a fundamentalist religion, black and white religion, it's easy to see the world in terms of your Mormon filters. You don't know anything else. But if you just take that leap of faith and just be honest, just really ask the hard questions and be open to the answers, eventually life is going to be better. But you're going to have to go through the different stages of grief because you're changing the paradigm, you're changing the way of life. But you have to. In terms of family members, that's a sticky situation if you have some family members that still believe. Live and let live. It was hard for me in the beginning of my faith crisis with my own family because Elder Runnells showed up. You know, got to convert or deconvert these people. You know, I have the truth now and, you know, they're in a fraud. We've got to save them. But over time, I've gotten rid of Elder Reynolds. I think in terms of sometimes the right thing is just live. And it is the right thing to live and let live. And everybody's situation is different. In terms of how to present these issues to your family members or how to explain to them why you left. It's probably best not to say, you know, the church is a fraud. Judge Smith was, you know, a pitiful. Yeah. Even though I put that in my letter. But I think I have a good reason for putting it. But you don't tell them that. You ask them questions, say, you know, this whole polyandry thing. Joseph Smith married other loving Men's wives. You know, fair confirms this. You can read about it here. What do you think about that? The gold plates were not used for the Book of Mormon translation. You can see this essay. What do you think about that? What are your thoughts? I mean, I'm confused because you know the gold place, the church is saying that the blacks in the priesthood, like you know, these men were just men and the church now disavows the theories. And you can see the essay here. What do you think about that? How do you reconcile this with the revelation and doctrine in, you know, the 20th century, 19th century where the blacks couldn't have the priesthood because of the pre existence or the curse of Cain? How do you reconcile this? So it's basically questions, not lecturing them and telling them that this is a fraud. This is the fraud. This is a fraud.
John Dehlin [00:40:14] Final words for the audience.
Jeremy Runnells [00:40:20] Just hang in there and just be honest with. Not be honest, but be willing to ask the hard questions and to be honest with yourself with those questions. Look at the church the same way that you would look at other religions. Because if you're going to be putting in all that time and effort and 10% of your income and all that commitment, you owe it to yourself to test your testimony. Because I don't think you really have a true testimony until you're willing to test it to look at the other side, the rest of the story. It gets better and it's worth it. And I want to thank my readers for all their support and the emails that I've received. A lot of them have been very touching. I will try my best to get back to you on the emails. I'm sorry that I haven't responded to some of you, but thank you for your support and it's been a crazy ride. Thank you.
John Dehlin [00:41:28] Well, excellent. Well, Jeremy Reynolds, your story inspires me. So I see you as another modern day hero. I'm going to use that word again. I'll stand by it. You've helped a lot of people and I just want to thank you for all your efforts.
Jeremy Runnells [00:41:46] Thank you, John.
John Dehlin [00:41:48] The website is cesletter.com I think, right?
Jeremy Runnells [00:41:51] Yes.
John Dehlin [00:41:53] So check it out. Please also feel free to ask Jeremy any questions you have on mormonstories.org we love that back and forth so we hope that we'll get some good questions there. Thank you so much everyone for your support, for all you've done to make this possible, for those who've contributed or encouraged in some way because all those things really make a difference and make this possible. So thanks for joining us on Mormon Stories. We will be following this up with some in depth discussions between Brad Kramer and Jay Nelson C. Wright, digging into a bit more detail on the letter. And we hope you enjoy that series as well. So thanks again. And Jeremy, thanks so much.
Jeremy Runnells [00:42:33] Thank you.
Guest [00:42:49] Nearer, my God, to thee, Nearer to thee Even though it be a cross that raised me, still, O my soul shall be Nearer I go to the Nearer I go Nearer to the.
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171 Responses
About time! Looking forward to this.
Great Interview. Jeremy really represents the biggest problem for Mormonism moving forward. Young man in his 30’s that grew up with google and is willing to seek out answers. His summary of the issues in the CES letter are exactly what his generation does best. They can data mine the information and compile it in a concise format that paints the bigger picture.
It use to be that you needed to read dozens of books on Mormonism. Now with the google generation, that information can be compiled and discussed in a 80 page document.
I admire Jeremy and the many of his generation that can see the issues and help share it in a simple way others can understand.
I totally agree. The most remarkable thing about Jeremy’s story is that it is so common. Every single day, totally committed and active members are doing the research and realizing that the Church is not what it claims. There is a reason why the Brethren have worked to keep the truth out of their curriculum and outside of the tbm buble and the reason is that the sanitized story provides the foundation for the authority to control their members and enforce their policies and programs without question. Finding out the truth about the restoration creates the opening to give yourself permission to start thinking for yourself and stop giving the Church and the Brethren a free pass.
If the Book of Mormon is not an ancient record and Joseph Smith was not a prophet, then how much control over your life should you give the Church? The leadership, programs and policies presume the inerrant authority to tell you everything from the purpose to life, to when to get married and have kids, to whether or not you should show your shoulders to men. Today, the Brethren would be better off worrying less about controlling the narrative of the truth claims and more about improving their product because not only are members finding out the truth but they are then deciding that they need to leave.
Exactly. The only reason you give your life and resources over to the church, is because you are taught from birth that it’s Christ’s church, and that Joseph Smith is a prophet of God. But take that away, and very few people would be willing to sacrifice and serve the way we Mormon’s do, for a man made church. All those decisions we made thinking that the Prophet was talking for God. It’s just maddening. Like Jeremy said, this is people’s lives were talking about. All the money we have paid in tithing over the past 35 years, my husband and I could retire now. My husband says he will never let another person or organization tell him what to do. I think it’s especially hard for men to find out that these men leading this church are just that, men. My husband is mad and says he will never go back. The leasers lied to him, knowing that the story they are telling isnt true, yet they will perpetuate the lie to keep our devotion. And frankly I don’t care that they are in a tough spot, that John Dehlin sometimes refers to. They should try integrity, that’s what we were taught, they should try it sometime. “Choose the right” let the chips fall where they may. That’s something I could respect, but I can no longer respect the “brethren” as they knowingly perpetuate the lie, just to keep the church in tact.
I agree Debbie that people are “taught” that these men are prophets. But, it was your choice to believe what you were taught and your choice to pay tithing. I know taking personal responsibility is not part of our current culture, but dissenters who are mad about all the time and money spent need to first and foremost be angry at the person that looks back at them in the mirror.
@Ryan Wimmer
Your missing the the culture that people live in from when they are young. A person doesn’t take responsibility until they are adults, their youth is not their fault, but the fault of their parents and those around them. In the church you are surrounded with the culture from when you are born and through (possibly) college and even your married life as the church defines all that you are.
Jeremy did take charge as an adult for his beliefs by being open enough to change his mind when finding conflicting information. Those before him that heard it, or refused to hear it are the ones to rightly blame as they did nothing to embrace truth – or at least not instill lies upon their children. That is my biggest gripe, you can believe what you want to, but to indoctrinate your children in something that is readily falsifiable is a travesty and a crime.
Jon, I agree that you can use the parental indoctrination as an excuse for following, but after you are grown it is your own choice, and if you CHOOSE to give time and money to the church, you really have only yourself to blame. And I agree, all religion is falsifiable and indoctrination is an issue, but it is not any different than indoctrinating your children to follow your political views, that democracy is better than a monarchy, monogamy is better than polygamy, etc. parents always indoctrinate their own belief system. Certainly not a “crime”, if you really think it a crime than press charges and get laughed out of court.
@Ryan Wimmer,
I agree it is your own choice but at the same time we shouldn’t blame the victim. Yes, if an elderly person gives his money to a scam artist it was his choice but the scam artist should still give the money back (with interest) and possibly have other repercussions.
And if you spank (that is, hit) your kids and you try and bring it to court they will laugh at you out of court but it is still a crime, the courts may not recognize it yet but they will eventually as they do in some European countries.
I understand the complexities of parenting and how we all indoctrinate our children. But eventually certain things become against the dominate culture (that which matters more than law or courts as it eventually shows up in law and courts). Eventually indoctrinating a child to believe in invisible people that can cause you to lose your family forever if you don’t follow certain men on earth will be against the dominate culture, it is just a matter of time.
You could go to jail or be charged for hitting your kids, it depends. What should or should not be considered a crime is an opinion not a fact. Your post is confirming exactly what I said earlier, we live in a growing culture that refuses to accept personal responsibility. I cannot emphasize it enough, as an adult you are CHOOSING, it is your CHOICE and your CHOICE alone to participate and give money to a church. Morons and idiots always cry “victim”, but you were a victim only of your own idiotic CHOICE.
Ryan, yes, as adults everyone must take responsibility for their decisions. However, as in Jon’s example, a person is a victim to some extent if they are intentionally given false and misleading information with the intention of tricking them into handing over money and power. Unfortunately, that is exactly what the Mormon church and its leadership have done from day one. They have intentionally omitted important information, even changed documents, and included information that they know cannot be true. Couple that with children being taught by their trusted parents, not only all of this misleading info, but that the church leaders are speaking for God or have the power of God. Then the leaders also warn you not to look at any info about the church that is not from them or is critical, or you will put yourself under satan’s power and will lose your eternal salvation. From the viewpoint of someone born into the Mormon church, it becomes very difficult to overcome the trust in “leaders” and begin to think critically. There are even more manipulative tactics than I have mentioned here. The point is that it is a bit more difficult for a life long Mormon to begin to see the truth, even as an adult and even though the doctrine is plainly false to most people looking in.
Sure, all Mormons born into the church should be just as skeptical of church leaders as they would be of anyone else. I wish they were. That is not how human psychology works. Adult Mormons who continue to be duped must take responsibility for that and they do. They will not get that money, time, or all their decisions back. This reality does not mitigate the responsibility the Mormon church and it’s leaders should bear for deceiving them.
It’s the victim’s choice to be involved in a financial fraud, but that “choice” does not excuse criminality of the fraudster.
There’s a multiple part BBC documentary called “Hitler Youth”. The first episode called “seduction” and describes the systematic indoctrination of the youth of Germany to prepare them to be future soldiers for the Reich.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zocAaqp4AG4
In the opening a woman describes “Every little drop wears away a stone” and “we were like little stones.” They learned “total devotion” and it wasn’t until after the war that they realized what they had been subjected to and how extensive and complete the indoctrination had been.
Boys were to be soldiers. Girls were to bear children.
You think members of the Church have any choice about following their leaders, not paying their tithing etc. think again. They were taught to be willing to give up their lives if necessary. It was all regimented and it was every weekend.
The similarities are quite disturbing.
@Robert Hodge,
Check out the Adverse Childhood Experiences Study too. Your childhood has immense influence on your entire life. I do think we do have choices in our lives but those choices are severely limited by how we are raised and the environment we live in.
I found it interesting reading The Lucifer Effect but one of the things the author didn’t seem to address and consider is that the normal person isn’t necessarily a healthy person. So the solution to Situational Influences might be just raising our kids in better and more loving environments.
Yeah, as much as it is a CHOICE for you to believe that the earth revolves around the sun or a CHOICE for you to believe that George Washington was the first president of the United States, or a CHOICE for you to believe that men landed on the moon. You “choose to believe” those things because the people and world around you has told you that that’s the way it is. Absolutely no need to question it. Same with those of us who grew up in the church. We are raised from babies, never to question our beliefs, that those who question in the wrong, that our parents and people around us will be disappointed in us if we “choose” not to believe and that we should do everything we can to keep telling ourselves to believe everyday. So give me a break on the Choice stuff. Be a little more sensitive to those of us who have brainwashed from the second we left the womb.
Sorry Ryan, but your reasoning is awful. Please step back and think about it a bit. Try it in other contexts; for instance, “Company X lied to you about their product and you’re at fault because you believed it and bought the product.” Etc. Children are taught these things in Nursery, for crying out loud.
Nice blaming the victim. Try again.
Your point would be good if there had been no history of deception on the part of Joseph Smith and the Church. That is not the case. The Church has lied (about the practice of polygamy for example) and covered up Joseph Smith’s and Brigham Young’s polyandry. Joseph Smith lied about this practice of polygamy and did not even bother to follow the outlines for the practice set forth in D&C Section 132.
I am a bit slow sometimes but eventually I get it.
I do not worry about having to buy the church’s story ( Joseph and Oliver’s) miraculous translation story.
The face in the hat was for everyone to see and Joseph was a genius, I am convinced he composed much of the text this way.
Oliver was in on all the secrets of translation and late date (reported 4 yrs after may 15, 1829) reporting of Peter,James, John coming with the priesthood.
Joseph and Oliver had the sixty days (maybe more before) to put the manuscript together with material from anywhere when no one was watching. If anyone hears there was witnesses all the time the manuscript was being written let me know.
Amen, Debbie! That’s the crux of it for me. Why do all that, make all that sacrifice, for a church of man?
The biggest problem with Mormonism is enlightened, loving leadership. The history of the early Mormons shows them to be flawed humans. They were committed and believed in something and it made them accomplish great things. I’m not an apologist for the Church because i am also hanging on by a thread. Regardless of where the PofGP and the BofM came from, they have been positive influences on my life. Joseph was flawed, but he was less flawed then those that came after (imo).
“Regardless of where the PofGP and the BofM came from, they have been positive influences on my life. Joseph was flawed, but he was less flawed then those that came after (imo).”
Seriously?? I can understand where you give credit for what positive influences the BOM/PofGP brought into your life – just as I can give credit for various other author’s works for influencing my life for the better. However…acknowledging that Joseph Smith was flawed and then saying those who came later are worse is hard for me to agree with. Without Joseph Smith’s original fraud the church wouldn’t exist. Therefore there would be no basis for these otherwise well intentioned men to build upon. There would be no history for them to hide or try to defend. Perhaps where you and I differ is on the degree to which we view Joseph Smith’s “flaws.”
For me, it’s been a life of almost 60 years put into a faith that is a sham. I can imagine that it may have been the same for many of these at the top of the church….that they are now in too deep to get out.
I found these the other day on YouTube and listened to all of them. Jeremy seems to be an honest, thoughtful person. I have read CES Letter, it helped me during my faith crisis. I think he shares very good advice in this interview. Especially what he said about not divorcing over Joseph Smiths church. I was fortunate that both my husband and I were in agreement during our faith crises. But not all couples are that lucky and how sad that belief in this church could destroy a marriage. Anyway Jeremy, like John said, you’re a hero. You are to me :)
Thanks Jeremy. Very well done. I’m not sure I would call Joseph Smith a pedophile as the Wikipedia definition is 11 years or younger. I would call it inappropriate age difference and “creepy” for sure though. I appreciate very much your closing remarks especially about not confusing the blessing given to you to restore your hearing with the cochlear implants and doing a disservice to the individual who invented them.
Thanks! I explain why I use the term at http://www.cesletter.com/pedophilia
Thanks! I explain why I use the term and why I think I’m justified for using the term at http://www.cesletter.com/pedophilia
On the subject of Joseph Smith marrying the two young girls. I’ve always wondered how that fit into the cultural context of the time. I remember my grandma marrying young,(16 or 17) and her stating it was “normal back then to marry young” I just wonder if marrying that young was common at that time, or not. Any information on that?
p.s. I loved the interviewed! Thanks for being authentic.
Sarah, a good book that discusses that issue is:
http://www.amazon.com/Persistence-Polygamy-Joseph-Origins-Mormon-ebook/dp/B004GNEDIM/ref=sr_1_5?ie=UTF8&qid=1403227878&sr=8-5&keywords=Newell+bringhurst
One essay argues it was common and another says it wasn’t. I have seen the state laws of the nineteenth century and most had the common law marriage for females was 13 years old. Modern social constructs of pedophilia had yet to be invented and of course the general definition of pedophilia is pre-puberty attraction. So whether or not it was common is debatable but the legal and social constructs were far different than our own. During the anti-polygamy campaign in Utah of the 1870s and 1880s the age of the women was not an issue like it is now whenever polygamy is discussed, a totally different social world than ours. Laura Ingells Wilder was teaching school two months after she turned 16, imagine that now, sixteen is not even an adult now.
Thanks!
Was it normal to marry 14-year-old girls in Joseph Smith’s time?: http://www.i4m.com/think/polygamy/teen_polygamy.htm
Whether it was “normal” is debatable. Most nineteenth century historians I have talked with on this (two of them at BYU) say it was not normal. But that it was legal and modern social constructs of age really developed after the child labor movement. While Utah polygamy also included young girls that was not part of the anti-polygamy campaign due to the cultural differences of then and now concerning age and adulthood.
Not only was it not normal to marry 14-year-old girls but it was illegal in Joseph’s case. Let’s assume marrying girls that young was legal. Joseph still had zero business marrying them as polygamy was illegal under the laws of the land.
Like I said, “normal” is debatable, but most believe it was not normal. History is not a set of certain facts, but people who are new to looking into history generally make that mistake. Polygamy was illegal but not the marrying of young girls, most states was 13 for females as far as the law goes. The cultural differences is just reality, anti-polygamy campaign was never concerned with the girls age as it is now, that is due to cultural differences. Modern constructs of pedophilia had simply not been invented yet. I do hope with the gay marriage movement we can let grown ups be grown ups who want to practice polygamy as well.
Thanks!
When people supply anecdotes about 19th century teenaged marriages, note that they are between two similarly aged people. It’s one thing for a 19th century 16 year old to marry another 16 year old. It’s quite another for a 36 year old man to marry a 14 year old girl.
I have wondered how he got Emma pregnant multiple times but there is no evidence of getting any of his “other” wives pregnant. Even at least one claim by Fawn Brodie that he had fathered a child to one of those women were debunked.
My response to this issue: https://cesletter.com/debunking-fairmormon/polygamy-polyandry.html#children
Joseph having a trinitarian/modalism view until Jeremy thinks he changed it sometime before 1838. It just doesn’t fit with the facts in the historical record, and you only get information from Jeremy that fits his paradigm (this is a common theme throughout the ENTIRE CES LETTER). This whole idea that “Joseph tried to cover up his Trinitarian ideas” in the BoM is ridiculous. He changed a FEW verses. He certainly didn’t do a very good job. There are MANY verses in there that could be interpreted modalist and many others that could be interpreted to be anti-modalist. Which of those verses did Joseph change, and what was happening around that time that might help explain he changed ONLY THOSE verses?
He only changed a few verses, most likely in response to Alexander Campbell – because the very verses Campbell was criticizing were the verses changed. Perhaps it was clarification not modification. I know that is FAIR’s response, but it seems more plausible than “Joseph changed 3 verses in 1837 but forgot to change many others to hide his trinitarian thinking.” PLUS, there are many anti-modalist revelations very early in Joseph’s history, such as D&C ones as early as Feb 1832, the JST itself, including the Book of Moses, a first draft of which was ready by Feb 1831, and John Whitmer’s 1831 account of Joseph’s vision of seeing Jesus on the right hand of God, all contradict the narrative that by 1837 or a couple years earlier, Joseph had changed his view and needed to cover his tracks by changing a couple verses in the BoM. Also of note, 1832 is also the year of this First Vision account: “I saw the Lord and he spake unto me,” which is used to prove this false narrative, obviously in the absence of revelations that same year that contradict that very narrative. Plus there are many verses in the original printer’s manuscript of the BoM that seem to be quite anti-modalist (I won’t paste all of them here, but there are quite a few that clearly show the separateness of the Father and Son).
The point of the matter is that the BoM is much like the bible (as is Joseph’s intention), and many verses in both books seem to support and contradict a trinitarian or modal view. PLUS, and this is a big thing, there are no references in critical writings of the 1830s that suggest Joseph Smith introduced the doctrine of separateness of the Father and Son by the mid-1830s. If Joseph had made such a departure, you would think people would notice the change (which really isn’t a subtle one) and take note of it. The narrative promoted by many critics of the Church is also contradicted by much evidence to the contrary. This is why Joseph said:
“I have always and in all congregations when I have preached on the subject of the Deity, it has been the plurality of Gods. It has been preached by the Elders for fifteen years. I have always declared God to be a distinct personage, Jesus Christ a separate and distinct personage from God the Father, and that the Holy Ghost was a distinct personage and a Spirit: and these three constitute three distinct personages and three Gods.” (TPJS, 370)
Another thing that jumps in me mind: the inconsistency with the stone-in-hat sources… Runnells obviously doesn’t think Joseph used the stone-in-hat method to come up with the BoM. He thinks Joseph remixed/aggregated it using sources around him, perhaps even with some help. He doesn’t think Joseph dictated the entire BoM as we know it from his face buried in a hat, yet he uses those rock-in-hat sources to try and (inaccurately) shoot down the loose translation “theory,” or hold the Church accountable for not telling the truth about “how the book of mormon came to be.” He uses rock-in-hat sources when it suits them, but ignores them when it doesn’t (explaining where the BoM came from). In other words, he uses “FAIR-ish” like tactics. Yet that is what the historical record shows exactly how the book came to be. First-hand witnesses to the translation process, supporters, detractors, everyone somewhat involved during this time period document he dictated the entire thing with his face in hat – a big thorn in his big conspiracy theory. And yet he’ll overplay any 2nd or 3rd or 4th hand source that implies Joseph was a sexual deviant. Unfair treatment of sources, don’t you think?
Extremely one-sided? Right. The letter is so “extremely one-sided” that FairMormon agrees with 79% of the CES Letter.
Spin it all you’d like. The Book of Mormon reeks of Protestant theology. Mormonism is missing from the Book of Mormon.
“I have always and in all congregations when I have preached on the subject of the Deity, it has been the plurality of Gods. It has been preached by the Elders for fifteen years. I have always declared God to be a distinct personage, Jesus Christ a separate and distinct personage from God the Father, and that the Holy Ghost was a distinct personage and a Spirit: and these three constitute three distinct personages and three Gods.” (TPJS, 370)”
So says the man after the fact and after he developed his theology, which contradicts his previous Protestant views of the godhead. So says the man who denied polygamy/polyandry to Emma, the Saints, and the world for 10+ years of his adult life. Perhaps we should totally take Joseph at his word this one instance because he’s legit in the credibility department.
As for the stone in the hat? Of course I don’t believe that Joseph translated the Book of Mormon, let alone from a rock in the hat. The reason why I bring it up is to illustrate and point out the Church’s blatant dishonesty. You say “Yet that is what the historical record shows exactly how the book came to be” yet the Church is not teaching that historical record to the members. It’s teaching a fictional story to the members. That’s my point.
Let’s assume your assertion that Joseph really translated the Book of Mormon and that it’s legit. What are 1769 KJV errors doing in the Book of Mormon? You going to tell me that the Mormon god gave Joseph Smith the errors to put into the book? If not, where did the errors come from then? If from consulting a 1769 KJV bible, then that’s my point. He consulted other works for the Book of Mormon. So, which is it? The Mormon god gave Joseph 1769 KJV errors to put in the “most correct book” or Joseph consulted from the 1769 KJV bible himself?
You seem pretty threatened by the CES Letter. This is evident with your extremely hostile and overly use of dramatic language: “Extremely one-sided”, “ENTIRE CES LETTER”, “drive-by literature”, “unbalanced”, “terrible letter”. If it’s all of the above, why does FAIR agree with 79% of it then?
“Most of the issues Runnells lists aren’t even issues at all.” Denial, meet iamse7en…iamse7en, meet denial.
Checkmate iamse7en. Well written Jeremy.
Checkmate? He didn’t even address/answer the 2 simple issues I brought up.
Apologists don’t need to read something to know it’s one sided — in fact, to them it doesn’t even matter what’s in the letter: their point is to plant weak little seeds of pretend testimony for those who want to pay 10% of their income in order to live their lives in willful blindness.
Well said. I’m impressed.
Have you read the article in Interpreter, or heard their podcast where they read the article where an apologist “answers” your letter? I believe they must agree with 79 percent, since they only brought up a very few of your “complaints”, as they call them.
While I found your discussion with John to be very clear and easy to understand, the only thing I got out of the entire podcast was needing to “have the right attitude” when reading your “complaints”.
First of all, after hearing what sounded like a talk from a politician, lots of talk and no meaning, I wonder why they call everything you say in the letter “complaints” when you were asking questions? They seemed to have no answers to your questions that I understood, and only even mentioned a very few of them.
I listened to their podcast today, after listening to you and John last night, curious how they would answer. They really had no answers, and seemed to spend more time trying to assassinate your character. Pathetic and disappointing. I joined the church 10 years ago, when I was 40, my father was dying, and my marriage was falling apart. I was attracted to the families can be forever, and THOUGHT, because I was told, the church didn’t bash other churches. HAHAHA!!
The missionaries are trained to know what an investigator is interested in, even if they don’t realize it, you know, milk before meat. I have struggled with so many things the past couple of years, the church was really there for me when my marriage imploded, even paying my mortgage on a couple of occasions. I felt like I belonged, and was loved, and I’m sure I was loved.
My problems started when I didn’t conform well enough. Slowly I was no longer comfortable, neither was the older lady I took care of. Then we got a new Bishop, and he’s a bit different than the first 2 Bishops I had. At this time, an old family friend became homeless, a friend who I’ve know over 20 years, who helped take care of my dad, but who is a male. I don’t live alone, there is another woman plus my daughter here, and why does the church have to be so sure something sexual will happened when there are a man a woman in the same place? Not even on the table.
I got the third degree several times, and what bothered me the most is the bishop was more worried about whether he would cost my household any money. You see, he’s made it clear he has no interest in being a Mormon, therefore the church is not interested in helping him. I am still living below the poverty line, and the church wants my tithe before paying my light bill, and then they will help with the light bill I can no longer pay, but only if groveled properly, depending on the bishop.
Then I find out about the mall. ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? They want me to grovel, in poverty, while they BUILD A MALL, AND A HIGH RISE ???
I haven’t paid tithing since, and I can pay my own bills.
There are so many other things which have been building up, balancing on my “shelf”, which has now come crashing down.
Thank you so much for this paper, it puts everything together SO easily! I will be downloading it, and keeping it tucked away, after I read it a few times. If the best answer the church can give to your questions, well, it was more of an attempted character assassination than an answer.
Your hard work has helped me stop feeling guilty about losing my testimony. Their scare tactics and excommunication of people with questions had been the last straw, but I still felt guilty.
Now, how do I get them to leave me alone?
Maybe you could write a more eloquent refutation if it’s so terrible. So far, I’m not convinced by your examples but do something better than what FAIR has done in its refutation and maybe we can talk turkey. So far, there have been two refutations of this “terrible” letter and both of them, although having some valid points, have failed the litmus test in my opinion.
John was on a timeline for this interview and had a lot of material to cover so he was pitching more softballs than usual. I feel like the purpose of this podcast was to get to how the letter was created in the first place. There was also the fact that Brad and Jason have their upcoming debate where he said he’d go into the topics deeper. Hopefully there will be more fastballs and curveballs thrown there.
As for John being tougher on the critics than the sympathizers, he probably is a little tougher on the sympathizers but he put Sandra Tanner through the wringer a bit, I thought. I just find that the critics, on the whole, tend to give more compelling answers and the sympathizers tend to give answers which require more mental gymnastics to explain. I think it’s because the critics WERE faithful and tried to stay in the church until the church was taken from them for their honesty.
Those who give honest answers, like Teryl Givens and Richard Bushman require a change in the type of testimony you have to where the church is good rather than true. At that point, I don’t feel compelled to give my Sundays and 10% to people who are businessmen. I felt that way when I was faithful and was trying to find faith-promoting answers.
I thought that John kept things pretty easy for Teryl and for Brad Kramer because they had straightforward, honest answers. He was pretty easy on Gregory Prince and several other sympathizers.
Part of the job of an interviewer is to get the information and hold the interviewee’s feet to the fire if the intervieweeis skirting around the subject. This is why Doug Fabrizio was a lot more gentle with John and Kate than he was with Ally Isom in his interviews. They were straightforward and she was sidestepping and using double-speak like crazy. Overall, I think John does a pretty good job of it.
Find someone who will give you a hug for your hurt feelings and write your counterpoint to Jeremy. If he’s wrong, he needs to be corrected. Thousands of testimonies are being affected by this. If you can’t do better than what you did above, please kill the snark.
“First-hand witnesses to the translation process, supporters, detractors, everyone somewhat involved during this time period document he dictated the entire thing with his face in hat – a big thorn in his big conspiracy theory.”
These first hand accounts detail how the words appeared, and how the translation couldn’t continue until the words were recorded correctly. If these accounts are accurate the original manuscript would have been free from grammatical errors and misspellings. That isn’t the case. Thousands of changes had to be made. B.H. Roberts noted this problem and stated that the church would open itself to ridicule if they continued to cling to this explanation of the translation method. I believe that’s why the loose translation theory was developed in the first place.
The very first chapter of the Book of Mormon contains Lehi’s vision of God sitting on a throne (1 Nephi 1: 8). The Trinitarian God doesn’t have a body, can’t be seen, and can’t sit on a throne. If Joseph had a Trinitarian view, why is God corporeal in the first chapter of the Book of Mormon?
Because Joseph was heavily influenced by the Bible, and the Bible frequently references God on a throne?
https://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Heaven,-God~s-Throne
Your definition and understanding of Trinitarianism (“Trinitarian God doesn’t have a body, can’t be seen, and can’t sit on a throne”) is incorrect.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trinity
I second John’s comment as well.
Jeremy,
Where in that link does it suggest that the Trinitarian God has a body and can be seen sitting on a throne?
John, how is that comment responsive to the question I posed? The bible is also not Trinitarian. The assertion is that Joseph had a Trinitarian understanding of God. The very first representation of God in the Book of Mormon refers to him sitting on a throne surrounded by angels. He is referred to as a corporeal being. Trinitarians are generally bothered by divine corporeality. The resurrected body of Christ is problematic for thoughtful Trinitarians. It means that the triune God has a body and is, therefore, located in some finite position in space/time. That idea fits poorly with the Trinitarian concept, so some assert that Christ no longer has a body. The bottom line is that the Book of Mormon opens with a very non-trinitarian (I did not say non-biblical) presentation of God.
Pacumeni:
Good point. Not only in 1 Nephi 1:8 does Lehi see God the Father in bodily form, but in the very next verse he sees Jesus Christ separately in bodily form.
This corroborates Joseph Smith’s statement that “I have always declared God to be a distinct personage, Jesus Christ a separate and distinct personage from God the Father, and that the Holy Ghost was a distinct personage and a Spirit…”
With all due respect to the arguments pro and con for these and other questions related to the Church, the Book of Mormon. What comes to my mind is “who cares”? All the while we spend discussing and arguing over whether Nephi said this or that, whether puberty starts at 12, 13 or 16? It’s almost like setting an age for when people become adults. Doesn’t it depend on one’s life experience as to when someone becomes an adult? I have a 25 year old daughter who continues to make the same mistakes she did as a 17 year old yet she thinks because she’s “over 18” she should be treated like an adult. I saw a youtube video of a young boy driving a large loader. These arguments can go on ad naseum. All religions, from what I’ve experienced is man made. The Church keeps people worshipping stuff that keeps them in constant state of immaturity. Now that we know the Church isn’t what it claims to be, Joseph Smith marrying 33 different women including young girls and other women who were married to other men, (isn’t that enough proof the guy was demented in his thinking and practice) the question for us is “now what?”
I have done counseling with African refugees here in America that currently practice polygamy. Our government looks the other way because it is their culture. They practice it knowing it is against the law, but they do so out of survival and because it is part of their culture and belief system. Is something wrong with them in your opinion? Polygamy is a highly functional familial system, which is why it has been around for thousands of years and continues to be practiced in much of the world today. Who are we to judge others on this? Are my black African clients demented?
I just read Wikipedia’s article about “polygyny” and it’s purposes in Africa. You expressed that it’s been around for 1000’s of years and is “highly functional”. As I was reading about how wives did most of the work and it provided men with more opportunities to have more children. If you look at the maps where polygamy is practiced these are represent most of the poorest areas of the world and the most violent. If parenting is for the purpose of raising capable children who can make it in the world, I’m not sure that this is accomplished in a polygamous group. One father with multiple wives who each get a small portion of his time and children who get little to no attention hardly strikes me as “functional”.
The fact that polygamy (both kinds) is still around indicates that it is functional, otherwise it would have gone away by now. Social phenomenon go away when they become non-functional. This same argument can be made about religion in general. The fact that religion adapts and does not go away is a huge indication of how functional it is, regardless of how you might feel about it.
Funny, the earliest known version of the First Vision does not mention only Jesus. But by 1842 the trinity doctrine is completely abandoned as is today. But you are right there are many other places in the Book of Mormon where the trinity is suggested. So, Joseph in revising the book for whomever, did a lousy job.
It is precisely a requirement of wading through a comment like that with all the minutiae to preserve a faithful interpretation is one astounding reason why I am so glad to remove fromm the church. I am so supported by their miles long efforts of mental gymnastics to allow how a person could honestly preserve faith. This was seared and sealed with melted wax by the rigid and ridiculous message from Nelson in the Spring general conference. He reassured me that the God of the LDS church is confirmed by him to be even more cruel and not worth worship by, notwithstanding the absolute MESS of church history, that by maintaining a very simple level of logic of what is “wrong”, as which is “why we are here on Earth”, that an subsequent expectation with eternal ramifications, of itself is just as ridiculous as how far from truth the church teaches and subjects its members to a faux history and expects them to believe also. I could care less if some arguements might be a little less that “certain” as any given might have been written. One problem with evidence that demolishes the lack of by a faithful interpretation has potential to be enough for me, given the charge. (See David Hale’s YouTube explanation of Fanny Alger, as one example). The complete confounding of “preservation of free agency” as has been “allowed” by God in a plethora of invalidating facts that are completely without a reasonable explanation (one example italicized KJV Bible in a “record” predating it by hundreds and hundreds of years), yet, it’s not only “evil” for members to “seek a sign” by looking/hoping for one shred of archeological consistency and “is hidden away in God” to “preserve” that same integrity of the “plan of salvation and of free-agency”. Give me a break. Life is more beautiful and simple freeing oneself from this man made and man led organization (which is just as imperfect as we would expect should it be devoid of anything other than a group of men making an organization based on nothing but fiction and self service). A business is a business, and a frog is a frog. Be consistant in all aspects of your life, and you will experience a peace you havent yet known, and which doesnt come from the BOM but from valuing yourself and taking control of your life.
It is precisely a requirement of wading through a comment like that with all the minutiae to preserve a faithful interpretation is one astounding reason why I am so glad to remove fromm the church. I am so supported by their miles long efforts of mental gymnastics to allow how a person could honestly preserve faith. This was seared and sealed with melted wax by the rigid and ridiculous message from Nelson in the Spring general conference. He reassured me that the God of the LDS church is confirmed by him to be even more cruel and not worth worship by, notwithstanding the absolute MESS of church history, that by maintaining a very simple level of logic of what is “wrong”, as which is “why we are here on Earth”, that an subsequent expectation with eternal ramifications, of itself is just as ridiculous as how far from truth the church teaches and subjects its members to a faux history and expects them to believe also. I could care less if some arguements might be a little less that “certain” as any given might have been written. One problem with evidence that demolishes the lack of by a faithful interpretation has potential to be enough for me, given the charge. (See David Hale’s YouTube explanation of Fanny Alger, as one example). The complete confounding of “preservation of free agency” as has been “allowed” by God in a plethora of invalidating facts that are completely without a reasonable explanation (one example italicized KJV Bible in a “record” predating it by hundreds and hundreds of years), yet, it’s not only “evil” for members to “seek a sign” by looking/hoping for one shred of archeological consistency and “is hidden away in God” to “preserve” that same integrity of the “plan of salvation and of free-agency”. Give me a break. Life is more beautiful and simple freeing oneself from this man made and man led organization (which is just as imperfect as we would expect should it be devoid of anything other than a group of men making an organization based on nothing but fiction and self service). A business is a business, and a frog is a frog. Be consistant in all aspects of your life, and you will experience a peace you havent yet known, and which doesnt come from the BOM but from valuing yourself and taking control of your life.
Enjoyed this podcast very much. Jeremy seems like a very thoughtful and sincere man and it was good to “meet” the man behind the wisdom. I wish my husband would watch these as I think he would be more inclined to read the CES letters if he did.
It has been a hard year, mostly because of my husband being totally TBM.. but also grieving the loss of faith. It has been a little over a year since my faith crisis (which feels more like a transition rather than crisis now). Thank goodness my anger and hurt are much less which helps us argue less.
I loved the quote that John said about cults. “A cult is a group of people that will not let you leave with your dignity in tact”.. yep, that explains why I had the urge to explain myself.. and am scared to “come out” to my in-laws.
I also love how Jeremy was saying that now since he has left the church that he no longer is infallible. I feel that I am MUCH more humble now. I am OK not having the answers, making mistakes and I find it much easier to be human than I did as a TBM. I have found forgiveness towards others and myself to be much easier as well.
Thank you both, John and Jeremy for your time and work. You are both Modern heroes!
I joined the Church in 1974 as a young kid who could barely read and had no critical thinking skills and limited access to any information outside of what Church books were available at the time. Legrand Richards, A Marvelous Work and a Wonder, Jesus the Christ etc. The leaders of the Church have known about all of this all this time and continued to promote their message for the purpose of getting into my wallet. It’s been brutally hard as I’ve missed 3 of my children’s weddings (so far) which no one said at the time I joined the Church that was even a remote possibility. My wife divorced me when I doubted the Church. Why is all this fraud not grounds for a class action suit?
I thought getting to know Jeremy Runnells was the gem of this interview. “We landed a freakin car on another planet.” I could hear his excitement in his voice when he said those words. I felt his gratitude toward those who had come before him in creating a cochlear implant. I was surprised at the start of the interview that Jeremy had been def. I thought it was cool that he has Cochlear implants. This is my first time seeing and hearing some one who use them. Jeremy has a unique perspective on life. I would never have thought about the sound my fork makes against a plate while I eat. It reminds me to imagine all the little things I take for granted. I am appreciative to be able to hear of his experiences. He articulated his points clearly. He comes across as a humble person doing the best he can.
Though I do not agree with every thing said. I sure hope you both (Jeremy and John) are able to stay in the church for a long time to come.
I am just a little more than half way through the first part and I remember Jeremy saying that his faith crisis began in February of 2012. That’s when mine began, too.
I have recently been e-mailing back and forth with a brother-in-law as to why I stopped attending. I have had almost no contact with him in 2 years. And John, I just sent him the presentation on the survey and the 5 myths. I hope he looks at it so that he can see what I was concerned about. If he watches it and comments a bit,I plan on sending this first U-tube presentation with Jeremy.
John and Jeremy, I want to thank you both for helping to spread truth.
I just finished watching the first part of the interview. I just have to say that it felt so great to hear someone put into words why a relationship with family after leaving can be so hard. Even though not many will actually say it, they DO think of me as broken. It’s incredible how strong the desire is to want to explain myself. Hundreds and hundreds of hours of research, feeling like I am taking precious time from my husband and children to feel sure about what I know and prepare many unsent letters that I will probably never send. I wish “leaving it alone” was easier. You hit the nail on the head Jeremy.
Jeremy and John:
Thank you, both, for the podcasts. They were wonderful!!!
Jeremy, thank you for creating the CES document and website. Like you, my shelf fell in 2012 when I found out the truth about Joseph Smith and his polyandry. I joined the church when I was 16 years old and was/am the only member in my family. When I found out about the true church history I was first angry and then felt total devastation for losing my faith and my community – it was a very dark time in my life. Prior to the fall of 2012, I would have taken a bullet for the church and its teachings, needless to say, that has changed. And yes, I DID have a testimony and did NOT leave because that I wanted to sin, lazy or never had a testimony. The reason that I left was because I discovered that the one TRUE church had/has been LYING to me and everyone else.
John, thank you for Mormon Stories and all of your hard work. When I found out the dark side of church history in the fall of 2012, it was your podcasts that helped me pull through that dark time in my life. From your podcasts I learned that I wasn’t alone or crazy for feeling the way that I did. Also, I want you to know that you and Kate are in my prayers regarding your upcoming meetings with your Stake/Ward leaders.
Once again, thank you both!
This is an excellent interview. Watching the interview with Sandra Tanner in its entirety and this one offers context to how these different generations approach difficulties. I believe it is a generational thing. People like the Tanners laid the foundation for questioning, but stopped short of questioning everything. There was a point at which they did not allow themselves to question any further. That was the world view at the time, they could not conceive of the possibility that all religions are man-made. The younger generation is in a society and culture that allows the framework to ask this question, which was inconceivable back in the 60’s.
It used to be when someone left Mormonism over doctrine, they joined the ranks of other Christian sects. If they became outspoken critics, it was from the view that Mormons don’t worship the proper Jesus, or that Mormonism is unbiblical. Nowadays, when you hear of people becoming disillusioned with Mormonism, you don’t hear about them joining other Christian sects. Many become atheists or agnostics, or at least atheists to the Abrahamic God.
This letter is emblematic of how the younger generation approaches information. These days, if anyone lacks wisdom, they ask Google, for Google doesn’t chastise them for asking the tough questions, and doesn’t obfuscate the answers.
I also liked Jeremy’s point that it’s not worth divorcing over the church of Joseph Smith. I personally know 3 formerly married Mormon couples that have split over this issue that I know about. I have been fortunate in that my wife has been extremely understanding and accommodating. I hope there are future policies and councils set in place to end all the heartache and contention and people can live in peace. Mormons don’t have to change their mind, but I hope they allow others to exercise their free agency and become respectful to those that do.
“if anyone lacks wisdom, they ask Google,”
OMG that would make a fantastic bumper sticker!!!!
I suspect that many of those divorced over this issue used it as a convenient excuse as divorce is quite constrained by those that have take out temple vows.
Really enjoyed your discussion about why some intellectuals are in the church and some not. I use to believe it was because they did not have any integrity —– especially like me and still question their integrity to some extent. However, even though I love the truth it is sad so many will not support the truth/lies of Mormonism by living honestly and seeking the truth. I have come to believe that those still in the church have far different (at least valid in their minds) reasons than I do and I can fully support their decisions. I simply cannot give anyone any indication I believe the church/lies are important for their/families growth and development. Further, it is like hitting my head against a brick wall to hear the lies and the testimonies and spend 3 hours being bored out of my mind, and not be able to speak out. I believe TRUTH is important and all people should be TRUTH SEEKERS.
Appreciated your comments on religion. I don’t believe in any organized religion. I do believe in God or at least God-force and prayers being answered. The issues you raised about love, compassion, etc. are important but the God I believe in is interested in our spiritual development to learn these attributes through experience/learning —– therefore atrocities are necessary. If you are interested in what the people on the other side have given us as far as who we are, why are we here and where are we going —– look up Near Death experiences (nde) and after life encounters (ale) literature to find out what I consider potentially the truth (I am still experimenting with it but it is starting to make a lot of sense including reincarnation/multiple lives).
Speaking as someone who doesn’t really believe truth claims of the church, I was thinking about the CES director the letter was addressed to. What motivation would he have to respond to this letter? Nothing he would write would satisfy Jeremy– he’d already made up his mind about the gospel. No doubt, Jeremy would create a similar “debunking” letter to reinforce his previously held beliefs. It would be a no-win situation for the director. I bet if Jeremy had presented a shorter document, in a more collegial manner, and shown a real willingness to engage, he’d be more likely to get a response. It’s been my experience that CES employees are willing to engage in dialogue if you’re not antagonistic.
The CES Director emailed me first. I didn’t email him until after he emailed me. He emailed me knowing 100% that I no longer believed the truth claims of the Church and he was seeking to help resolve my questions and concerns. So, the motivation was there.
More importantly, your assumption and theory collapses in light of the fact that he told my grandpa after he received my letter that he “read the very well-written letter” and that he “would be providing a response.”
Why would the CES Director say that it was very well written and that he would provide a response if it was a “no-win situation” or that I was supposedly “antagonistic” or whatever?
Jeremy, You attempt to create a Modus Operandi for Joseph Smith, implying he was dishonest. It seems to be that he did look into a hat at a rock. It is apparent that he may have lied about living polygamy. He may have got it wrong about the Kinderhook plates, and the book of Abraham. There is some evidence that his theology changed over time (three different accounts of the first vision, The priesthood being introduced not when it said it was, changes in the BOM.) Granted all that appears to be there. I am not turning a blind eye to what you share.
What I do think is missing in this conversation is a balanced counter view to all these things. What about taking into account all the good Joseph Smith did. Its my understanding that he was not convicted for the crimes he was alleged to have done. Not only did he do good but he deeply believed in being honest and moral. I believe this because of his actions and all of his writings. I believe the accounts of the many people who new him. I have read the book of Mormon and the Doctrine and Covenants and there is an amazing amount of good character found in those documents. The good in the church and its people is a testament to what kind of man Joseph was. I believe he lived his life to the best he could. I believe he lived an amazing life, a life of charity and kindness.
I think Richard Bushman’s book Rough Stone rolling does an excellent job at balancing the two sides.
The problem with creating a one sided Modus Operandi is that we then begin to view what Joseph is threw this tinted lens. We begin to come up with ideas that are skewed. We come up with ideas like Joseph was a pedophile. All because it fits this negative Modus Operandi we have built. A person can also then begin to believe that Joseph said and did all this stuff to mislead people.
I believe that we as humans are complex beings. We are dynamic, we are not all good and we are not all bad. I believe if we had Joseph Smith sitting in your position being interviewed by John Dehlin we would not see a dishonest, immoral individual. You of all people might be one to understand this. Some people do not think your motives in writing and publishing the CES letter are honest. There is some evidence to that, that people point to. How do you feel about that? Are they right? If Joseph was alive and speaking for him self would he be this horrible dishonest pedophile you paint him out to be? I personally don’t believe so.
I view you like I view Joseph Smith, your both men of good character who are doing or did the best he could in striving to bring about his truth. I think you both have strived to make this world a better place. It is possible that we all make mistakes while we embark on this endeavor.
In other words, just because someone is good in all their other parts of their lives, but a liar in one part, doesn’t make that one part OK.
I did not say that one lie is ok. If there is an error the person should correct it. But it does not make the whole of the person evil. I also do not think Joseph Smith was a terrorist or any thing like it. I think with in most men is the inherent desire to be good. I choose to view people and the world in this light.
kinglamoni, I too, think most people are good. The point of the quote wasn’t to say that Joseph was a terrorist. The point was that good people can do bad things, but just because they are good doesn’t make those bad things OK. People have multiple sides to them and I recognize that. But if they have a lying side to them then we need to throw out those lies and possibly disassociate ourselves from them especially if it harms us.
Yes, I agree. If a person is lying, we should not believe those lies.
What you see as “mistakes”, I see deliberate fraud. There’s a major difference between an innocent mistake and a deliberate calculated preconceived fraud.
The Book of Abraham is not a mistake. It’s a deliberate and calculated fraud.
Translating the fake Kinderhook Plates was not a mistake. It was a deliberate fraud.
The backdating and retrofitting of the Priesthood restoration is not a mistake. It’s deliberate and calculated fraud.
The Kirtland Banking Society was not a mistake. It was a deliberate fraud.
Lying and denying polygamy/polyandry over and over and over again to Emma, the Saints, and the world over the course of 10+ years of your life while practicing polygamy/polyandry in the dark is not a mistake. It’s deliberate and calculated fraud and deception.
So, I very strongly disagree with your worldview and ethics.
It doesn’t matter if Joseph deluded himself to thinking he was the opposite. Actions speak louder than words and Joseph’s deliberate fraud is abundant for those who care to look.
Does any of the CES letter have mistakes? I call them mistakes because I don’t think your trying to mislead any one deliberately and I don’t think you have deluded your self.
I cant bring my self to calling what Joseph Smith did as deliberate fraud (Wrong yes, if he has done them.) I have not had the opportunities to meet Joseph Smith or live during his time. There are many accounts of people who have and he was placed on trial several times but was not found to be a fraud. So I guess I am placing some faith in those of the time. I also put credibility into those who left the church at that time and their testimony. I try to weigh all sides.
I just have a hard time bringing my self to being that judgmental of the guy or any one for that matter. That is why I don’t judge you. There are ways in my mind where I can rectify what Joseph did with out being an evil person. I can rectify what you do and your statements and not think your a horrible guy. I do not think Joseph did those things in guile. For starters, think about this. Do you think Joseph believed he spoke for God or do you think he thought he didn’t but he was just faking it when he said he did. Going to your death at Carthage is a long way to go for something he him self did not believe. Or going to prison for that fact.
Now you believe Joseph was a pedophile. But I do not think you make that statement out of guile ether. I think its a mistake but I don’t think your a fraud for saying it. I think for there to be “deliberate calculated fraud” the person has to be conscious of it. People make mistakes. I don’t know why your hostile to that notion.
What I understand you saying is that Joseph new full well he didn’t believe what he was preaching. I don’t see evidence for that. I do see evidence for a person who lived and died believing his faith.
@kinglamoni:
I guess I have to repeat myself here. There’s a distinct difference between an honest mistake and deliberate fraud.
“What I understand you saying is that Joseph new full well he didn’t believe what he was preaching. I don’t see evidence for that. I do see evidence for a person who lived and died believing his faith.”
Let’s use a real example from Joseph’s life. A few weeks before his death in June 1844, Joseph said the following:
“…What a thing it is for a man to be accused of committing adultery, and having seven wives, when I can only find one. I am the same man, and as innocent as I was fourteen years ago; and I can prove them all perjurers.” – History of the Church, Vol.6, Chapter 19, p.411
Joseph had at least 30 wives (including teenage girls and other men’s wives) when he made this denial in May 1844. He lied. You’re telling me that Joseph really believed this when he denied all of his 30 wives? They just vanished in his mind? Really? That this was a mistake? Really?
Joseph denied over and over and over for 10 years while he was doing it in the dark? Mistake? No. Fraud? Yes.
“I don’t see evidence for that. I do see evidence for a person who lived and died believing his faith.”
You’re basing your assumption on false evidence. Joseph died because he ordered the destruction of the Nauvoo Expositor printing press that was printing facts about his polygamy/polyandry (this is also further evidence in Joseph’s modus operandi and pattern of deceptive behavior of suppressing truth and facts exposing his lies and fraud). This was the reason why he was arrested and taken to Carthage.
Joseph Smith made a lot of claims (Book of Abraham, denial of Polygamy/Polyandry, Kinderhook Plates, etc.) that are proven to be falsehoods. If you refuse to accept that he lied about them and committed fraud, you’re facing a dilemma: If Joseph didn’t lie or commit fraud, he was delusional and insane because the facts stand on its own ground that what Joseph claimed about those issues is just not true.
Josephs claims may not be true to the evidence we are looking at. But it does not mean he is disingenuous or a conniving fraud. You your self presented a third option. There may be more options to how things came about and what is the nature of Joseph Smiths character. I see people disregard evidence on both sides of this issue. Some want to call him a fraud and others want to make him out to be this person with out any faults. The more emotionally involved and ardent in believing something the more our confirmation bias kicks in. There is no way of getting away from it. Every one has one. Its impotent to be aware of our confirmation bias but its also important not to let it hit us on the back side. Belief systems seem to swing like a pendulum some times. I have been looking at these issues for the past eight years. I am aware people have looked at them longer and know far more than I do. I am impressed how well spoken you are on the subject. I have had experiences in my life that make me cautious when throwing around judgments. As I study subjects I often find that the truth is often found some where in the middle.
I have following this discussion with interest. I went to Jeremy’s site for debunking the FAIR response. It’s all so frustrating to realize I’ve been mislead all these years. I put my heart and soul into being a member of the Church. To discover that those who were suppose to be looking out for the flock were the wolves themselves. Anyone who can look you straight in the eye and lie to you is someone to be weary of.
I’ve been following the questions related to Oliver Cowdrey…and Martin Harris. When did Oliver meet Joseph? Were they related? Was Harris gullible and credible? Did anyone actually see the plates?
If the Book of Mormon contains provable errors from the 17th century bible, what difference does any of the rest of it make? That’s like arguing over the colour of the wires on a bomb that’s set to go off.
My wife divorced me over my questioning the Church and it’s doctrines. I’ve missed out on getting to be a father to my children while the ward supported my former wife. I didn’t harm anyone, or cheat on anyone. I supported my family for 27 years. I think the faithful here are missing the whole point. If you’re hung up on that, help me to understand why the Church built a multi billion dollar mall. Why does the print image of Joseph Smith now look like a California blue eyed surfer? Check out on youtube, the BBC documentary “Hitler’s Children” and tell me if the Church doesn’t use the same tactics of indoctrination the Nazi’s used? The similarities are striking.
I do believe Joseph was killed in direct connection to the practice of polygamy and the destruction of the Nauvoo Expositor. But that is not evidence to say he did not die believing in his faith.
I am not a Mormon, though I have family that joined the LDS Church. I am new to this site and am responding to the question of Joseph Smith’s character and whether he was a fraud or a person of good moral character. Do you accept the “truth” taught by Charles Taze Russell, the founder of the Jehovah’s Witnesses? I believe that he was teaching error and that his religion follows in error. But could he have been a man of good moral character in his own life who taught moral maxims that were to his credit and to his followers? During the Albigensian heresy in 12th cent. France, the RC Church bitterly persecuted them but took note that many of the Albigensians were leading very moral lives and that that was part of what attracted them to their beliefs. I do not believe Joseph Smith was a prophet. Whether he was a man who did good or led a moral life by the standards of his time and place is really irrelevant.That is a separate question than did he think he really was who he said he was? When I ask Mormons about “Reformed Egyptian” they have no idea how to define it or even what the term refers to. I have read Mormon apologists and find their explanations flawed. I am at an utter loss to understand how my family members came into this faith and how they accept it when it is apparent to me that so much of it simply does not stand up under scrutiny. This has nothing to do with my observation that many Mormons lead good, moral upstanding lives. It seems to me that it is far more a question of culture and memory of the Mormon story that holds the LDS community together, and not faith or truth. I find most Mormons avoiding anything that calls their faith into question and that what holds them together as a community is their shared sense of common past, us vs them identity and social exclusion for those who deviate from the communal norms.
I read the “Letter” and thought it was pretty good, outlying in a “concise” manner all the many problems. The main problem that I encountered was the exaggeration and misleading the reader. I think it is important to be accurate when sharing this information, otherwise we fall under the same problems the LDS church does, lying. In the letter it is stated that Oliver Cowdery is the cousin of Joseph Smith. So, it appears that there is a serious conflict of interest. But then you investigate it and it turns out that they were third-cousins. Which is meaningless. a second-cousin would be a stretch but third-cousins they might as well be strangers. This is a big turn off for me and his letter. It would be nice to have a document like this without the lies. We can barry Joseph without lying or exaggerating, so why do it?
There’s no exaggeration or misleading of the reader here.
You’re incorrect in your conclusion, assumption, and understanding of Oliver’s relationship to Joseph Smith.
It matters that these men were cousins. Normally I would agree with you that it’s possible that third cousins might as well be strangers but there is evidence to the contrary with Oliver Cowdery and Joseph Smith.
There is testimony from Joseph’s neighbor, Lorenzo Saunders, placing Oliver Cowdery on the Smith farm in Palmyra a few years prior to the Church’s claim of their first meeting in 1829, in 1826:
“As respecting Oliver Cowdery, he came from Kirtland in the summer of 1826 and was about there [i.e. the Smith’s farm] until fall and took a school in the district where the Smiths lived and the next summer he was missing and I didn’t see him until fall and he came back and took our school in the district where we lived and taught about a week and went to the schoolboard and wanted the board to let him off and they did and he went to Smith and went to writing the Book of Mormon and wrote all winter. The Mormons say it wasn’t wrote there but I say it was because I was there…” – Early Mormon Documents, 3:177-79
So, the claim that Oliver and Joseph never met before 1829 is not conclusive when there is testimony from others, in this case being from Joseph’s own neighbor, testifying of seeing Oliver Cowdery on the Smith farm as early as 1826.
I go into more detail here: https://cesletter.com/debunking-fairmormon/witnesses.html#5
I just read the comment where you refer your “debunking” the reply from FAIRS. Just wonder if FAIRS has come back and refuted your response to their reply with new reliable information or did they just stop and not reply?
They just quietly changed their website answers or deleted it altogether.
Unlike FairMormon, I list my mistakes: https://cesletter.com/debunking-fairmormon/errors.html
And unlike FairMormon, I provide links back to their website showing their response and answers. All FairMormon does is list one URL on their home page that you can’t even click on. It’s dead. People have to copy and paste the URL.
Is this the behavior of an organization confident in its message and claims? Is this the behavior of an organization that believes in balance and transparency?
Jeremy, I get that Oliver was most likely there with Joseph. My gripe is that when I tell my wife that Oliver & Joseph were cousins as stated in your document, I expect them to be cousins, they are third-cousins. If each generation has 10 kids then Joseph would have 10,000 third-cousins, I’m sure they didn’t have 10 kids each but even at 5 kids it puts it at 625 third-cousins. I’m sorry, but that relationship just isn’t significant. The significant part is the Oliver was at the farm prior to the date they said he was. Why put out this extraneous information when it detracts from the main message?
“I’m sorry, but that relationship just isn’t significant. The significant part is the Oliver was at the farm prior to the date they said he was. Why put out this extraneous information when it detracts from the main message?”
How do you know what their relationship was and was not, let alone not significant? There is testimony that the Smith family and Oliver Cowdery knew each other well before the Book of Mormon translation and publication.
This is important because this demonstrates that they were not strangers in 1829 when they got back together for the Book of Mormon.
It matters that they’re cousins. You want to dismiss this because they were third cousins, fine. What matters more to me is that there is testimony that these men and Joseph’s family knew Oliver Cowdery well before they got together for the Book of Mormon. They were not strangers as the church has portrayed it.
In the CES Letter, the first mention of “cousin” is linked on page 14. When you click on the link, it takes you to further details on how they’re related.
Jeremy, I did follow that link, that’s how I found out you were being disingenuous. To clarify my statement. I’m not saying the relationship between Joseph and Oliver isn’t significant. I am saying that that the blood relationship isn’t significant. Having 600 common blood relationships from a great-great grandfather isn’t going to make two people connect. All I’m asking is that you not mislead and put third-cousin instead of just cousin. It is misleading and doesn’t help your case. It makes your whole document up for question when you intentionally put in (or keep in) such misleading details.
Jon- this is where I find that those who support LDS theology. Jeremy gives you a hundred other things to consider, and you’re focused on one item about Oliver Cowdrey. Second cousin…third cousin to me is immaterial. That Joseph and Oliver knew each other before then and used a divining rod as his “gift” seems to be more pertinent to the argument presented here.
If that’s not enough how about the current Church discrediting the 1978 “revelation” because they don’t want to be associated with racist thinking since it’s not a popular position in 2014. Doesn’t that suggest that the 10 prior “prophets” were racist? And wouldn’t someone directed by the Lord support freedom for all regardless of the common opinion of the day was? That’s just like LDS leaders suggesting German the Saints stay true to Hitler and support their leaders. It would seem to me, that if Church leaders had been inspired they would encourage their members to support their righteous leaders, not just support their leaders. Why is it Helmuth Huebener, that 17 year LDS old boy spoke out against Hitler, was excommunicated and then when the Church saw what a hero he was, reinstated his membership and now laud him as an LDS hero.
And if that’s not enough how about explaining how 17th century biblical errors appear in “the most correct book on the earth” supposedly written 1800 – 2400 years earlier?
Individually you might be able to find some technical errors in this work, some grammatical errors etc. but all in all, taken as a whole it paints a pretty ugly picture of the Church and it’s history.
One slight error, and I’m not even sure that it’s an error would discredit the whole argument. How about why John Lee and The Mountain Meadows Massacre and the cover up that followed. For true believing members, there’s no amount of evidence or ugliness that allows them to recognize the Church for what it is.
@Bob,
Bob, I’m not a supporter of the church. I’m disaffected also. All I am saying is that we need to be accurate when making statements. If we are not then we are being just like the church. Oh, we changed wives to wife, but that detracts from the lesson, so it’s OK, you can look it up pretty easily if you like. Is the same as Oh, I changed third-cousin to cousin, but it detracts from what I was trying to say so no need to put in the single word third. You get my point? Third-cousins and cousins are entirely different! There might as well not be any blood relation by that point. Jeremy went into great detail in his attack of the witnesses by saying they were all related, it is being disingenuous to say that they were cousins and then leave out that it was actually third-cousins. In my mind Jeremy is now to be trusted just as much as I trust the church! And he did say in the interview that people should investigate themselves and not trust him, but at the same time when you are calling the church a liar and then you pull the same garbage the church does it is disingenuous.
You found out your information from my link and yet I’m being “disingenuous”. Got it, I think.
Let’s tone down on the hostile language, shall we?
Here’s where I differ from your perspective and characterization: Third cousin does not necessarily mean distance.
Just because you have no idea who your third cousins are does not mean that Joseph Smith and his family likewise didn’t as well.
The point is that they were connected through family. This may have been what brought Oliver Cowdery to the Smith family well before the Book of Mormon. We don’t know exactly what kind of a relationship they had or didn’t have but we do have evidence that they connected well before the Book of Mormon and the family connection is a pretty good plausible explanation to their connection and relationship.
Regardless, I do see your point and I will update the CES Letter with this clarification. I appreciate you bringing this to my attention. I just wish you did it without all of the name-calling and attack on my integrity.
Just saw your last comment. Sorry, I was just getting frustrated because we weren’t connecting on what I was trying to portray. I think the last comment will show you why I think it is so important.
When I talk to my wife about these things and I bring that up and then I find out that it isn’t true really lowers my credibility when I talk with her about these things.
If someone has 600 relatives and most of them stayed in the same county or surrounding counties it wouldn’t be surprising that you meet that person as a complete stranger, even back then. Unless I see evidence to the contrary.
Jeremy. I personally think you have great integrity. I have enjoyed the interview and thought the CES letter was “very well written.” =) I think the difference we have is whether or not we think Joseph was disingenuous. You say the evidence shows he was and I say there is evidence to hold reservation. Based on our perspective we can then come to many different conclusions.
I agree, I think Jeremy is most likely trying is best to be trustworthy. I should learn how to explain myself better.
The problem with believing in false ideas is that it hurts people. We need to stop hurting people, especially are children. If they believe in gods then they don’t learn how to approach life in a mature manner. It is like people coming out of old communist Russia and going to a free nation, they can’t function properly and so we handicap them. As parents it is not our right to put in the minds of our children ideas that will hurt them in any way, especially when there is substantial evidence to the contrary – no matter how much we would like it to be true.
@Bob,
“Individually you might be able to find some technical errors in this work, some grammatical errors etc. but all in all, taken as a whole it paints a pretty ugly picture of the Church and it’s history.”
I think you just summarized all church apologists quite nicely. It’s anything except an honest look at the information. Jeremy put together a tremendous overview that demonstrates mormonism’s founding claims are false. What does an apologist do? Argue over a comma or a cousin. But the mountain of evidence? Ignore it.
So long as the church continues to reflect this same approach, the institution will never rebound from the gut punch it took when history became accessible. It’s going to hurt to change. It may be impossible. But any hope of transformation will require dealing with reality not quibbling over cousins.
Again, thanks John and Jeremey. I doff my hat to both of you.
@Jay,
For the record I’m not an apoligist. I don’t believe any of the stuff the church teaches either. But if you looked at my comments you would have seen one where I compared the church changing wives to wife to Jeremy changing third-cousin to cousin. Those are both significant changes even though they are very small text wise. As people who are criticizing the church for not being forthright and honest it is even more important for the criticizer to be even more forthright and honest without misleading, because, if someone catches you on something, they will be able to discredit the rest of your work, or at least not trust you. That is what Jeremy did when he put that in his letter. I “quibble” with that because it is very important to relay accurate information without our own biases in the way. It is a bias to say that a distant cousin with 600 to 10,000 possible people is the same as 25 to 100 close relatives. That is orders of magnitudes different.
@Jon
Jon says: “As people who are criticizing the church for not being forthright and honest it is even more important for the criticizer to be even more forthright and honest without misleading, because, if someone catches you on something, they will be able to discredit the rest of your work, or at least not trust you. That is what Jeremy did when he put that in his letter.”
Jeremy says: I’m going to be as clear and simple as I can be so that perhaps this time around something will click in your head.
I was never dishonest or misleading. The fundamental difference here is your understanding of what a “third cousin” constitutes and means versus what it really means is misaligned. I explain this below.
There’s also a background story and connection between Oliver Cowdery and Joseph’s family well before the Book of Mormon, as I explained earlier.
Stop attacking my integrity. After you pointed out your point of view and considering it, I could see how people could come to the conclusion that you did and thus I agreed to add clarification in my letter on this point. Settled. The end. Let’s move on.
Jon says: “I ‘quibble’ with that because it is very important to relay accurate information without our own biases in the way. It is a bias to say that a distant cousin with 600 to 10,000 possible people is the same as 25 to 100 close relatives. That is orders of magnitudes different.”
Jeremy says: Where the heck are you getting all of this “600 to 10,000” numbers? This is not how third cousins work.
Wikipedia: “The grandchildren of two first cousins; also the children of two second cousins.” (Source: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cousin#Third_cousins)
In other words: Your mother/father could have a cousin named Jim. Jim is your second cousin. If Jim has a child, that child will be your third cousin.
So, you’re way, way off with your “600 to 10,000” number as it’s not distant like you think it is.
@Jeremy,
Third cousin: A person whose closest common ancestor with another person is a great-great-grandparent.
So, if each generation has 10 kids each that would be 104 = 10,000. That’s a bit optimistic, so let’s say 54 = 625. So, for first cousins, let’s say 10 kids each that would be 102 = 100 (I have no idea how many kids Joseph’s parents/uncles/aunts had) or let’s say 5 so 52 = 25. They’re just meant to be extremely rough numbers and the lower numbers will likely be more correct.
I looked at the Wikipedia article and it appears that my numbers should be correct. We would have to look up Joseph’s real ancestry to see what the numbers actually are. But third cousins seem to be really distant to me.
I totally get that there is a background story with Oliver and Joseph, I have never disputed that. I have only focused on the the third cousin thing.
I should have never said that you lied. You did mislead though, which I strongly doubt was intentional, but it happened. It’s OK. You put in a ton of work on this project and I am really glad you did. I haven’t. I really respect that. The only reason I brought it up again was because Jay brought it up again. I was just defending my original position with him.
If I am wrong let me know. But third cousins vs first cousins are significantly different to me.
@Jeremy,
Those numbers are supposed to be 10^4, 5^5, etc. I guess wordpress comments don’t like the “sup” tag.
A less conservative modern day number for third cousins is 190 via https://blog.23andme.com/news/announcements/how-many-relatives-do-you-have/
If I do 3^4 I’m getting 81. So I must be calculating wrong. Or they are. I’ll check it out.
Just watched the whole interview. Especially loved the points about “Ethans smiths View of the Hebrews”, “The First Book of Napoleon-the Tyrant of the Earth by Modeste Gruau de La Barre”,and “The Late war between the United States and Great Britain by Gilbert J.Hunt”. And the quote i thought was brilliant “A cult is a group of people that will not let you leave with your dignity in tact”. Thank you again John, and Jeremy for sharing your journey, your personal struggles with the historicity truth claims of the church.
Great podcast! I really enjoyed listening and appreciate all the time and effort put into informing others. Thanks
I think Dan Vogel very proficiently put to bed the idea that the Book Mormon is trinitarian. The argument that it is closer to modalism is far more persuasive especially the passages clearly not lifted from the bible about Abinidi and book of Either that present the modalism type view.
Doesn’t Moses 4:1-2 hurt the case that Joseph was a modalist in 1830?
I thought about this years ago. Vogel argues that the verses from Moses is biblical type language that modalists had no issue reconciling. I am not convinced of that in the case of Moses due to the story is not a biblical story (not that it wasn’t partly borrowed). I think Joseph’s development to the father and son being separate came very early, even before the 1832 first vision account. Section 76 of D&C as well I believe shows separation and distinction of Father and Son. Moses 4 certainly does not sound trinitarian either. But for the Book of Mormon, it is hard to mistake Mosiah 15, Mosiah 3, and Either 3 as anything other than a version of modalism or sabellianism. Those passages are unique to Joseph and not lifted from the Bible which I think is reflective of what he thought at least at the time he was dictating the Book of Mormon.
I find it interesting that Jeremy talks about his letter being mentioned in a sacrament meeting talk in Heber City on high council Sunday. I was in that very meeting while on vacation in Heber, but didn’t pay much attention to it at the time. I remember the reference. I don’t however recall anything profound concerning how to deal with the information. Fascinating coincidence.
You do raise an interesting question when you note that there was no profound discussion regarding how to deal with the information. How does church deal with the information in the CES letter? I think Jeremy gave the best possible answer when John posed that question to him. Jeremy said “honesty is the best policy.” I’d say its the best answer but a tough path to travel for the church and the leaders. How humbling it would be for the church leaders to be honest and transparent regarding the founding and history of the church. It certainly could be the unraveling of the institution, but if there is any hope of salvaging something worthwhile, I don’t see any option.
Thanks John & Jeremy for a fantastic interview. Jeremy, your honesty and integrity is inspiring.
I’m close in age you Jeremy and I have to say I had a strikingly similar online experience to you. I also had a “it’s not a tree – it’s a forest moment”. Thanks for sharing your experience.
In regards to finding out information that is. :)
Thank you John and Jeremy. This was very very good. I so appreciate the time spent on this.
John – I appreciate and can understand Jeremy’s struggles and current position, having had a faith crisis about 7-8 years ago. However, I believe he still has a long way to go in his own philosophy and understandings. I have listened to your podcasts for years, but what I did have a problem with is your advocacy especially in the 2nd section. Your moderating is much better when you question, but do not so obviously take sides.
“However, I believe he still has a long way to go in his own philosophy and understandings.”
I do? Care to enlighten?
A counterfeit has no value unless there’s an original. Mormonism has fingerprints all over it–a twist here, a twist there (“You shall be gods.” “Adam & Eve had to disobey God to keep his commandment.” Sound familiar from anywhere?). Come on, Jeremy. Examine the obvious alternative. Something happened 2000 years ago. Don’t throw out the baby with the foul bath water. Otherwise Joseph is still exacting his revenge (“If the Church isn’t true, then nothing is”). I’ll give you a hint as to the true author of Mormonism. Hint: Who always comes away smelling like roses? Figure that out, and go in the opposite direction.
Charles says: “Come on, Jeremy. Examine the obvious alternative. Something happened 2,000 years ago. Don’t throw out the baby with the foul bath water.”
Jeremy says: The same reasoning and critical analysis which I used to examine Mormonism’s truth claims is the same reasoning and critical analysis I used to deconstruct and examine the bible and foundational Christianity.
Let’s just say that I am definitely not interested. My conclusion on Christianity has nothing to do with Joseph Smith and Mormonism. I committed myself to looking at the claims of traditional and foundational Christianity on its own.
Well, if you’re not interested, you’re not interested. But note that Christianity doesn’t have the same kind of problems that you encounter with the counterfeit–there are no anachronisms, no money digging, the DNA is all right, there are real people, real archeology, actual texts, the apostles didn’t wear Armani suits and sit in the best seats, but instead all died for their faith. In a word, the problems are of a completely different order.
Can you do me a favor and think about a couple things? What are the Jews still doing around after so many years against such long odds? That’s one. How did language (which is such a complex system) come about? How did life emerge from non-life? How is it that even infants seem to possess a moral faculty? And if you can stop sinning, why don’t you? Just food for thought, if you ever care to go down that road. All the best, and a great story.
Charles
One thing I find confusing is that so much effort is put into demonstrating a “tight” translation for the BofM both here and by Dan Vogel, which is that JS saw words or phrases appear on his seerstone which he repeated to his scribe and those words remained until the scribe recorded them correctly. Then this evidence is summarily discarded and we are told that JS wrote the BofM using sources available to him without any direct evidence of how he accomplished this while putting his head in his hat. There seems to be a disconnect here that is never, imo, ever fully explained. What is the explanation of how he accomplished this along with the evidence?
Jeremy, you seem very convinced that you are 100% correct–that it’s all an utter fraud originating with Joseph Smith. You strike me as a very black and white thinker. In terms of the spectrum of where Mormons end up after learning about the issues, you appear to have landed at the far end of the “it’s a scam and I’ve been betrayed” side of the spectrum. Interesting. I enjoyed listening to your story.
“The truth is easier to see when you stop assuming that you have it.”
How come you’re not joining the Moonites? The FLDS? The Aggressive Christianity Missionary Training Corps (ACMTC)? The Jehovah’s Witnesses?
You seem like a pretty “black and white thinker” to reject those religions/cults.
I used to be a black and white thinker as a true believing Mormon. I am no longer. I’ve done my homework and I’ve had so many back and forths with Mormon apologists/scholars. I’ve considered every point of view presented to me. I’ve looked at and weighed the evidence from both micro and macro levels. I’m as convinced that Mormonism is a fraud as I am that the above religions are frauds as well.
It does help that Mormonism is a fundamentalist black or white religion. It’s “either true or it’s a fraud”, “there is no middle ground”, etc. Mormon prophets and doctrine has set it up as such.
Gordon Hinckley said:
Each of us has to face the matter—either the Church is true, or it is a fraud. There is no middle ground. It is the Church and kingdom of God, or it is nothing.
https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2003/04/loyalty?lang=eng
So, once you establish that it’s false, as Jeremy and so many others have, you can reach the conclusion Mr. Hinckley suggested.
I’ve spent several hours now listening to Richard Bushman’s interview and have learned now a number of other things. Here’s the most revered person in the Church in terms of LDS history having written Joseph Smith, Rough Stone Rolling. He admits there’s no evidence of the use of the plates at all, the use of a rock in a hat was how the Book of Mormon was created, that the story I was trained by the Church about Prof. Charles Anthon was wrong, and I just listened to Bushman say that artist depictions of Joseph Smith methodically “translating” the plates isn’t deliberately fraudulent?
I’m beginning to think that believing members of the Church are just so delusional, that their whole identities and conditioning are so wrapped up in the Church, that regardless of the mountain of evidence to the contrary, they just can’t and won’t allow themselves admit their crimes.
I was taught that I had to live with such devotion to be “worthy” to qualify for the “spirit”. Of course, that didn’t come up at all.
On another matter, I had been taught that it was the “enemies of the Church” or “the mobs” who were responsible for burning down the Nauvoo Temple. I learned today that the Church advertised the temple for sale and had been trying to sell it to the Catholics. Then to the Strangites who weren’t offering enough money for it. Brigham Young was glad that it burned down and there’s some question about whether or not the Church set fire to it themselves.
Of course having it burn down feeds the storyline of “all the persecution” heaped upon the “Saints”. Never once is there any comment about the part the Church played in starting and flaming the fire. Joseph and Hyrum weren’t martyred. They were armed with a “pepperbox” and another pistol that had been smuggled in.
I’m beginning to wonder if there’s anything in Church history that’s true?
To me, Jeremy’s letter becomes even more poignant and important. And those who are concerned about whether it’s a 2nd or 3rd cousin shows how detached people can be.
I’ve lost my whole family over this stupid nonsense after killing myself off to serve them. It’s been brutally painful and mind numbing wondering how seemingly good people can be so lacking in basic honesty and integrity. Actually, that is the real question? To have to lie and misrepresent your message to get people to join you. These “so-called” general authorities…to get up on national television, knowing what they know, and to deliberately continue at every conference telling me over and over that I’m not good enough and that I need to do more. The bastards!
@Bob,
What is wrong with asking that the accuracy of the cousin be correct so as not to turn people off to the letter but help keep the message on track? How is that detached? When I tell my wife, a believer, about the letter and she challenges me on the cousin and we find that it is inaccurate? How does that reflect on the information in the letter? It’s a simple thing to keep it accurate, a single word. Jeremy has changed it. I appreciate that he wants to keep his letter accurate.
Bob, how is it that I am detached when I get angry at the church for lying to me all my life and then to find that even the truth tellers haven’t kept things accurate? All I ask is that is that we try and keep things as correct as possible. Jeremy has shown that he wants that too. It is a good thing.
@ Jon, Because it’s not a critical issue whether it’s a 2nd or 3rd cousin and you’re attempting to point to this one item and discredit the rest of the work. Jeremy has put in years of work on this. Even if Jeremy’s mistaken on this item, it’s almost irrelevant. What matters here is how Cowdrey participated in this whole mess. If you’re in agreement with 99% of what Jeremy has said, isn’t that enough? As for your wife, your family and kids are more important than anything. You explain that Jeremy thinks Cowdrey is a cousin, maybe second or third but I’m (you) not certain on that one. Even more important than this is that if you’re married to a believing member, if you have children together you make sure your wife and family know more than anything that you love her. Learning the truth about the Church is a painful experience. Losing your wife and kids is much worse.
@Bob, It is important. It is important like the church putting wife instead of wives in a church manual. Jeremy built on this and used it to discredit the witnesses by saying they are all related and, therefore, should not be trusted (among other things). So, why misrepresent the information instead of being straight? I don’t know why he did it to be begin with. All that matters is that he corrected it. I never said that the rest of the work is discredited because of this. I’m just saying that those that come across this would trust the letter less. Which would be a shame because he did such a great job on it.
We’ve been going through this for about a year. The family is good so far. My wife is familiar with the issues but at this point doesn’t want to investigate herself. She grew up in a very devout home where life revolved around the church. So I can understand why she would have a hard time confronting this psychologically. As you can tell from my writings here I’m not the greatest orator so not sure if that would help or not. Who knows, life is so random.
Great podcast! First of all John, I really appreciate you doing this interview. I have been a fan of Jeremy’s work for some time now and I am glad we were able to hear more about his experiences and background. I would also like to applaud your act of posting this podcast onto Mormon Stories so soon after the incident concerning you and Kate Kelly. I feel that when you continue to post these important stories it shows the church leadership loud and clear that you are not giving up on what you believe in. Please keep up the good work!
Jeremy, I am very grateful for the time and effort you took to participate in this interview. Before I knew about “the letter” I was having trouble organizing all of my issues with the church. I had a desire to put a binder or something together on my own where I could keep track of what was bothering me, and then I found your letter online! It was exactly what I was looking for! It is a very clear and well organized explanation of what so many of us are thinking about these days. Thank you for continuing to update the letter and know that it is helping many, many people. Thanks again!
Jeremy has his head screwed on right. Just so down to earth and honest, which is what I was hoping the church would be when my faith crisis started several years ago, but alas.
I hope someday my ex will see this and find out for herself. Yes, the church (rather, the members belief in the church) tears families apart when one chooses truth they discovered from church and other credible sources and the other chooses the church.
I tried going to the website cesletter.com/update but that page isn’t there.
Thank you Jeremy. Thank you John.
Thanks for your kind words, Gus.
Yes, cesletter.com/update is not yet created. I’ve been slammed the past week or so and need to create it. It should be up in a week or so.
I hesitate to even post for fear of being belittled. But as someone who has listened to, read about and discovered many of these same concerns about Joseph smith etc. I went a different way. My understanding and appreciation for the atonement of Christ and the loving nature of our Heavenly Father has increased. I can analytically tear any individual or organization apart with enough time and resources. About the only thing I can’t refute is the influence of the spirit in my own life.
This excellent video shows why the “Spirit” and “Holy Ghost” and “testimony” are simply unreliable and untrustworthy. Other religions and other religious people do it too. It’s not unique or special to Mormonism.
Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycUvC9s4VYA
My faith crisis began a few years back and I have become very familiar with all the church history issues. For a long time I was filled with bitterness and resentment and eventually stopped believing in God.
Recently I felt compelled to get help for an addiction that had been plaguing me my entire life. I started working the 12 step program which requires you to believe in a higher power. I figured, what the heck, I’ll give God a try and put Him to the test. At very worst, I’ll prove he doesn’t exist.
While working on step two I let go of my doubts, which I thought impossible at the time. I knew all the issues with the church inside and out, but I stopped caring about them. I felt peace with the church and my resentment faded. Each day since my faith has grown. My life has become more sweet than ever before.
For years I felt like a victim of my doubts and blamed everyone for my discontent. All along it was me. Once I admitted that my life got infinitely better.
The Holy Ghost is real and I know now that I will not get closer to the truth by reading books. I found I cannot intellectualize a testimony. The only source of pure unadulterated truth is the Holy Ghost.
I understand what Jeremy and the rest of you are going through. I’ve been there, I’ve felt your pain. I now believe God is real. And I also believe the church is good. I’m not comfortable calling it the one true church, but I am confident it is of God and I highly respect it.
Just want to congratulate you on your recovery and to wish you all the best in happiness and success in the days ahead.
Very interesting paper…boring interview. He was all over the place with his thoughts and views. Too many platitudes and generalizations. First mormonstories podcast I didn’t enjoy. Hope the upcoming debate on this topic is more enjoyable.
Sorry I disappointed you.
@Bob, who said:
“Of course having it [[the Nauvoo temple]] burn down feeds the storyline of “all the persecution” heaped upon the “Saints.” and “I’m beginning to wonder if there’s anything in Church history that’s true?”
Did all the Mormon residents of west-central Illinois (U.S. citizens) who were driven out of their homes and country in 1846 burn down their own houses too? Did they decide to up and leave their homes, farms, and property with no remuneration and cross Iowa territory in the middle of the winter just for the fun of it…killing themselves and their families along the way? Are those events just stories made up whole cloth to feed the fictional mythology?
Why do you put the word persecution in quotes? How do you define persecution? Did they deserve it? Or bring it on themselves…you know, for being foolish enough to believe a charlatan? Or for arming themselves in the face of mob violence? (Whether you like/revere or hate/despise Joseph Smith is irrelevant to this question.)
Just wondering.
Jeremy,
Thank you for your honesty and integrity. I have to admit I didn’t really learn anything NEW from your essay (I first learned about these several issues from other sources over a twenty-year period), but it IS a great compilation summarizing these historical and doctrinal problems about the LDS church. And I think it should be read by every serious seeker of historical truth.
Having said that, I do have a couple sincere questions for you.
1) I’m curious why or how you went from I believe Joseph Smith is a fraud (pedophile, polyandrist, treasure digger, liar, etc.), all of which are demonstrably true, TO I can’t believe in an intervening God? How did you get from point A to point B? How are those two things related? Surely you knew about human suffering and tragedy before you knew JS was a phony and a lout, right? Man’s inhumanity, injustice, pain, disease, carnage, etc., are not new phenomenon. And they don’t exist because of or in spite of religion. So I don’t understand the correlation or connection. Millions of people who don’t know about let alone believe JS’s words believe in some sort of God… so I’m trying to understand how one epiphany for you led to the other? Shock? Disappointment? Betrayal?
2) I’m under the impression that every religion’s founding stories are absurd at face value. Judaism. Islam. Christianity. (Buddhism, around which I’ve lived for a long time, isn’t really a religion according to a strict definition, probably lending to its chill factor :)) Those are just the “major religions” but ALL of them have incredible if not downright inane accounts attempting to laud and glorify their founders and founding. In fact, it’s practically impossible to say which one is more irrational and ludicrous than the others. In that light, why do you think Mormonism is scrutinized and critiqued by a different standard of “truth”? Where are all the Youtube videos disproving and mocking transubstantiation? Moses’ desert biscuits? Jesus’ waterwine, Mohammed’s flying horse? The list goes on. Do you think it’s because it’s so new (19th century-based) and easy to disprove with primary source material? The claims aren’t really that unique or crazy compared to any other religion. We do know, and followers don’t deny, that Abraham, Moses, David, Jesus, Mohammed, et. al, said and allegedly did a bunch of irrational stuff. Why then the inequitable treatment for the Mormon founder and foundational stories?
3) Finally. You kind of lost me in the final minutes. What does the Mars rover or extra-atmospheric-skydiving have to do with believing or not believing in a creator/deity? Surely you’re not insinuating that all scientists or inventors are atheists, are you? That seems to be a condescending presumption on your part. I think your strong presentation about LDS history loses some steam when you start ridiculing anyone who believes in God. Even if that’s how you feel today, you might want to take some pointers from Hitchens and Fry who evolved and progressed to an enlightened point where they could at least do it with some self-deprecating humor, charm, and panache.
Anyway, whether or not you ever see my comments/questions … Good Luck to you on your chosen path!
Thanks for comments and questions. Great questions.
ABM says: “1) I’m curious why or how you went from I believe Joseph Smith is a fraud (pedophile, polyandrist, treasure digger, liar, etc.), all of which are demonstrably true, TO I can’t believe in an intervening God? How did you get from point A to point B? How are those two things related? Surely you knew about human suffering and tragedy before you knew JS was a phony and a lout, right? Man’s inhumanity, injustice, pain, disease, carnage, etc., are not new phenomenon. And they don’t exist because of or in spite of religion. So I don’t understand the correlation or connection. Millions of people who don’t know about let alone believe JS’s words believe in some sort of God… so I’m trying to understand how one epiphany for you led to the other? Shock? Disappointment? Betrayal?”
Jeremy says: Joseph Smith and Mormonism has nothing to do with my belief or disbelief in god. When Joseph Smith and Mormonism collapsed for me due to fraud, I applied the same critical thinking, analysis, and scrutiny to other religions, including traditional Christianity.
I’ve come to my own conclusion that they’re man-made like Mormonism is.
ABM says: “In that light, why do you think Mormonism is scrutinized and critiqued by a different standard of “truth”? Where are all the Youtube videos disproving and mocking transubstantiation? Moses’ desert biscuits? Jesus’ waterwine, Mohammed’s flying horse? The list goes on. Do you think it’s because it’s so new (19th century-based) and easy to disprove with primary source material? The claims aren’t really that unique or crazy compared to any other religion. We do know, and followers don’t deny, that Abraham, Moses, David, Jesus, Mohammed, et. al, said and allegedly did a bunch of irrational stuff. Why then the inequitable treatment for the Mormon founder and foundational stories?”
Jeremy says: “Do you think it’s because it’s so new (19th century-based) and easy to disprove with primary source material?” That’s one of the reasons. There are materials out there that criticize every religion. They’re just not as relevant or “in your face” as Mormonism is because we’re mostly interested in Mormonism. Scientology/L Ron Hubbard gets a ton of flack. Jehovah’s Witnesses, Catholicism, Islam, etc.
ABM says: “3) Finally. You kind of lost me in the final minutes. What does the Mars rover or extra-atmospheric-skydiving have to do with believing or not believing in a creator/deity? Surely you’re not insinuating that all scientists or inventors are atheists, are you? That seems to be a condescending presumption on your part. I think your strong presentation about LDS history loses some steam when you start ridiculing anyone who believes in God. Even if that’s how you feel today, you might want to take some pointers from Hitchens and Fry who evolved and progressed to an enlightened point where they could at least do it with some self-deprecating humor, charm, and panache.”
Jeremy: Wow, not sure what video you watched but that’s not my position. As stated in the video, “I’m a deist humanist”. I still believe in a higher power or higher force.
After John asked me that question, I answered it in two ways: the first section was about my belief in a higher power. The last part was about where I get my “spirituality” from. I get it from science, nature, overcoming, human progress, etc. Hence, why I talked about Mars rover, Felix (and his getting help from previous record holder), and my cochlear implants.
Jeremy,
I’ve spent most of the day watching your interviews with John Dehlin. I wanted to thank you for all the work you have done not only for yourself but for the insurmountable members that are questioning and not receiving answers from the church. Five years ago my interest was piqued when the church historian spoke about the JoshephSmithPapers.org on BYUTV and said some members may have issues with them. I wondered what he was speaking to and checked them out and found Richard Bushman. After many books and lots of research, my world crumbled. At 50 something every aspect of my psyche was intertwined with the church. I wrote a letter to Salt Lake… no answer. My home teacher said I was being influenced by Satan and my bishop said, “You know what the church does with people like you Charlotte.” I found Mormon Stories a few years ago and that helped me so much. I have left it alone for a while and today found your CES letter. Thank you thank you thank you. It ties up any loose ends I might have had. My husband and I resigned a couple of months ago after being in the church for 40 years. There is life after leaving. It’s different, but not impossible.
Thank you again,
Charlotte Spaeth Garland
So great to hear references to the Johnson brother’s research (discovering The Late War and The First Book of Napoleon) and their Ask Reality You Tube series, as well as Everything is a Remix, and Brother Jake! These all helped me transition and see the bigger picture as well and I’m glad they’re helping others.
Other great resources on Mormon Stories for understanding the bigger picture include: Jared Anderson’s “An Academic Introduction to the New Testament”, “The Psychology of Religion with Dr. James Nagel”, Dr. Cragun’s “What You Don’t Know About Religion (but should)”, and on MormonExpression: George Miller’s “Mormonism and Masonry” interviews. Soak it all in, never stop learning the truth.
The Ask Reality videos remind me of 3vid3nce videos (perhaps the inspiration for Ask Reality videos?). Very well put together. Of course, he was coming out of evangelical Christianity so some of his arguments wouldn’t make since from a mormon perspective. But overall it was really good.
I listened to all of Jeremy’s podcast. The information about The Late War was new to me, but I think that the other issues have been discussed in other MS podcasts and elsewhere. I enjoyed hearing Jeremy’s story and wish the best to him. In spite of the historical questions and the organizational flaws, I have found a lot of good in Mormonism. It has had a transformative effect on my life. This is not something that I would want to give up, and no one can take it away from me. No matter what further evidence comes out, I can see that some good and inspired things happened through Joseph Smith. I understand that some people feel that they have been hurt by Mormonism and its culture, maybe we all have in some ways, but I believe that there is a benefit to recognizing and retaining any good that it has had in our lives.
I guess this is where I am stumbling….”I find good in Mormonism….” Bushman also discusses the same theme of too much good to leave. But the church doesn’t claim it is the “good church”, it claims they ARE THE TRUE CHURCH. I’m not looking for good (if so, why not join the Jews, Muslims, Catholics, JW’s, etc, as they all have “good”) I’m looking for the Truth. I’m not willing to accept good when the Truth fails the scrutiny test; that’s just lowering the bar and settling for less.
There is much good in the interview. It is very helpful to me to understand how those who have become disaffected with the Church are poorly treated. Such poor treatment of those who leave or consider leaving the Church should not happen ever. God is a god of love, and so should we, his children, be loving to all–including those who disagree with us.
I respect Jeremy’s integrity, and I respect his decision, although perhaps not the way he arrived at it.
It appears to me that Jeremy’s testimony was not so much based on the Holy Spirit but on the emotions of social interaction and social bonding, and thus his decision to leave the Church seems to have been affected far too much by the emotions he felt related to being offended by various people in the LDS Church (for example, see his very sarcastic letter to Elder Quentin Cook).
I have studied most (if not all) of the same issues that were concerning to Jeremy, and (I think–and I hope I don’t come across as rude, because there is no intention to be) that because my testimony is based on what I’ve been taught by the Holy Spirit and not on social considerations, I was able to follow them through to what I think were logical conclusions. Some issues, such as the Kinderhook Plates, have simple answers. In this case, Joseph Smith originally thought they might be authentic and then found out their weren’t. For me, case closed.
Issues such as polygamy and the Book of Abraham are very large and very nuanced and shouldn’t, I think, be used in the simplified way that Jeremy and others use them as a reason to leave the Church. In other words, there is room for faith on both sides of the issue. But all in all, that is why I respect Jeremy’s decision to leave and hope that others–especially his family members and close friends–will (a) accept it, (b) not treat him as somehow “broken”, and (c) not treat him disrespectfully for his well-thought-out decision.
If it really is true, when presented with more compelling evidence, I think that Jeremy and John Dehlin and others will not hesitate to come back into the fold. But even if you never do, I still like you anyway! ;-)
Frank says: “There is much good in the interview. It is very helpful to me to understand how those who have become disaffected with the Church are poorly treated. Such poor treatment of those who leave or consider leaving the Church should not happen ever.”
Jeremy says: I wasn’t “poorly treated”. You obviously either didn’t watch the interview or weren’t paying attention because I didn’t leave the Church because I was “poorly treated”. I left because it’s not true. The truth claims of the LDS Church collapse under the light of scrutiny. My departure wasn’t a social or being offended by others issue. It was a doctrinal/historical/dishonesty/concealment issue.
Frank says: “It appears to me that Jeremy’s testimony was not so much based on the Holy Spirit but on the emotions of social interaction and social bonding, and thus his decision to leave the Church seems to have been affected far too much by the emotions he felt related to being offended by various people in the LDS Church (for example, see his very sarcastic letter to Elder Quentin Cook).”
Jeremy: Seriously? Now it’s obvious that you really didn’t watch the interview. I specifically talked about my spiritual experiences and how it was those spiritual experiences that kept me in the Church at times when the social aspect was not fulfilling (Single Wards, crappy wards, being stuck in Nursery callings, etc.)
You misunderstand what the purpose of the letter to Elder Cook was and you do not understand that it took place at a time when I was in the anger stage of the 5 Stages of Grief. I had already left the Church months before I wrote the October 2012 letter to Elder Cook, so your hypothesis/assumption is incorrect.
Frank says: “I have studied most (if not all) of the same issues that were concerning to Jeremy, and (I think–and I hope I don’t come across as rude, because there is no intention to be) that because my testimony is based on what I’ve been taught by the Holy Spirit and not on social considerations, I was able to follow them through to what I think were logical conclusions.”
Jeremy says: This video debunks the Holy Spirit and shows how relying on this method for discerning truth and reality is not only completely flawed and unreliable but completely insane and irresponsible as well: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycUvC9s4VYA
Frank says: “Some issues, such as the Kinderhook Plates, have simple answers. In this case, Joseph Smith originally thought they might be authentic and then found out their weren’t. For me, case closed.”
Jeremy says: Um…the Kinderhook Plates were not discovered to be a hoax/fraud until 1980. The Church and its prophets believed the Kinderhook Plates were legit until 1980. Joseph Smith died in 1844. He never found out they were fake. The fact that he not only claimed they were legit and authentic and the fact that he even translated the fake plates demonstrates that he was a fraud who was perpetuating a fraud. I’ve gone over the Kinderhook Plates at http://www.cesletter.com/debunking-fairmormon/kinderhook-plates.html
“Case closed”? lol…you might want to reopen the case, my friend.
Frank says: “Issues such as polygamy and the Book of Abraham are very large and very nuanced and shouldn’t, I think, be used in the simplified way that Jeremy and others use them as a reason to leave the Church. In other words, there is room for faith on both sides of the issue. But all in all, that is why I respect Jeremy’s decision to leave and hope that others–especially his family members and close friends–will (a) accept it, (b) not treat him as somehow “broken”, and (c) not treat him disrespectfully for his well-thought-out decision.”
Jeremy: I know what the “nuance” claims are on those issues. I’ve gone over them in my Debunking FAIR’s Debunking, which you obviously have not read. I didn’t leave because of a “simplified approach” (whatever that means). I left because I considered all the different angles to the issues. I demonstrate that I’ve considered these different angles in my response to Mormon apologists after the release of the CES Letter. My experience with “you’re not giving enough nuance!” apologists is that they’re all talk until you get into the details only to find that they’re bankrupt with reasonable and logical answers to this issues (especially with Polyandry and the Book of Abraham).
Frank says: “If it really is true, when presented with more compelling evidence, I think that Jeremy and John Dehlin and others will not hesitate to come back into the fold.”
Jeremy says: What “compelling evidence”? Seriously? I’m underwhelmed and unimpressed with the responses and “evidences” presented to these issues from a faithful perspective. It requires serious mental gymnastics and contortionist stretches. I’ll even go as far as saying that it requires a sacrifice on personal integrity. This is a sacrifice I never was nor am I willing to make and this is why I left the Church.
Jeremy: I will admit that I didn’t watch all of the last segment. But I watched the entirety of the first two. My apologies. I didn’t mean to anger you. I find it interesting that we can see things so differently. But I reiterate, I never intended to be rude, and I respect your decision.
Jeremy: Also, to clarify. I feel to agree with you that you were poorly treated by the “debunking response” by FAIR Mormon, which poor treatment I think was something that you brought up in your interview. I should have been more clear as to what I meant.
No anger. Just wanted to set the record straight. Thanks for your otherwise thoughtful words.
Jeremy,
I don’t know what you wrote the letter in. But if you wrote it in markdown then you could convert it to PDF, epub, docx, etc with pandoc. Then it might be more accessible. The responses could be written this way too, then a person could just download the epub to their kindle (converting it first to mobi, of course).
Jeremy,
After reading your CES letter a year ago, I admired greatly your dedication to fact – and let the reader determine truth from these facts – and your clarity.
After listening to the podcasts and reading your comments above, I, as well, admire you greatly as a person. I would be proud if my children grew to be an adult similar to you.
Fielding
Very kind of you. Thank you.
Great interview Jeremy and for all your work. I completely agree with you although I am still a church goer. I think one of the problems I have with the whole back and forth in all these comments is just how ridiculous fundamentalism is. I think fundamentalism is bad anyway but Mormonism is specifically ill suited to fundamentalism because so many of the historicity truth claims are just false. Mormonism would be far better suited rejecting fundamentalism. Or as my episcopalian mother always says, it’s all made up anyway, it’s all a hoax, but I go to church anyway for community, to teach children basic moral values, serve the homeless, and hopefully hear a message that you can apply in your life in a meaningful way, to be a better person, etc. There are lots of non-believers in the mainline Protestant faiths, including the clergy. It being true is not particularly important. I read so many of these comments here depressingly as people trying to “prove” Jeremy wrong and then him responding when I just feel that to me it probably does not matter either way. So if it’s all a hoax and a fraud and therefore not true anyway, why go? My mother always said, it’s not whether it’s true but whether it’s good, whether it has merit, is what’s left over of any use. Since I tend to think as humans everywhere in every civilization from the beginning of time every group or people has created “something.” atheism being a relatively new phenomenon. Maybe we are hard wired for it and I have resolved myself to that fact and it makes my participation in religion easy now. I very much value my 6 generations of Mormon family in rural northern Utah, families on my dads side who came to Utah in the 19th century. But my mothers liberal Protestantism clearly rubbed off as well – it was a bizarre interfaith marriage because I was baptized Mormon. I really feel that Mormonism needs a reform or progressive version, or perhaps that is the Community of Christ already. I wish you well.
Jeremy,
Great interview. I really appreciated your reasonable and non-angry approach. It is so great to hear these messages delivered in a “likable” tone–it adds credibility.
One bit of feedback. I find it interesting how easy it is to desire respect and understanding for our point of view, but then fail to give the same to others. Many people know and study these issues, but draw different conclusion. When you refer to “Snufferites” it is another divisive and demeaning move which does not add to mutual respect and understanding which I believe to be the goal. Can we not respect and validate the quest for truth wherever it takes people?
Hi Michelle,
Thanks for your thoughts and feedback. I appreciate it.
Totally get what you’re saying. Honestly, it wasn’t meant as an insult or derogatory term. Perhaps it’s demeaning in the sense of applying a label to a group but in Mormonism, there is a tendency to label groups and offshoots by the name of their leaders (Brighamites, Strangites, etc.)
Denver Snuffer is held up as a role model with these individuals that I’ve talked to and it’s the only way that I’ve been able to differentiate or identify them. These individuals have not told me or asked me to stop using the term so I didn’t sense that the term is insulting to them.
Thanks again.
Pedophilia is, in fact, a primary attraction to PREPUBESCENT children. Primary attractions to pubescent people are termed Hebephilia or Ephebophilia. He should change that on his letter. It is clear to me that Jospeh Smith did not fit any of these descriptions because most of his wives were adults; he was obviously primarily attracted to adult women. This is assuming that sexual relations were indeed part of ALL of his polygamous marriages, which is not for certain. I very much enjoyed the interview. I also experienced a crisis of faith and a lot of anger. Sites like this helped me maintain my faith as a practicing Mormon. Thank you.
I disagree. I’ve explained and expanded here: https://cesletter.com/pedophilia/
The definition of Pedophilia on YOUR website includes, “Relating to or in the period of preceding puberty”. PRECEDING puberty. Pedophiles are primarily attracted to prepubescent children, NOT pubescent teenagers. Nearly all 14-year-olds have already hit puberty. This was true in the 19th century as well. This is not Pedophilia by the definition that you use. If anything, Joseph might be termed an Ephebophile (which I don’t believe either because 27 of his wives were adults). He had no prepubescent wives; clearly not a Pedophile. C’mon! Admit you got it wrong. This is my last comment. Have a good one.
“Nearly all 14-year-olds have already hit puberty. This was true in the 19th century as well.”
Nope. It was 15-years-old (source: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Puberty). 37-year-old Joseph Smith married 14-year-old girls who preceded puberty. As per D&C 132 and Jacob 2:30, Plural marriage was to “multiply and replenish the earth”, “bear the souls of men”, and “raise seed” (sex).
It is pedophilic to seek out and marry 14-year-old girls who have yet to enter puberty to have sex with them.
I know I said I would not comment again, but I can’t resist. Wikipedia is not a great source of information, but since you want to use it, we can. “Pedophilia or paedophilia is a psychiatric disorder in which an adult or older adolescent experiences a primary or exclusive sexual attraction to prepubescent children, generally age 11 years or younger. As a medical diagnosis, specific criteria for the disorder extends the cut-off point for prepubescence to age 13.” The age range for Hebephilia is 11 to 14, and 15 to 19 for Ephebophilia. One of these clearly fits better. This however, is all ignoring the fact that most of his wives were adults. So, I don’t think any of them fit for Joseph. And in the first place, it is a huge error to use late 20th century labels for early 19th century people. I am a licensed psychotherapist. I earned the right to diagnose this stuff. As far as I know, you have not, Jeremy. ;)
Oh, you’re a licensed psychotherapist? Well, that settles it then. You’re obviously an expert on everything then.
37-year-old men marrying 14-year-old girls was not an acceptable practice in the 19th century. It was looked then as it is looked now: unacceptable and demented. This wasn’t backwoods West Virgina. It was Illinois; among the more civilized and developed states in the Union at the time.
The average marriage age of females in the 19th century was 20-years-old.
Joseph didn’t just marry one teenage girl. 11 of his wives were teenagers under the age of 20. So, a good size chunk of his wives were not adults.
The definition of pedophilia that you just listed states “prepubescent children”. 19th century girls did not start puberty until 15-years-old and seeking out 14-year-old girls to have sexual relations with them (as this was the only justification per D&C 132 for polygamy) was pedophilic. Is “pedophilia” a perfect definition of Joseph Smith? No. But it’s a better match than Hebephilia and Ephebophilia in light of later puberty of 19th century girls and Joseph’s marriage to not one but two 14-year-old girls.
Joseph Smith wasn’t just Joe Schmo on the street. He was supposedly a “Prophet, Seer, and Revelator” who had a direct line of communication with Deity. What he did by marrying other men’s wives and 14-year-old girls was not only vile and despicable, but it was morally and legally wrong in both his society and culture as well as ours. It is not unreasonable for us to expect Elohim to smack him on the head and say, “Joseph, this is vile and sick stuff. Stop it.” If Prophets can’t figure out what’s right or wrong (polyandry, pedophilia, racism, blood atonement, etc.), what good are they? Prophets, SEERS, and Revelators should transcend all of this and be superior in the understanding of morality than their peers in their own society and culture.
“… the disorder extends the cut-off point for prepubescence to age 13.” Don’t use big words for the shock value when you don’t know exactly what they mean.
“…the disorder extends the cut-off point for prepubescence to age 13”
Of course it’s 13 because 13 is considered late puberty-wise in the 21st century. It wasn’t in the 19th century, which was 15 for girls. The “sex with prepubescent children” definition still applies to both time periods whether you like it or not.
Nearly 40 year old men having sex or attempting to have sex with prepubescent children was wrong then just as it is wrong now. Call it whatever you’d like. I’m sticking with pedophilia because the general accepted definition is “sexual relations with prepubescent children.” I’m sorry if this nasty fact puts a dent into your belief system and your prophet.
I will say it again: it is an error to use late 20th century diagnoses for early 19th century people. And you continue to side-step the fact that the large majority of his wives were adults. This indicates what his “primary” attractions were. Just give it up.
You’re using a very narrow definition of the term. I’m using the generally accepted use of the term, which is “sexual relations with prepubescent children”.
Several definitions:
“Pedophilia is defined as the fantasy or act of sexual activity with prepubescent children.”
– https://www.psychologytoday.com/conditions/pedophilia
“…psychosexual disorder in which an adult has sexual fantasies about or engages in sexual acts with a prepubescent child of the same or the opposite sex.”
– https://www.britannica.com/EBchecked/topic/448575/pedophilia
If clinging to a very tight and not generally accepted/known definition of this helps you in some way continue to sing “Praise to the Man” in Sacrament meeting? More power to you.
To the rest of us non-“licensed psychotherapists”? 40-year-old men having sex or seeking sex with prepubescent girls = pedophilia.
It’s clear where we both stand. I’m ready to move on.
I am using the actual definition from the Diagnostic Statistical Manual (DSM): “Over a period of at least 6 months, recurrent, intense sexually arousing fantasies, sexual urges, or behaviors involving sexual activity with a prepubescent child or children (generally age 13 years or younger)”.
You have no actual proof that he had sex with ALL his wives, or when he may have started having sex with them. You are chosing to ignore the 13-year-old cut-off in the diagnostic criteria. You are guessing, and chosing to assume the worst. I chose to assume the best.
All I am asking is that if you are going to use diagnostic words, please be accurate (it would be Ephebophilia, not Pedophilia). I am guessing you don’t want to use that because it has far less shock value; most people don’t know that word.
As I mentioned, I also experienced a crisis of faith. I felt anger and betrayal as you did. I can really understand that. At the end of the day, I would rather be like Richard Bushman, and not people like you. My testimony of Joseph is stronger now than ever, although it was very shakey for a while. God saw fit to make me a Mormon. I have chosen to stay and make it better rather than leave and try to tear it down.
I am sorry you left the Church. I am glad that you are happy though. I am also ready to move on. Best of luck.
Max: “You are chosing to ignore the 13-year-old cut-off in the diagnostic criteria. You are guessing, and chosing to assume the worst. I chose to assume the best.”
Jeremy: I don’t have a problem with that definition. It’s a focus on PREPUBESCENT children. The reason why it’s “generally age 13 years or younger” is because this is generally when modern children have already reached puberty.
As mentioned previously, children in the 19th century experienced puberty later but the definition of “sexual fantasies/urges/behaviors involving sexual activity with prepubescent children” still applies.
You’re so hung up on the “cut off at 13”. You are intentionally ignoring the fact that this age is based on modern children experiencing puberty while ignoring the fact that 19th century children experienced puberty later.
You kept banging pans and yelling that I was making an error in using “late 20th century diagnoses for early 19th century people” but this hasn’t stopped you from applying the “Ephebophilia” label and diagnosis – twice – on Joseph Smith.
Pedophilia fits Joseph Smith better than the other terms because he married at least two prepubescent children. No shock value necessary. The term is a better match to these marriages to prepubescent children. If children in the 19th century experienced puberty earlier like 21st century children do? Then I would agree with you on the Ephebophilia diagnosis.
Max says: “You have no actual proof that he had sex with ALL his wives, or when he may have started having sex with them.”
Jeremy says: He MARRIED them at 14-years-old…lol. Per D&C 132 polygamy rulebook and Jacob 2:30, Joseph had no business marrying these prepubescent children other than to “multiply and replenish the earth”, “bear the souls of men”, and “raise seed” (sexual relations). If he didn’t marry these girls to have sex and children with them? He was doing it wrong, was violating the polygamy rules and rulebook, and had no business marrying the girls.
Max: “As I mentioned, I also experienced a crisis of faith. I felt anger and betrayal as you did. I can really understand that. At the end of the day, I would rather be like Richard Bushman, and not people like you. My testimony of Joseph is stronger now than ever, although it was very shakey for a while. God saw fit to make me a Mormon. I have chosen to stay and make it better rather than leave and try to tear it down.”
Jeremy: Good for you. I don’t judge you for doing so. If it works for you, then awesome. It’s just too bad that you cannot suspend judgment for “people like me”.
Max: “I am sorry you left the Church. I am glad that you are happy though. I am also ready to move on. Best of luck.”
Jeremy: I’m not. Aside from marrying my wife, leaving Mormonism is the best thing I’ve ever done. Speaking for myself, I’ve reclaimed my mind, my integrity, and my freedom. Mental gymnastics and contortion in trying to keep a Mormon belief system somewhat intact? Gone.
I’m so ready to move from on this subject as well. It’s starting to become an annoying tape loop of repetition.
Thanks for your kind words. Wishing you the best as well.
I find it hard to believe….”that’ all right, I still have my guitar”.
To clarify, what I find “hard to believe” in my previous statement, I am referring to those who try to counter Jeremy’s powerful points with nit-picking reasoning that ignore the big picture he has presented so well. “They strain at gnats and swallow camels”.
Jeremy’s view that the Book of Mormon could be a “remix” is quite logical. Just consider how most great artistic geniuses compose works. Musical composers, painters, architects, designers, writers and scientists, all draw inspiration from many sources of previous artists (standing of the shoulders of giants) to “remix” and create their own masterpieces. Such great works are “man made”, and don’t pretend, in most cases, to be anything more than that. Some do express appreciation and thanks to God for inspiration, along with thanks to teachers, parents, and the other artists that inspired them.
When one considers the ingenious mind that creates a religious masterpiece, it can be seen that such creations are also a “remix” of the great works of others, reformed in a new composition. Each follower of their own religion and church “feel” they have the truth….some even “know” they have the truth. If you consider they are all “man made”, then it makes sense, why there is such a staggering variety of religions.
Thank you very much Jeremy and John, for your work and sincere efforts to help others see more clearly, and honestly with these important matters.
Med student, RM, BR member at time of departure dad of 4, Pioneer stock with some family who have disowned as a result of choosing to be consistant in all aspects of my life and organizations I align and stand publicly in support of. Being true to myself and becoming aware of the deep degree of deception and withheld facts tucked away in the church, from my wife this year, has culminated to folding the hand and leaving. Couldnt be happier and explained to my parents that I feel bad for their pain and love them unconditionally, but do not accept responsiblity for the pain they now feel, as it is a product of poor choices on behalf of the church. This adjustment for increasing my pursuit for morality on my terms has only one to blame and I refuse to be the fall-guy; I have dont nothing wrong but to accept and remove myself from things that are wrong and harmful. Honesty is the best policy, and does not require 189 years of exceptions which I am compelled upon family extortion punishment and mind control to have no choice but to congeal and submit to.
This was my absolute lifesaver after reading the Gospel Topics Essays and it’s footnotes on the church website. I lost my ‘steadfast testimony of the LDS Church in 2 hours time.
The CES Letter reinforced that I was correct in my logical thinking based on the facts I read in black and white. I realized I was not alone, still a good person, and that though I had been indoctrinated as a Mormon for over 40 years, I could move out and onward from my old way of thinking and believing.
Honest, forthcoming, inquiring and respectful are words I think of when reading the CES letter. Also, I resonate with Mr. Runnells’ need for answers, his earnest quest for truth and his disheartened tone in the CES Letter. I have been there too. It’s the worst feeling to be betrayed by your beliefs and the Church. However, it gets SO much better and the CES Letter helps you learn the truth and move forward with positivity.
Thank you Jeremy Runnells!
Jeremy, I’m not writing to convince you that the LDS Church is true (although I believe it); I’m writing to take away your excuses for leaving the Church. I’m not saying you made the wrong decision, I’m only saying that your excuses don’t work. If you were to say “I left because I want to,” I can accept that. You invited us (on John Dehlin’s program) to be honest. Admitting that you just want to leave is an honest answer. Your 3-hour long overview of your letter with John Dehlin is not being honest—at least in the event you read this letter without successfully debunking the issues herein.
The issues you covered sound good on the surface, but the fact is you only presented the surface skin of each issue. You didn’t delve very deep into each one. Delving deeper reveals the true nature of each issue which, if willfully ignored, constitutes deceit and fraud. Here are the real issues:
Blessings of Healing: No negative judgment should be made if a priesthood holder’s blessing is not successful. Jesus once gave someone a blessing to see, but the guy still couldn’t see well, so Jesus gave him another one. The lesson here is not Jesus’s power, but some other element; maybe his faith needed a boost, which undoubtedly happened when he was only partially healed. Also, blessings are honored only if the recipient does something as directed by the Spirit or priesthood holder, like the directive to “go dip yourself in the river 7 times.” Faith plays a big part in healing. After Jesus healed some people, He said it was their faith that healed them. Jeremy, please don’t tell me it was only medicine that helped you to hear. God uses natural means to bring off His miracles. If you deny that, then you are assuming you know how God works, and I doubt you have the wisdom and spirituality to do that. The miraculous part of your hearing victory could be the possibility that God inspired your doctor on how to make your cochlear implant to work. Can you be sure that didn’t happen? Issue solved.
I’d like to interject here, a thought on witnesses from the Holy Ghost. I used to have a “testimony,” like the one you said you had. There existed no reason, then, that would cause me to leave the Church. But leave the Church I did. So a “strong testimony” is not enough. Through a series of incredible experiences and workings of the Holy Ghost, I received what I call “witnesses” from the Holy Ghost. His witnesses are like visions, and mine were even more powerful than a vision might be. They are unmistakable. The first witness showed me that my “testimony” that I had earlier wasn’t mine at all; it was copied from my peers and teachers. These special witnesses brought me back into the Church. I can now use the phrase “I know” with dead seriousness. These experiences taught me that if anyone leaves the Church, it’s basically because they haven’t had a true witness from the Holy Ghost—a witness like I’ve had. I know this, because the only thing, now, that would cause me to leave the Church is the same type of go-ahead from God through the Holy Ghost, not because of some worldly man-made internet tale about a Church history problem. We can’t rely on human logic (which the Bible condemns) to learn truth. Religion isn’t logic-based. One example is that we believe Mary gave birth to a baby while being a virgin.
Moving on:
If you heard that an LDS prophet said there are Quakers on the moon, you should have dealt deeper: The accuracy of that quote is in question: It was heard by a child, and recorded many years later. We don’t know if Joseph was joking. We had to have been there. Issue solved.
You were shocked to read about polyandry. But did you look further, and notice that Joseph was just sealed to some (not married)? And did you see that some of the women were either abandoned or widowed? Problem solved.
You mentioned that Joseph Smith married 14-year-old girls. No, it was a sealing, and it was her father that requested it. She lived with her family after the ceremony. Another problem bites the dust.
You said that Joseph kept his polygamous practice a secret, and hid it from his wife. Watch the following videos to explain the need for secrecy, and to see how polygamy was not instituted for pleasure:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QF-vD2FlMjo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyayaQinIjY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJt25FjTEqY
FYI, Grant Palmer cannot be trusted, since he has an axe to grind. To save time, give me two or three of his claims and I’ll address them. By the same token, Gerald and Sandra Tanner may be giants with shoulders to stand on, but they also can’t be trusted, as they also have an axe to grind. I have a video that shows why Sandra can’t be trusted. If you want to see it, just ask. One thing Sandra said was that Joseph claimed that only Jesus came in the First Vision. My cousin pointed out to her that the source she used doesn’t use the word “only.” She apologized. Therefore there’s no use in claiming that one version of Joseph’s First Vision says that only Jesus appeared to him.
Jeremy, I think you merely copied data from detractors on these issues and on this next issue without doing research, because they turn up so frequently in anti-Mormon literature. The different versions of the First Vision represent different focal points depending on what Joseph was wanting to cover at the time. The different accounts happen when different subject matter is the theme. If Joseph wanted to tell someone that he was forgiven of his sins, there was no need to tell the whole story. At one time, he was focusing on how Jesus forgave him of his sins, so that’s why he mentioned Jesus, without telling the rest of the story. His statement in no way excludes the visit of the Father. We know that Joseph tends to focus only on the subject at hand when he relates the first vision. This is shown in the 1838 version in the Pearl of Great Price. Here, he doesn’t mention the forgiveness of sins, because he was talking about his question of which Church to join. He reported that the Father said, “This is my beloved son; hear him.” This sounds like a cue for Jesus to say something, but Joseph didn’t record what Jesus said – at least in that version. He DID record it in an earlier version. It is customary for Jesus to forgive someone of their sins before He gets into business. But Joseph didn’t record that, because he was talking about the question of which church to join. Do you agree this problem is solved?
Richard Bushman was a scholar, but it can be shown that he didn’t have access to all historical documents, and therefore didn’t correctly represent the history he was addressing.
You said John Dehlin provides both side of each issue. I didn’t see that in the three hour-long sessions of your interviews. Just sayin.’
You said you got a lot of stuff—not from anti-LDS sources, but—from LDS literature. It’s easy to find damming information that way, because some issues have branching details that are often excluded. It doesn’t work to use that tack, which has been attempted with other detractors.
The Adam/God theory was never fully explained by Brigham, and therefore is not part of the LDS canon. Can’t use that against us.
You said you’d go back to Church if you moved to Hawaii. Right there, you just admitted that your problem is with the people, not the doctrine. People do not a true church make.
To slam the Book of Mormon based on Biblical quotes won’t work either, because you weren’t there, and don’t know all the details. Here are some facts that shed light on that problem: I’m sure Joseph copied many verses directly from the King James Bible. He did it so as not to endure the “consuming” presence of the Lord and/or His angels. This solves the problem of the changes in the Sermon on the Mount because The BofM version was probably copied (for the reasons I give following), but the Inspired Version came later (I think?).
One witness was converted to the church simply by witnessing the effect that the translation process had on Joseph Smith and Oliver Cowdery. Her name was Sally Heller Conrad.
In June of 1829, Mary Whitmer was hard at work taking care of her own family, but she also faced the added burden of taking care of Joseph and Oliver, who were translating the Book of Mormon in her home. Exhausted and overworked, Mary hired Sally to help her around the house. Eighteen-year-old Sally likely thought this would be a job like any other, but she soon noticed something unusual. She later told a friend that she saw Joseph and Oliver “come down from the translating room several times when they looked so exceedingly white and strange” that she asked Mary Whitmer what was going on.
Because of the sacred nature of the work and fear of persecution, the Whitmers did not tell Sally what was happening. But finally, after seeing this happen multiple times, Sally said she would leave if Mary did not tell her what was going on. Mary finally explained that Joseph and Oliver were translating a sacred record from golden plates, “and that the power of God was so great in the room that they could hardly endure it: at times angels were in the room in their glory, which nearly consumed them.”
Mary’s explanation satisfied Sally, who not only stayed to help the Whitmers, but eventually joined the church because of her experiences. She would eventually marry in the church, come west with the Saints, and die in Provo, Utah at the age of 92 (From Book of Mormon Central Reprinted in Meridian Magazine, Nov.28, 2017).
I haven’t heard of Joseph Smith accepting money to perform the service of looking into his hat in order to tell his clients where to find the gold. Please give me the source you got that from.
Treasure hunting was quite popular in Joseph’s day. You yourself mentioned how many people dabbled in it. In fact, it was considered to be quite a favorable activity in those days. I’ll get you the source on that, if you ask.
I think you also copied data from detractors on this next issue without doing research, because it turns up so frequently in anti-Mormon literature. According to some of my sources, comparing the Book of Mormon to “Hebrews….” and “Late War” is pushing it a bit. Wouldn’t you agree? If you want details, ask.
You said there were no revivals in 1820. Another copied and worn-out claim. With greater access to technology that helps us find obscure details, there is plenty of evidence of revivals around Palmyra in 1820. In those days, revivals were so common, that they did not generate “news,” unless a death was reported in connection with a revival. To find that information, see:
https://www.fairmormon.org/answers/Joseph_Smith%27s_First_Vision/Religious_activity_in_the_Palmyra_area_in_1820#Christofferson
Jeremy, this is also a frequent worn-out claim: When reading the BofM along with the Bible, you should be able to see that whenever the scriptures say the Father and the Son are one, they’re talking of “one in purpose.” It means the same thing that John 17 uses when Jesus asks the Father that He and His disciples be one.
Changes in the Book of Mormon: When the BofM was transcribed, there was no verse divisions, or punctuation. (The following is my opinion; tell me if it’s faulty thinking): About the only major changes were when they changed the descriptions of Jesus, from “the Eternal Father” to “the Son of the Eternal Father.” In our doctrine, Jesus has both those titles, so doctrine isn’t really changed. The only reason it was changed was for our benefit in this generation, to show that it was talking about Jesus. When Nephi wrote his “son of God” verse, he understood the nuances as Abinadi explained, because he was writing with the spirit of prophecy. The Book of Mormon was translated with that same phraseology, because it is expected that the reader would read with the same spirit of prophecy. But since there are many who do not have the spirit of prophecy, Joseph Smith thought it wise to be more specific, so as to not encourage error. So it wasn’t a doctrinal change: it was a doctrinal clarification.
The Kinderhook Plates:
Anything said about them was a second-hand comment from one of Joseph’s followers, wording it in the first-person as if Joseph said it, after Joseph died. I can get you the details on that if you wish. But Joseph didn’t buy the plates, nor did he attempt to translate them. This shows he really didn’t fall for the so-called hoax.
I’d like your source where you claimed the FAIRMORMON admitted that the man on the couch was Osiris.
I believe I worded each issue in a way that invites you or the reader to admit that everything I said is true. I say this, because I didn’t promote doctrine; I only stated facts from Church history or credible scholars. If you disagree with anything I said, please tell me. I live for accuracy and truth. If you don’t respond to my issues, I’ll take that as an admission from you that your excuses for leaving the LDS Church are no longer valid.
“If you don’t respond to my issues, I’ll take that as an admission from you that your excuses for leaving the LDS Church are no longer valid.”
Does it need to be said that it’s unreasonable to assume that not responding to your dumb issues is evidence that his leaving the LDS Church are no longer valid?
yes good